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Copyright by Argus Communications Co., 1967 Revised 1972
WHY AM
I
AFRAID TO LOVE?
TABLE OF CONTENTS
1.
Man's
Invitation to
Love
2.
Human
3.
The Self Image
4.
The Maturing Process
5.
Learning to Love
Pains
in a
Loveless World
Beloved, let us
love one another,
because love takes
and everyone is
a child of
origin in
its
God,
that loves
God
and knows God. He who has no love does not know God,
God
because
is
love.
God's love
was made among us by the
manifest
fact that
God Son
sent his only-begotten
world
into the
that
we might have
life
through him. This love consists
our having loved
not
in
but
in his
and
having sent
his
God
having loved us his
Son
as a propitiation for our sins.
Beloved, if
God
we
so loved us,
in turn
ought
to love
one another. 1
John 4:7-11
MAN'S INVITATION TO LOVE
/
The word Latin
word
back.
By
religion
which means
religare,
of
practice
his
derived from a
is
to
religion
bind
man
God who is his omega (destiny). To
binds himself back to alpha (origin) and
anyone
who
is
familiar with the
Testament there can be no doubt
New
that the
and the essential bond between man and his God is love. When Jesus was asked by the Pharisees: essential act of religion
"Which
is
the greatest
commandment?"
he answered: "You must love the Lord your God with heart, with all your soul, This
is
the greatest
and
The second resembles
and the
it:
neighbor as vo^self."
What does
it
mean
all
your
with all your mind.
first
commandment.
You must love your Matthew 23: 35-39 to love
God with
soul and mind? would John answer this St. question by telling us that before anyone can really give his heart, soul and mind to God, he must first know how much
one's
whole
heart,
I
think that
God
has loved him,
about him from to share his
all
how God
has thought
eternity,
and desired
life, joy,
and love with him.
Christian love
a response to
God's
one has somehow perceived
until
has
he sent
in-
and there can be no response
finite love,
God
is
much
loved him, so
first
that
so that
only-begotten Son to be our
his
salvation.
More than he
have love;
God does
this, is
ing with another
is
giving
If
God
sence of love, then
love.
is
acquire nothing because he
needs nothing because he all
goodness and
seeks to share ness which
self-diffusive;
is
So the
itself.
God
is
me
.
.
.
with
We know our
own
infinite
it
good-
seeks to communicate,
to diffuse, to share itself
with
is
He can
God. He God. He has is
riches within him-
all
But goodness
self.
not simply
and sharthe character and es-
love.
all
.
.
.
with you
.
.
.
of us.
something of
this love in
instincts to share that
which
is
good and sights,
is our possession: good ingood news, good rumors. Per-
haps the best analogy perience
couple, very alive
our
human
ex-
young married love and very much
much
in
because of that love, wishing to
share their love and
which
in
that of the
is
it
is
in their
life
power
with
new
life
to beget. But 11
it
even more than this with God who man: if the mother should forget the
is
tells
child of her
womb
will
I
never forget
you! precisely this that
It is
most
failures to love
God
is
the point of
truly.
Most of
us are not deeply aware of his fatherly,
even tender, son
who
love, with
who
love.
It is
especially the per-
has never experienced a of
all
its
human
life-giving effects,
has never been introduced to the
God who human
of
is
love through the sacrament
love, that stands at a serious
The God
disadvantage.
wishes to share
his life
of
and joy
love
who
will prob-
ably seem like the product of an over-
heated imagination
—
unreal.
no human being who will not eventually respond to love if only he can realize that he is loved. On the other hand, if the life and world of a person There
is
is
marked by the absence of
reality of
God's love
love, the
evoke soul and
will hardly
the response of his whole heart,
mind. False
be 12
Gods Before Us
The God who enters such a life will fearsome and frowning idol, de-
a
manding only
of Genesis tells
Boole
made it
fear of his devotees. The
God
us that
has
us to his image and likeness, but
the most perduring temptation of
is
man to invert this, to make God human image and likeness. Each of us has his
own
to his
unique and
very limited concept of God, and
it
is
very often marked and distorted by hu-
man
experience. Negative emotions, like
fear,
tend to wear out. The distorted
image of
a
vengeful
God
will eventually
nauseate and be rejected. Fear is bond of union, a brittle basis of
a fragile
religion.
may well be that this is why God's commandment is that we love one another. Unselfish human love is the sacramental introduction to the God of love. Man must go through the door of human giving to find the God who gives It
second
himself.
Those torted
ow
who do
image
will
not reject such a dis-
limp along
in
the shad-
of a frown, but they certainly will
not love with their whole heart, soul and
mind. Such a will
God
is
not loveable. There
never be any trust and repose
in
the
loving arms of a Father; there will never 13
be any mystique of belonging to God. The person who serves out of fear, without the realization of love, will try to bargain with God. He will do little
make
things for God,
little
offerings, say
prayers, etc. to embezzle a place in
little
the heaven of his God. Life and religion will
be
chess-game, hardly an
a
affair
of
love.
Response to God's Love
who
open to the realiGod's love will want to make
The person zation of
is
some response of his own love. How can he make a meaningful response if this
God cannot
acquire and needs nothing?
John points out the place of human
St.
response:
We
know what
Christ laid to
Beloved,
is
a
down
let us
child of
from the fact that Jesus
lives
We,
too,
for our brothers
ought .
.
.
love one another, because love
origin in
its
is
his life for us.
down our
lay
takes
love
God, and everyone that
loves
God and knows God. He who has God is
no love does not know God, because love
.
.
.
No one
has ever seen God, yet
love one another,
God
abides
in
us
if
we
and our
love for him reaches perfection. 1
14
John 3:16; 4:7-12
Meeting God
most costly part
other
in
humans
is
the
of the dialogue between
God and man. The nature of man requires that he somehow contact God in way.
a bodily or sensibly perceptible
the Old Testament
thunder and
God came
New
the
man
a
a
Sinai;
in
his
burning bush.
In
Testament God's goodness to
man and
cross for
is
raised in
agony on
you and me. "This
say mean when Incarnation God brought I
in
man
to
even more astonishing: He be-
is
comes
over
lightning
voice emerged from
In
I
is
what
a I
love you." In the his gifts to
man
the earthen vessel of humanity that
He might speak our language and we might know what he is really like.
God expected men
Just as
him under the
when
that
veil
to find
of humanity, even
humanity was
a red
mask of
now he expects men to find him under other human veils. It will, indeed, cost a man a great deal if he takes God seriously on this point:
blood and agony, so
".
.
eat;
.
I
For
was
/
was hungry, and you gave me to and you gave me to drink;
thirsty
I
was a stranger and you took me into your home; I was naked, and you covered me; I was 15
sick,
and you
you came
me;
visited
to see
was
I
in prison,
and
me."
Then those who are saved
say to Him:
will
when did we see you hungry and feed you? or thirsty and give you to drink? And when did we see you a stranger and take you into our homes? or naked and cover you? When did we see you sick or in prison, and come to "Lord,
visit
And
you?" in
"I tell
explanation the King
you the plain
the least of
my
truth,
will
say to them:
whatever you did
to
brethren, you did to me!"
Matthew 25.35-40
The early Christians did not distinguish love of God from love of man; in fact
they had one word, agape, to de-
scribe the
one love
that simultaneously
embraces the God of love and the
least
of his brethren.
But times
all
this
is
old stuff,
when we grow
Word
that
is
stale.
us,
we
it
When
is
Some-
there
stale,
temptation to think that of generous response
isn't it?
really
is
a
God's
the dimensions
seem shrunken
are tempted to turn
the real issue, to look for
in
away from
more
practical,
relevant issues to discuss. This
is
a
dangerous thing
to do: to
avoid confrontation with the real chal16
lenge of God's Word.
Someday we
shall
meet him. The danger of embarrassment is great. He just might ask as he extends his hands to greet us just beyond the door of death: all
inevitably
"Where are your wounds?" just
It
tine,
might be
who
that,
with
St.
Augus-
wrestled a long time before
succumbing
to grace,
we
shall
have to
say:
"Too
late,
O
Lord, too late have
I
loved you."
The Meaning of Love Whatever of love,
it
is
else can
and should be
said
quite evident that true love
demands self-forgetfulness. If there are many people who use the word and claim the reality without knowing the meaning of the word or being able to love to any great extent, this
Con we
many
really forget ourselves?
is
the
test:
There are
counterfeit products on the market
which are called love, but which in fact are falsely named. We can sometimes label the gratification of our needs "love"; we can even do things for others without really loving. The acid test is always the probing question of self-forgetfulness. 17
Can we really locate the focus of our minds on the happiness and fulfillment of others? Can we really ask not what others will do for us, but only what we can do for them? love, then
we
If
we must
really
want
to
ask ourselves these
questions.
We
we own
must become aware that
capable of using people for our
are
ad-
vantage, for the satisfaction of our deep
and throbbing human needs, and be deluded into thinking that this love.
who
The young man
love a
really
is
professes to
young woman may often be de-
ceived
in
of his
own
tutes love.
thinking that the gratification egotistical urges really consti-
woman who
The young
the voids of her
own
finds
loneliness filled
by
the companionship and attention of a
young man may well mistake
this
emo-
tional satisfaction for love. Likewise, the
mother and father
who
promote the success of
anxiously try to
their children can
easily rationalize their desire for the vi-
carious experiences of success
and con-
vince themselves that they are
loving
The critical question always remains that of self-forgetfulness. Does the
parents.
young man
or
woman,
the mother or 19
father really forget himself and his
convenience and emotional to seek only the happiness
ment
of the
own
satisfaction,
and
fulfill-
beloved? These are not
merely theoretical questions. The
fact of
most of us, our own needs are so palpable and real to us, that it is enormously difficult for the seed to fall into the ground and die to itself the matter
before
20
it
is
can
that, for
live a life of love.
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HUMAN
PAINS IN A LOVELESS WORLD
2
All of us to
some extent
are enduring
agonies of loneliness, frustration, emo-
and
tional
spiritual starvation.
Somehow
these pains are radically due to failures in
love.
pain
is
The essential sadness of such it magnetizes the focus of our
that
attention; selves.
it
And
preoccupies
solute obstacle to a
once asked
I
mine,
"How
us
with our-
self-preoccupation life
is
an ab-
of love.
a Psychiatrist friend of
can you teach
people to
was mildly surprising, to say the least. He answered the question by asking one of his own: "Did you ever have a toothache? Of whom were love?" His answer
you thinking during the
distress of
your
When
toothache?" His point was
clear.
we
be only the
are in pain, even
if
it
passing discomforts of an aching tooth,
we
are thinking about ourselves.
The Psychiatrist continued: "This pain-filled
And
world
in
which
we
the pains that reside
is
a
are living.
deep
in
the 23
human
around us are not
hearts
toothaches.
night and
We
go
bed with them at with them in the
to
we wake up
morning. Two-thirds of
beds
like
in this
country are
mental patients.
One
all
the hospital
now
occupied by
out of ten Ameri-
cans has already been treated for mental illness. The pain inside of them simply became too deep and required profes-
The suicide
sional attention.
rates in the
eighteen to twenty-one year age group is
extremely high. Suicide ranks as the
third highest killer in this
age group.
In
the twenty-one to twenty-four year age
group, is
it is
the fourth highest
a pain-filled
we
killer.
This
world, and so, a loveless
Most human beings are so turned-in by their own pains that they cannot get enough out of themselves to love to any great extent." world that
live in.
Person and Personality Each of us person. to
is
a
unique and individual
We sometimes facetiously
others:
"After
broke the mold." fashioned
in a
God made In fact,
remark
you,
each of us
he is
unique mold. There never
has been and never will be anyone exactly like
24
you or me. However,
at the be-
ginning of the
like
person
life this
bud of
a
is,
as
it
were,
flower or plant: closed.
Only when the bud of the flower receives warmth from the sun and nourishment from the mothering soil will it open and expose all of the beauty that is latent within
it.
So, too, the
the beginning of
warmth
of
life
human
human person
must receive the and
love, assurance
the nourishment of parental affection is
to
that
at
if it
open and expose the unique beauty
God
has placed within every
human
individual. Personality, in the sense
are adopting here,
which
we
the social manifes-
is
tation or expression of person.
We
ex-
press ourselves and the unique personal
beauty radiated
ics
is
of
what psychologists
human
various ways.
call
self-revela-
the dynam-
personality.
We know is
in
opening and
This process of tion
us
in
that
if
the bud of a flower
injured by hostile forces, like an un-
seasonal frost,
it
will not
human person who
is
open. So, too, a
without the
warm
who must
encouragement of
love,
endure the
absence of praise and
chilling
affection, will
and
remain closed
in
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The dynamics of his personality will be jammed. And, if the dynamics of personality are seriously impeded, the result
self.
will
be what psychologists
call neurosis.
Although there are many valid descriptions of neurosis, neuroses are ly
recognized
in
the form of
common-
a crippling
go
inability to relate well to others, to
out to them
and to accept
them
as they
are without fear of rejection.
The
First
Those
Seven Years of
who have been
Life
driven by their
discomfort to seek professional help from a clinical psychologist or psychiatrist are
often surprised that the doctor evinces particular interest in the earliest
mem-
ories of his patient's childhood.
is
It
the
unanimous consensus of psychologists that our basic personalities are fairly well
formed in the Although it is
first
seven years of
a truth
life.
which most of us
find ourselves reluctant to accept,
it
is
we do retain the psytraits which we manifested at for the rest of our lives. If we
quite obvious that chological
age seven
were quiet and predominately inward that age, the chances are that
quiet and inward; 28
if
we were
we
are
at
still
boisterous
extroverts at age seven, the chances are that others
have
still
to bear with our
boisterous extroversion.
Although
is
it
during these
some way
first
we
this age,
tissue
have acquired
seven years remain
with us for
psychological
the
difficult to accept,
psychological scars that
No
life.
in
very deep
problems originate
after
although these scars and scar-
may be aggravated
or inflamed
by circumstances occurring later in our lives. The rather common prejudice is that
we
are
fates
personally the masters of our
and the captains of our
truth of the matter
is
that
souls; the
we
are very
largely shaped by others, who, in an almost frightening way, hold our destiny in their
hands.
We
product of those
each of
are,
who have
us, the
loved us
.
.
.
or refused to love us.
Anxiety There are three basic emotional problems with which extent, live.
all
The
anxiety. Anxiety irrational fear of
of us must, to
first
of these
may be what
called
described as the
on unknown
are not quite sure
is
some
it
is
object.
that
is
We
both-
29
ering us, but
easiness
in
we
uneasiness
this
are
aware of the un-
our minds and the effects of in
our nervous system and
we
digestive tracts. To the extent that
bear the scar-tissue of anxiety,
something
that
wrong
is
or
we
fear
go
will
wrong. The deeply anxious person lives his life under Murphy's Law: "What can go wrong will go wrong." Murphy's Law is illustrated each time that we drop our toast. It always lands jam-side down. The defense mechanisms
human
into
built
many and complicated. its own anesthetics. example, when we are enduring nature are
Nature seems to seek For
such great physical pain that the thresh-
(endurance
old
capacity)
pain
of
is
crossed, nature often seeks the anesthetic
of unconsciousness.
itself
find
is
a
common
We
faint. Insanity
refuge for those
who
unbearable. It is an escape from and too-painful world with which
life
a real
the individual finds
it
impossible to cope.
So with anxiety, human nature has its
own
built-in
defense. Nature tends to
constrict the general fear of anxiety into
particular fears called phobias.
A
phobia
can be defined as an irrational fear of a 30
known but
unrealistic object. Rather
than
submit to the constant uneasiness of anxiety,
nature seeks to relieve us by con-
and
stricting
restricting this general fear
into particular
moments. There are many
who
people, for example,
look under
their beds at night before retiring, even though they have found nothing but dust
there for
who
many
years. There are others
cannot endure the
closed-in
cloister
of
a
place (claustrophobia). Others
are unable to endure the possible perils
of a high place (acrophobia). These phobias,
stant
designed to spare us from the contremors of anxiety,
many and deep-seated
are
usually
the seriously
in
anxious person.
Causes
in
the genesis of anxiety are
Psychologists, howbecoming increasingly aware of the importance of what are called
not easy to trace.
ever, are
pre-natal experiences.
When
a
woman
is
on its mother's bloodstream. Hematology (the study of blood and its diseases) has revealed the changes in blood chemistry which carrying a child, the child
is
occur during the traumatic
human
life.
We
are
all
moments
of
aware of the
physical effects of our emotions, of the 31
adrenalin flushing into our blood streams, the palpitating heart and the beads of perspiration that form on our foreheads
and
in
the palms of our hands.
The fetus or embryo, forming
mother and effects.
its
by her blood-
nourished
stream, experiences these
and
in
same impulses
They are also transmitted by
the muscular contractions of the mother's
body, which the fetus likewise experi-
The fetus records these experiences and retains them both in its braincells and nervous system which is formed ences.
during the period of gestation.
woman
is
When
a
consistently upset emotionally
during this
period
of
pregnancy,
the
be born will receive and retain the message, transmitted via blood chemistry and muscular contraction: this is a very insecure world into which it is coming. child to
We birth
is
hold
it.
know
also
very sensitive to the hands that If it is
dropped quickly or moved
quickly, this abrupt tion causes an tion.
The infant
muscles will 32
that the infant after
and unexpected mo-
immediate nervous will arch
stiffen.
its
reac-
back and
Only gradually
its
will
those muscles relax and
become supple
do not hear soft sounds, loud noises shock the infansudden but again. Infants
tile
nervous system; again the back will
arch and stiffen, the muscles will
become
tense and rigid. Consequently, the nerv-
ous hands and abrupt movements, the
exploding voices of the infant's parents tend to reinforce the message of
will
which will be retained in the brain cells and nervous system of the anxiety,
child for
life.
Very often
we
call
the seriously anx-
ious person a "worry-wart."
persons,
in
We tell these
our naivete and lack of com-
passion, that they shouldn't worry.
We
even accuse them of looking for things worry about. Actually the person who is given to worry has very little control
to
over these passion
is
instincts,
and our
lack of
com-
hardly of help to him.
The Guilt Complex The second basic emotional to
which
heirs,
is
all
of us are to
affliction,
some extent
called the guilt complex.
The
first
thing that must be said about this guilt
complex
is
that
it
is
unrelated to actual 33
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has are encouraging symptoms of
awakening. He questions author-
lectual ity
and even
his religious faith.
make
his convictions his
ing to
must never be scolded time of sitive
intel-
life
He is tryown. He
for this.
when he most needs
sympathy of
It
is
the
the sen-
his parents.
The adolescent is especially sensitive to criticism and disparagement. He needs abundant affection, encouragement, praise
and attention
to counteract the
demoralizing experiences of the
room, the
athletic field
class-
and the scramble
for social acceptance. Bragging or belittling others
is
only his
personal insecurity, and
way
to conceal
its
importance
should not be exaggerated. Those volunteer to "take him
him
down
a
who
peg" do
a great disservice.
The most serious adjustment of the is the emancipation from fam-
adolescent ily
bonds. Overprotective or possessive
parents are terribly frustrating to him,
and he may develop an allergy for all authority as a result. He may even try to appear to be dirty or disheveled to serve notice to the world that all parental training in cleanliness has been successfully
92
The emancipation that should
rejected.
be taking place during this time involves emergence from parental supervi-
".
.
.
upon the
sion, reliance
security that
one
can give himself rather than upon the
by parents, development of an attitude toward parents as friends rather than as protectors and security provided
supervisors, planning of one's
and making one's
own
own
time
decision without
over-bearing parental control."
(cf.
Luella
Cole, The Psychology of Adolescent, 3rd edition, p. 7.)
The problem of the sexual urge very
If
he
is
to learn the true relation-
between sex and
ship
tant that
a
source of confusion to the ado-
real
lescent.
is
he
love,
it
is
impor-
feel free to discuss these
shame with He must be helped to accept
matters openly and without his parents. his
new
tural
sexual feelings as normal, na-
and good. He must
wisdom gence
is
of
self-control.
very
commonly
sion to primitive
and
satisfaction in this
Sexual
indul-
a sign of regres-
infantile
gratification.
forms of
To mature
matter of sexuality will generally
bring with
grow
and
also learn the
it
in this
total maturation,- to fail to
area usually causes fixations
93
or
regression.
not afford a
Sexual
curity nor will
it
emotional needs. tional
indulgence does
much needed
feeling of se-
satisfy afFectional
however, the
If,
and
affec-
and emotional needs of adoles-
cence are satisfied ships with
and within
in
controlled relation-
members
of the opposite sex
own
family, the sexual
his
urge will be far easier for the adolescent
and other
to control. Masturbation at
sexual
self-gratification
are
efforts
usually
symptomatic of retardation or regression in personal development. Such indul-
gence educates the deepest neurovegetative instincts in
man
personal gratification. stincts are correctly
to seek primarily
Unless these
educated
cence, there will be a
in
in-
adoles-
deep and perma-
nent stamp of selfishness on the person at
the instinctual level, and this will be a
serious,
if
not insuperable, obstacle to
the ability to love.
Positive vs Negative
Reinforcements of the Will Sometimes we speak of the will as though it were a muscle, either strong or weak. This manner of speaking can easily
94
obscure a very important
reality
about
human conduct. The will is not itself weak or strong in us; it is rather our motivation that is weak or strong. It is also important to realize that reasons for good
conduct are not the same as motives.
We
might well enumerate many good
rea-
sons for doing this or that, but they are
move us. The word movere means "to move" and this word from which our word
not motives unless they Latin it
is
motive
is
derived.
Because, as
every person
what
will
is
we
unique,
a
in
may
a
also true that
good reason will, its
somehow exposed
question. The
authority cannot, it
If
motive for the
ness must be
person
it is
move one person might
leave another cold.
become
said in the beginning,
in itself,
well is
to
goodto the
imposition of
produce
virtue;
well produce conformity, but con-
formity
is
not always virtue. Virtue must
come from within
a
person.
It
must be
the product of an interior act of the will
seeking a good, and the will responds only to motives
whose good
is
recog-
nized.
Psychologists,
in
studying
human
motivation, have found that positive re-
95
inforcements of the will (reward for good conduct) are infinitely more effective than negative reinforcements (punishments for
bad conduct). To be constantly critical of young person is obviously a dangerous thing. It tends to undermine his confidence and to make all authority obnoxious. However, if one takes the approach a
of positive
reinforcements, tending to
overlook small failures
conduct but
in
never failing to recognize and reward with a kind word) the desired
(at least
conduct, the effect will be almost magical.
It
leased
is
an
in
illustration of the
image: most people will be duct what If
will
we
power
the creation of a good
we
tell
them they
build pedestals,
climb up on them;
if
in their
re-
self-
con-
are.
young people
we
keep our
hands on the edge of the rug, always ready to pull
it
out from under them,
there can only be trouble ahead.
96
CAUTION
human beings
HANDLE WITH CARE
5
LEARNING TO LOVE
The whole process of maturation de-
pends on how we react to the difficulties or challenges of life. The immature person sees only the
difficulties:
they are so
close to his near-sighted eyes that he can
see only the problems and pays very tle is,
attention to his
own
the
and
in fact,
critical
reaction
lit-
which
definitive thing.
but our reaction to them William As James has suggestdoes ed, there may be a God in heaven who Difficulties pass,
not.
forgives us our sins, but
human
nature
They are memorized in our minds, muscles, fibers, and brain-cells. Each reaction, mature or immature, lin-
does
not.
gers on
in
us as the beginning of a habit.
Repeated mature reactions tend to pro-
duce the formed habits of maturity which define us. Repeated immature reactions dig their
own
grooves.
must always accept present, pilgrim and hu-
The Christian himself
man
in
his
condition, which will inevitably in-
volve failure. Ideals must always be
troduced to the
in-
test of actual experience,
99
and
in this
introduction our ideals, which
very often sound beautiful, become a struggle, a renunciation, a battle for control
of self, a willingness to start again in
the
wake
of failures, a lucid acceptance
of the mystery of the cross. It is
not the problem, and
not the isolated failure that
in this
case
is critical,
de-
and paramount. It is our reaction The reaction of the Christian must always be suffused with a confidence nourished by the conviction that God and he are a majority, even stronger than his own weakness. The process of maturation as a Christian and as a human being will inevitably be marked by failures, finitive,
to
it.
but the only real failure
is
to quit.
When
the situation gets tough, the Christian
must get tougher. He must become ger than his problems.
In
big-
the end, such
determination to love will bring him to the feet of Love
itself,
which
is
his eter-
nal victory in the victorious Christ.
The Paradox of Love All of us experience at
some time
another a feeling of loneliness and tion, a
100
or
isola-
very painful void inside of our-
becomes an unbearable
selves that
pris-
We
have all felt at some time alienated from others, separated from the group, alone and lonely. By its very naon.
ture this loneliness, like
all
of our tooth-
aches, centers the focus of attention on
ourselves.
We
satisfy this
hunger
others
who
seek to .
.
.
fill
this void, to
we go
out to find
will love us.
We may
do things
for
them
obvious attempt to gain their love.
may come out
to
them with hands
like pan-scales.
On
an
in
We
stretched
the one hand
is
our donation to them, the other hand being
extended
us.
We may
ing that this
to receive their
even be deceived
into think-
loving.
is
We know filled
donation to
that our loneliness can be
only by the love of others.
We
we must feel loved. The paradox is this: if we seek to fill the void of our own loneliness in seeking love from others, we will inevitably find no consoknow
that
lation
but only
a
true that "You're
deeper desolation.
Nobody
Till
Loves You." Only the person
experienced love It
is
a
is
It
is
Somebody
who
has
capable of growing.
frightening but true reality of hu101
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life that,
by loving
me
or refusing
me, others hold the potential of in their hands. Most of us, driven by our own aching needs and voids, address life and other people in
to love
my
maturity
the stance of seekers.
We
become what
C. S. Lewis, in his book, The Four Loves,
those pathetic people
who
simply want friends and can never
make
".
calls
.
.
any. The very condition of having friends is
we
that
should want something else
besides friends." Most of us
need that
to
we
dox remains uncompromised; the love which we need, we find
it.
know
our
be loved and try to seek the love need from others. But the para-
We
are
if
we
seek
will never
lost.
Love can effect the solution of our
we must face the fact that we must become loveable.
problems, but to be loved,
When
a
person orients his
life
own
the satisfaction of his
towards
needs,
when
he goes out to seek the love which he needs, no matter how we try to soften our judgments of him, he
He
is
not loveable, even
serve our compassion. ing on himself,
tinues
104
to
and
is
self-centered.
he does de-
if
He
is
concentrat-
as long as
concentrate
on
he con-
himself,
his
always remain stunted
ability to love will
and he
will himself
remain
a perennial
infant. If,
however,
person seeks not to
a
receive love, but rather to give
it,
he
will
become loveable and he
most
cer-
be loved
tainly
will
the end. This
in
immutable law under which
we
the
is
live:
con-
cern for ourself and convergence upon
can only isolate self and induce an
self
even deeper and more torturous ness.
a vicious
It is
terrible cycle that
on us when loneliness, seeking
closes in to
and
loneli-
be relieved through the love of others,
only increases.
The only way
formed by our
we can
lusting
break
egos
ing concerned with ourselves to
be
concerned with
course,
of one's fact, It is
is
is
this cycle
to stop be-
and
others.
to
begin
This,
of
not easy. To relocate the focus
mind from
self to others can, in
mean a lifetime of effort and work. made more difficult because we must
put others
in
ourselves.
We
the forefront,
must
in
place of
learn to respond to
the needs of others without seeking the satisfaction of
our
own
needs. 105
book, Religion and Personality,
In his
psychologist-priest Adrian van sists that
anyone seeks
if
his
Kaam
own
in-
happi-
ness and fulfillment, he will never find
them; but adds
own
that,
if
one does
happiness and fulfillment,
find his
it
will
be
because he has forgotten himself to seek the happiness and fulfillment of those
around him. The problem clutching to our
all
that
is
own
we
life-rafts.
are tempted to fascination with our self-fulfillment
somehow
and everything
We own
we do is own
designed to achieve our
safety and happiness. in
are
We
can be
selfish
very refined and subtle ways. Such
preoccupation with
self
an absolute
is
human happiness and fulfillhuman happiness and ful-
obstacle to
ment, because
be attained only through
fillment can
genuine
love. Each of us
must make
how we we decide
basic decision about
spend our our
lives.
lives in
If
the pursuit of our
piness and fulfilment, to failure
we
and desolation.
spend our
lives
If
implied
tain our
106
to
spend
own
hap-
decide to
seeking the fulfillment
in love,
own
intend to
are destined
we
and happiness of others, and is
a
we
this
is
what
shall certainly at-
happiness and fulfillment.
The person fulfillment, or
who wants only who decides to
order that he be his love
in
is
be
A
who
decides to love
and happy
we
in
still
any way as a because if we
be within the treacherous
vicious circle, traveling always
ourselves.
order
the
of self-fulfillment,
own needs
in
be disap-
grow because
cannot conceive of love
means do we will
will
and
himself. Consequently,
pointed and will not is still
person can grow
as his horizon allows,
fulfilled
horizon
love in
vain because the focus re-
much
the person to
own
fulfilled, will find that
mains on himself. only as
his
from our
through others and back into
We
cannot ever use others as
means. They must always be the endobject of love.
only
in
We
will attain maturity
proportion to the shifting of the
away from ourselves and our own needs and away from the
focus of our minds
desire
self-centered
to
satisfy those
needs.
Loving others can be truly accomplished only
when
the focus of our minds
and the object of our desires
when
all
is
another,
of our activity results from con-
cern for another and not from concern for ourselves.
We
have said that
if
a per-
107
son truly loves
way, he
in this
be
will
loved and he should accept the love of others.
ed
However the delusion
at all costs
is
my
be avoid-
to love in order to re-
ceive this return. gests, lose
to
must, as Christ sug-
I
before
life
I
can gain
it.
must find out that the only real receiving is in giving. have to lose my life and cannot lose it if always have it I
I
I
I
my own
clearly before In
mind.
other words, love means a con-
cern for, acceptance of, and an interest in
the others around
ing to love.
may prove
It
is
be an
to
me whom am I
a self-donation
try-
which
altar of sacrifice.
I
can love others only to the extent they
my
are truly the focus of
and
life;
and
I
mind, heart,
can find myself only by
forgetting myself. Love
indeed costly
is
and demanding. Because of the inward pains that
all
of us bear, the scar tissues
that are part of our
human
inheritance,
because of the competition and example of a self-grasping world, cult for us to
make
selves that
involved
is
it
will
be
diffi-
the sacrifice of ourin
loving. Loving
always means
at least this sacrifice,
orientation of
my
the
thoughts and desires
towards others and the abandonment of 108
my own to
and
self
abandonment always
such
say,
volves a high cost to But
if
a life of love
for
the only truly it
is
filled
in-
self. is
difficult,
not a bleak or unrewarding it is
Needless
self-interest.
life.
it
is
In fact,
human and happy
life
with concerns that are as
deep as life, as wide as the whole world, and as far reaching as eternity. It is only when we have consented to love, and have agreed to forget ourselves, that we can find our fulfillment.
It
perceived and mysterious
we
of God, but will
the
We
it
and
it
will
have
revolution
that
in us.
Copernican
un-
the Grace
will recognize
be recognized
made
come
will like
relocates the focus of our
minds and
on the good and fulfillment of others; and although this conversion has sought nothing for itself, it has received hearts
everything. The loveable person last analysis,
the one
who
has
in
the
made
the
is,
consent to love.
So often
we demand
that others love
us without being willing to sacrifice
and abandonment of
make
the
self that
is
become loveable. However, anyone has mastered the delicate and profound paradox that love involves, necessary to if
109
and has been willing to dedicate himself
demand
without reservation or
needs and fulfillment of others,
to the
he
for return
be loved and
will certainly
fulfilled
within himself.
how
we
we
have never been loved? Between black and white there is always an area of gray. All of us have some capacity to love, But
some
can
love
move
ability to
if
the focus of our
minds out from ourselves to the needs, happiness, and fulfillment of others. To the extent that we do this, to the extent
we
that
actualize this potential that
latent within us, if
at the
little,
we
love that
we
can love only a
be loved
shall
we
be loved. Even
will
we
beginning
is
a
receive will
grow more and more out
little,-
and the
empower
us to
of ourselves in
the direction that love leads. This, then, is
the challenge that
us:
be
we must it
utilize
small or great,
the extent that
we
lies
before each of
whatever capacity, have for love. To
we
are willing to
the effort and dedication that
we
is
make
involved,
will be nourished and strengthened by the love that we shall receive in return; but we must remember that, in making this self-donation, the focus of
112
our minds must always be away from
and
self
this
precludes thinking of or ask-
ing for a return. tion:
When we
ask that ques-
"What Have You Done
have ceased
For
Me?" we
to love.
Christ
and Love no doubt about
Christ our Lord left
He
the credential of the Christian.
said,
that you are my you love one another love one another as have loved you this is all command you that you love one another." Saint John reminds us in
"By
men know
this shall
disciples, that
.
.
I
.
.
.
.
I
his
First
love
Epistle that
it
is
God whom we do
impossible to
not see and not
whom we do see. of these things we have read, and
love those around us All
perhaps than
life
takes as
we
pay them more
service.
done
We know
to himself
lip
service
that Christ
what we do
to
others; he accepts as given to himself
our concern and kindness for others. the daily battle, however,
when
our
In
own we
needs are so throbbing and painful, forget.
The only attitude worthy of the Christian
is
who thought of who gave himself until
that of Christ,
others always,
113
he had not another drop of blood to give. In his own words, "Greater love than this no man has than that he lay
down
his life for his friend." This
what
course,
down
our
lives for others.
have consented to do ourselves, our
own
ment, and only then tians.
If
we
fail
be some
will
tions that the
who in
It
own
fulfill-
perhaps there
this,
the ques-
in
asked: in
"If
Christians
their
Redeemer,
was
this
little more resame Nietzsche
coined the phrase, so sadly
our
find
we be true Chris-
don't they look a
deemed?"
we
agnostic philosopher,
wish us to believe
why
we
justification
once
Nietzsche,
Only when
happiness and
do
to
of lay
this will
will
is,
we
love asks of us, that
days:
"God
is
Love of Christ
common
dead." in
the
Love of Christians In
the
1920's,
the philosopher of
American Communism was a Jew named Mike Gold. After communism fell into general disrepute in this country, Mike Gold became a man of oblivion. In this oblivion he wrote a book, A Jew Without Knowing It. In describing his childhood in New York City, he tells of his mother's 114
never
instructions
to
wander beyond
four certain streets. She could not
tell
a Jewish ghetto. She him that he had the wrong could not tell kind of blood in his veins. Children do
him that
was
it
not understand prejudice. Prejudice
is
a
poison that must gradually seep into a person's blood stream. his narration,
In
Mike Gold
tells
of
the day that curiosity lured him beyond the four streets, outside of his ghetto,
and of how he was accosted by a group of older boys who asked him a puzzling question: "Hey, kid, are you a kike?" "I don't know." He had never heard the
word
before. The older boys
came back
with a paraphrase of their question. "Are
you
a
Christ-killer?"
boy responded,
"I
Again, the small
don't know."
He had
never heard that word either. So the old-
him where he lived, and most small boys to recite
er boys asked
trained
like
their address in the case of
being
Mike Gold "So you are
a
Well you're
in Christian territory
and
are Christians. We're going to teach to stay
where you belong!" And
beat the
lost,
them where he lived. kike; you are a Christ-killer.
told
little
we you
so they
boy, bloodied his face and 115
tore his clothes
and sent him home
jeering
"We
you
litany:
We
Christ
.
where you be-
Christ! Stay
killed
long!
to the
are Christians and
are Christians, and you killed .".
.
When
he arrived home, Mike Gold
was asked by his frightened mother: "What happened to you, Mike?" He could answer only:
"I
don't know."
"Who
did this to you, Mike?" Again he an-
know." And so the mother washed the blood from the face of her little boy and put him into fresh clothes and took him into her lap as she sat in a rocker, and tried to soothe him. Mike Gold recalled so much later in life swered:
"I
don't
that he raised his small battered lips to
the ear of his mother and asked:
who
Mike Gold died meals were taken at house
"Mama,
Christ?"
is
New
York
in
1967.
His
last
a Catholic Charity
by Dorothy Day. She once said of him: "Mike Gold in
eats every
he
will
day
at the table of Christ,
first
heard
his
name."
so he died.
For better or for
worse Christ has
taken us as his living symbols 116
but
probably never accept him be-
cause of the day he
And
City, run
in
this
world. The world that
God
is
dead or
who
ing
only
not, the
Christ
is
asking whether
world that
can find
its
ask-
is
answers
the Christian. For better or for
in
we
worse,
is
are Christ to the world.
Almost any other apologetic for the faith can be memorized, re-
Christian
and delivered without
hearsed,
except
apologetic
the
which of
its
of
effect
Love,
essence seeks only the good
of others and
is
willing to pay the high
price of self-forgetfulness,
which
love.
is
a
product
hard to imitate or counterfeit.
is
To love, one must have enormous motivation.
a
In
world which
is
grasping world,
in
gouging and clawing
a
for
the riches of this world, the Christian by his
love must stand forth as a breath-
taking exception. The true Christian must
seek only the good, the fulfillment and the destiny of his fellow man. Love will
always be
his most eloquent argument and effective means. It is difficult. And
yet the Lord Christ of the Gospels stands
with
and
us,
it
becomes our
imperative: "By this shall
you are
my
Christian
men know
disciples, that
that
you love one
another." 117
EPILOGUE The poet, Archibald MacLeish, has men are affected more by sym-
said that
by
bols than
ideas.
he says,
ness,
The symbol of lonelilights above the
two
is
symbol of grief is a solitary figure standing in a doorway. The symbol of Christ in this world is the Christian. sea; the
Over the hangs there
of our churches there
altars
Under the
a large crucifix.
crucifix
the unwritten caption: "Greater
is
Love than
this
no man has
.
love one
.
.
have loved you." It is a conreminder of our vocation as wit-
another as stant
I
nesses to Christ.
There
.
.
wrote "God
,
does not love see,
who
if any man tells me that he God whom he does not see, but
love
loves
about the Evan-
a story told
John, the one
gelist St. is
is
he
is
his brother
simply a
that the story
of his long
is
liar."
whom
of this
It is
told that, in the
life,
he would
he does
sit
John
evening
for hours
with his younger disciples gathered his feet.
well
One
day, as
established
it
is
tradition,
disciples complained: "John, talk
at
related in this
one of
his
you always
about love, about God's love for us 119
and about our love for one another. don't you tell us about something else besides love?" The disciple who once, as a youth, had laid his head over the heart of God made man, is said to have replied: "Because there is nothing
Why
else, just love is
It
altar
of
.
a long
.
.
love
.
.
it
asks an
price in self-forgetfulness;
to our
God,
120
itself.
human
who
is
love."
and hard road;
sacrifice,-
nothing for
.
Love
is
it
it
is
an
enormous must seek
the only
way
destiny and to the feet of
Love.
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I
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There
is
within
all
want
of us that
we
are afraid to release.
We
to give ourselves to others but fear our
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not be accepted.
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