In a narrative where tragedy begs to be masked by comedy, F.M. Esfandiary conveys the consequences and realities of Iran
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This book was written in Teheran, Iran. The typescript was intercepted at the Teheran post office and confiscated. A second copy was hastily typed and sent abroad with the help of two Americans. I am grateful to the Iranian friend who, at great risk, twice undertook the typing of this manuscript, and to the two American friends.
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For those who don't know the Middle East, mention that this is not a work of satire.
—
F.
it
may be
well
M. Esfandiary
i I
am a confused man. I am
what live
I
want. Sometimes
here in
accept
abroad.
it
my own
I tell
man.
all,
I
know
don't
myself, I say, look, I will
country, accept
once and for
Then
a restless
it
way
the
it is,
and forget about going
when
there are times
I tell myself,
I
you know, you are a stupid fool, why did you come back here, you don't belong here, you should go and
say,
live
abroad
—anywhere, away from
here.
Daryoush Aryana stretched out on stared at the rain that
window. Today
poured
his
bed again and
torrentially outside his
and was startled by his own voice, which was hoarse and heavy, because it was the first time that day he had spoken aloud. He had recently lapsed into the habit of talking is
a holiday, he said aloud,
aloud to himself, and although hearing his voice was reassuring to him, sometimes, as
noon, his
own
what he had
Today
is
voice startled him, as
just
heard was his
own
on
Imam?
I
know
it is
is it
quiet
this fore-
he were not sure voice.
a holiday, he repeated quietly. It
birthday of the third Imam, or fourth
if
own
is
the
the birthday of the
the birthday of one of the
Imams. Yesterday was the occasion of the death of 7
another Imam. All the shops and
ment
agencies were closed,
and the people
sat in their
and governthe radio had no music, offices
homes, or in the mosques,
dressed in black, weeping and tearing out their hair.
But today ing.
happy holiday, and everyone is celebratDownstairs, Mr. Barzeen and his family are celeis
a
brating too. It
was a dark, rainy day, the
sort of
him with gloom and made him want and
night, to sleep
the rain
sky. It
day he dreaded, particularly in
day
to look at
was the sort of
his
morning when the rain had
of a deep, merciful sleep, he
filled
to sleep all
and forget and not have
and the melancholy
Since early
day that
present plight. jostled
him out
had remained
in his
room, reading, resting, looking out of the window, thinking of faraway places, of sunny days, blue the quiet sea, a stroll by the quiet sea.
A
skies,
sudden out-
room dragged happy wanderings and made
burst of dance music in the adjacent
mind back from its him sit up in bed and listen. He got up quietly, went to
his
closely to the relatives
together.
the door to listen
more
music and the voices of the landlord's
and friends who were celebrating the holiday
Many
rooms and
of the relatives were downstairs in the
in the arcaded courtyard, playing cards
and
backgammon, exchanging family gossip, helping Mrs. Barzeen prepare the elaborate meal. Other guests had repaired to the
room next door
to take
advantage of
the gramophone, which although old and no longer
8
in fashion was
playing the old tangos and fox
Daryoush Aryana the
against
door,
and
usable, faithfully playing
still
sat
re-
trots.
on the
floor resting his
head
absorbing the merry voices and
He
sounds that came through the wood.
sat there a
long time.
The
smell of kebab
kitchen below
was hungry.
and rich sauces from the
made him suddenly remember
He
also
became aware,
the excitement in the next ing,
room was
all at
that he
once, that
rapidly diminish-
and the guests were gathering downstairs
feast.
summoned
Children were being
for the
to eat, people
were running back and forth fetching chairs and cushions, carrying the food to the table.
He
put on his clothes and raincoat, then quietly,
almost on tiptoe, went downstairs into the
through the back entrance. briskly
when
He
street,
began to walk away
the door of the courtyard opened and
the landlord's son, holding an umbrella over his head,
came
into the street. "Mr. Aryana,
my
father begs
you
come and have lunch with us." Aryana, moved by the invitation, smiled and walked back to the young man. "Mr. Barzeen is very kind; please tell him merci, tell him I am grateful."
to
Mr. Barzeen's daughter
also appeared, full of the
seriousness of adolescence. She sought the protection of her brother's umbrella
parents beg you to
and
said,
"Mr. Aryana,
come and have lunch with
us.
my
They you
said they are very, very sorry they didn't invite
9
sooner for today's lunch, but they were afraid that
because this
a
is
family gathering, you would be
bored."
Aryana nodded by way
of gratitude, but declined
the invitation, mindful that the presence of a stranger
would
surely diminish the spontaneity of an intimate
family gathering.
He nodded
again,
and submerging
part of his head in his raincoat, walked away, grateful to
have been remembered and invited, to have
been addressed by someone.
He had
not spoken with
anyone since the previous afternoon when, restless after several
had gone
to his
rain, to address
He would
he rest
have been
had now stopped him
a muleteer
if
He would
and thinking.
and
streets,
room, shut himself up, spent the
of the day reading grateful
hours of roaming the
tired
in the
him, ask for directions or for money.
have made a pretext of the occasion, invited
the muleteer to a long conversation, interested himself in the prices of donkeys
He went peered
arm
to
orders.
into a restaurant
and
of mules.
sat at a table.
A man
him from behind a curtain and waved a hairy indicate that he would come out soon to take Daryoush Aryana looked about him in the
at
empty restaurant and
He
and the eating habits
felt
conspicuous in the silence.
began to regret having stumbled into an empty
restaurant, but then,
remembering
day, reassured himself that all
ably empty. waiter,
10
"You
who was
that
it
was a
holi-
the restaurants were prob-
are the second customer today," the
also the
owner, said
as
he walked
to the
"We
table with a pitcher of water.
shouldn't have
opened today. The people have stayed home with their
and
families
the table
Aryana
He
friends."
and waited
set the pitcher of
water on
for the order.
"You wouldn't have
hesitated, then said,
a
hamburger here, would you?"
"A what,
agha?"
"It doesn't matter,
it
Aryana
doesn't matter,"
said,
smiling embarrassedly and waving his hand.
"Look agha,
if it is
the toilet you want, you'll find
it
in the back."
"You have kebab
"We have see,
of
lamb
let's see,
ate the
to look
.
have kebab of lamb, we have rice and sauce, we
we have kebab
we have anything you
He
." .
kebab in
we have
of chicken,
let's
desire."
silence,
now and
again turning
out of the window, or at the curtain behind
which the proprietor, the only other person in the restaurant,
had withdrawn.
street again, the rain
When
he went into the
had stopped and the sun, bright
and warm and reassuring, burst through the clouds and slowly erased the shadows and the darkness. Early in the morning he went to the Ministry of the Interior, expecting to obtain his papers
with.
He
forth-
walked through the long, dark corridor, read-
ing the signs on the
office doors.
He knocked and went
into an office that dealt with records.
behind a
and leave
large, inelegant
A
man,
sitting
desk looked up and nodded. 11
been told to come here for an identification
"I've
card/'
"Who told you this, agha?" "The Ministry of Foreign Affairs."
The man behind give
you?"
to
it
the desk frowned. "Didn't they
"They told me to go to There they told me to come
the Ministry of Justice. here.
I
came here about
days ago and was told to try the Police Depart-
five
ment. There they told
down,
"Please
sit
He
down and
sat
me
call
I'll
come back here."
to
you."
man
waited. This
is
sympathetic,
me get my papers and get my the man behind
he thought, he will help leave immediately.
I'll
I'll
—
the
desk opened a drawer, took out a newspaper, glanced at
it,
then
noticed
made
—
a telephone
I'm at the
yes,
office
call.
—
"Look
I just
dear,
just
I
noticed here in
the newspaper that there will be a sale at the Ferdausi store, this will
No
those chairs.
I
tomorrow night be a good time to buy
haven't forgotten, you'll just have
them and explain that something very imporhas come up and we'll be late. Do you need any-
to call
tant
thing else?
.
.
.
find eggplant
won't be
late.
Squash
is still
and tomatoes
May
I
expensive,
I'll
see
if
I
can
—do you need tomatoes?
be sacrificed for you."
When
I
he
put down the telephone receiver, he glanced at the newspaper again, then looking up, said, "What can I
do
for you?"
"As
I
"Oh, 12
told you, I have ..." yes, I
remember, but to
tell
you the
truth, I
don't
know anything about
identification cards,
can send you to someone here
but
I
you.
Go
Mr. Paknour,
tell
who can help
upstairs to the third floor
and ask
him Rasheen
think he will have to write a
sent you.
I
for
Bureau of Civil Registration, requesting that they issue an identification card for you." Aryana went upstairs to Mr. Paknour and explained what he wanted. Mr. Paknour said that as a rule, they didn't write letters to the Bureau of Civil Registration letter to the
to
make such requests.
." "But Mr. Rasheen downstairs said that Lowering his voice to a confiding whisper, Mr. Paknour said, "Tell me, agha, are you a friend of Mr. Rasheen? You see, he and I are also close friends and it .
be
will
." .
.
"I just
met Mr. Rasheen."
"... an
got
.
honor for
up and
still
me
to serve
one of
his friends."
whispering, added, "As
told
I
He
you we
don't usually write such letters to the Bureau of Civil Registration, but any friend of Mr.
own
friend,
and
I'll
Rasheen
be honored to write
is
like
my
this letter for
you."
"I'm very grateful, Mr. Paknour, but that I
am
not a friend of Mr. Rasheen,
I
must explain
I just
..."
"You must be a friend or relative, otherwise he would not have told you to come here and have us write a letter. But you needn't worry, Mr. Aryana, this will stay
between
us.
What
is
your
first
name?"
"Daryoush."
"Very
well, wait here please,
I'll
have a
letter
ready 13
you in a few minutes." He went into an adjoining room and was back before long with a typewritten letter. "This is all you need, Mr. Aryana, we will send it directly to the Bureau of Civil Registration." "When will you send it?" for
"Immediately.
"Thank
We will send it today."
you, thank you, then
I'll
go there tomor-
row."
"What wait
till
will
you do there tomorrow?
I suggest
you
this letter gets there."
"Won't
it
get there
"It will take about
by tomorrow?" two weeks.
I
suggest you go there ."
and see if "Twenty days?" Aryana echoed, getting up. "Why twenty days? I can't wait that long. I must leave the in about ten, twenty days
.
.
country in a few days." "It always takes ten, twenty days,
sometimes even
more."
"But
I
Isn't the
don't understand,
Bureau
why
does
it
take that long?
of Civil Registration here in
Te-
heran?"
"Yes
it is
here in the city," Mr. Paknour
said, also
is on, let me see, it is on Sepah Avenue." "But that is the next street." Leaning over, Mr. Paknour whispered, "Well, you know how it is, you can't rush these things." "But Mr. Paknour, I must leave the country. I have
getting up. "It
already spent a
week going from one ministry
to an-
other."
"You seem 14
to
be new to
all this,
Mr. Aryana. But
because you say you are in a hurry to get your identification card, I will
you, quite confidentially of
tell
what you can do. Take
course,
this letter, in person, to
the Bureau of Civil Registration and ask to see his
name
—
He
is
name, he has a nice name right, Mr. Engineer Janan.
I've forgotten his
—Engineer Janan— you.
that's
in charge of all this
Of
—what's
course,
and can
you understand
you and me. Don't say that
this
I told
issue the card for is
you
strictly
between
to take this letter
there in person, or that I told you to see Mr. Engineer
Janan."
Daryoush Aryana took the the Interior
and walked
tration. In the
letter, left
to the
the Ministry of
Bureau of
Civil Regis-
long dark corridor he stopped one of
the attendants and asked where he could find Mr.
Janan. "You
mean Mr. Engineer Janan,"
the attendant
corrected.
"Yes, I'm sorry, Mr. Engineer Janan."
"Go
upstairs, agha, his
room
the second door
is
on
the left."
Aryana hurried
upstairs, knocked on the second door and went in. He gave the letter to Mr. Engineer Janan and waited in silence as the latter took the
on the
left
paper out of the envelope and read the few
beg you to
sit
down, Mr. Aryana.
lines.
"I
here you wish what we call an
It says
to apply for identification papers
—
identity card."
"That's right."
"What, may
I ask,
happened
to
your identity card?"
**I lost it."
15
repeated, nod-
"You lost it," Mr. Engineer Janan ding. "Where was it issued, agha?" "It
was issued here in Teheran."
"What it
type of an identity card was
the old, notebook kind, or was
know
"I don't really
it
it? I
mean, was
the newer form?"
the difference,
I
just
know
it
was an ordinary identity card, you know, the kind everybody
my
my full name, my parents' names, my how do you say—my, as they
had
has. It
place of birth,
—
say in English, nationality,
"And you say you "Yes,
my I
I lost it.
and
all
the rest."
lost it."
When
I
went abroad years
identity card with me, but lost
it
have searched very carefully for
where
might have
I
left
it,
but I've
during
ago, I took
my
travels.
tried to think
it,
still
not found
it."
"Yes, people travel a lot these days, they lose or mis-
place their records and papers, they
do our best to help them.
when people kept
It is
up
a hurry
and
"Yes, tity
it
lost
says here in this letter that
anything.
you are in
." .
.
want
I
and we
in their trunks
home, and never went anywhere, never
Well, anyway,
to us
and other im-
their identity cards
portant documents securely locked at
come
not as in the old days
to
go abroad again but
I
need an iden-
card to be able to leave the country."
"That's right, you need your identity card to get a passport
and an
exit permit.
Well
let's
see
now, what
was the number of your identity card?"
know the number." "You don't know the number," Mr. Engineer Janan "I don't
16
said,
frowning. "But you must
your identity card.
you don't
If
know the number of know it by heart, look
your passport."
in
"They took away my passport at the airport when I arrived. They said they take away everybody's passport at the airport."
"Yes,
on
But don't you have a driver's license document that has your identity number
I forgot.
or some other it?"
"My
and the few documents I have foreign and don't have my identity
driver's license
at home are all number on them."
"Very
father here,
and please
"My father is "Then
tell
him
to
." .
.
dead."
please bring your mother."
"She passed away I
have to bring your
well, then, agha, you'll
too.
My
parents passed away
when
was abroad."
"May God drown them have any brothers and "I
had
hoped
a sister,
but
don't
know where
she
my
have looked
arrival
I
and asked people who might know not found her yet." for her
Do you
sisters?" I
and since
to find her
His compassion.
in
her,
is.
I
had
but I've
we could only find a record of your identity card, we could issue a new one immediately. This way it is a little difficult. But we will find a way." Mr. Engineer Janan rubbed his chin a while, then said, "Do you know where you were born?" "If
"Yes, of course,
I
was born here in Teheran." 17
"Do you know what part of the city?" "Near the south side of Teheran." "You mean in the poor section?" "Near that section. My parents were of modest means. They were plain, humble people." Mr. Engineer Janan stared at him quizzically. "Mr. Aryana, you don't look like a man of ordinary background. There is a refinement about you that bespeaks an altogether different upbringing. Are you sure your information
am
"I
is
correct?"
very sure, Mr. Janan,
Janan. We lived bazaar.
Of
as
I
mean, Mr. Engineer
I
my
was fourteen,
alleys
near the
was a boy that section of the
poor and deteriorated
lived there with until
I
one of those narrow
when
course,
was not
city
in
as
it is
today. I
parents and went to school there fifteen years old."
"Do you know when you were born, or better still, do you know when your identity card was issued?" "It I
was issued around
—
let
me
think
—
it
was issued,
think around 1921."
"What?" "Well, you see
now
1964, so
it
I
am
must
forty-three years old,
and
this is
." .
.
"Agha,
this is not 1964," Mr. Engineer Janan interposed with evident displeasure. "I don't know where you have come from, but here in our country the year is
1343." "I didn't
mean
"Forgive
me
forgive
18
me
." Mr. Janan, I just interrupting you again, Mr. Aryana,
to offend you,
for
for speaking bluntly,
.
.
but you gentlemen go
away from your homeland, you go away to other countries and forget all your traditions and customs, forget that you are Iranians and suddenly behave as foreigners/
'
"I haven't forgotten that
I
am Iranian."
How
"Perhaps you are not Iranian, agha. sure you
are Iranian?
Old
City, or near the
yet there
is
You
can we be
say you were born in the Old
City,
and were brought up
no evidence right now
that
there,
what you
say
is
correct/
"Of course
correct
it is
"But how can we be tell
you the
card,
.
sure,
truth, I can't tell
come from.
really
." .
Besides,
you don't know
its
how can we prove it? To who you are or where you
you don't have an identity
number,
all
your documents
and you say you have no parents, no one to come forward and say, yes this is our son, we know this man, this gentleman, he was born in such and such a are foreign,
place, at such
and such a time, he
is
Iranian, he
is
Mos-
lem." "I have been
." .
.
know what
"Forgive me, but you don't even are in,
Let
year
we
you don't even think in terms of our calendar.
me
tell
you, Mr. Aryana, for you the year
1964 or 1967 or whatever 1343 and
we
of our traditions
"Well, you "Yes,
proud
are
of
it is,
may be
but for us the year
is
our calendar, we are proud
." .
.
see, I
have been away
.
.
/'
you have been away and now you want
to
19
go '
away
You
again.
arrived here yesterday and want to
leave tomorrow." "I arrived here about three weeks ago."
"You
arrived here hardly three weeks ago and
ready you are in a hurry to leave. rude, but to
tell
you the
truth,
I
I
don't
mean
al-
to be
don't understand
why
you came back at all." "I came here to stay three, four weeks or maybe longer. I think I came back to see Iran and to find some relatives or an old schoolmate or two. I don't know, I just I
wanted
must
to
leave,
I
come back. I had to come back. But now must leave immediately."
Shrugging his shoulders, Mr. Engineer Janan "I don't understand, I really don't
Perhaps
it's
identity card,
not
my
business.
you must write a
know what
Anyway,
to say.
to get
letter to this
lost
your
Bureau,
the Bureau of Civil Registration, explaining that
have
said,
your identity card and that you would
you
like to
new one. Mention in your letter that you know your identity card number, that it was
apply for a don't
issued here in Teheran,
Was issued."
20
and give the date you think
it
2 The
next day Aryana took his letter to Mr. Engineer
Janan. "Take
Aryana took
to the
it,
room next
to
register it."
his letter downstairs to
wrote a number on
it,
now
and have Mr. Bastan
the entrance,
read
downstairs
it
Mr. Bastan who
then entered the
number
into the registration book. "Please take this letter up-
Mr. Doctor Goljou and have him sign
stairs to
Aryana went Goljou,
who
upstairs, gave his letter to
read
it,
then signed
it.
it."
Mr. Doctor
"Mr. Aryana, your
must be stamped and approved. Take it upstairs and Mr. Souna, whose room is opposite the stairway as you go up, will take care of it for you." Aryana went upstairs to the third floor, gave his letter
to the third floor
letter to
Mr. Souna, who read
it,
then
said, "Please sign
your application here and here." "I have already signed
"You must
sign
it
it."
again. Please sign
it
here and here
and here." Mr. Souna turned over the paper and "Please sign
it
said,
here too."
Aryana signed his letter as he was told, then gave it to Mr. Souna, who reread the letter, stamped and signed
it.
"Your
letter
is all
taken care of now. Please
pay two tomans for the stamps." 21
"Stamps?"
"These stamps
I
have pasted near your signature cost
two tomans." Aryana paid the two tomans and Mr. Souna said, "Please take your letter to Mr. Doctor Shayan, have
him
verify our approval
and sign
it.
His room
is
in the
building across the courtyard on the second floor."
Aryana hurried downstairs, then hurried to the building across the courtyard, climbed the stairs to the second floor and found Mr. Doctor Shayan's office. He knocked and went in. He gave his letter to Mr. Doctor Shayan, who read it, wrote a few words at the bottom and signed
of the letter,
"Where do I go now "That
One
I
it.
to receive
my identity card?"
don't know. I have nothing to do with
of the gentlemen here
must
it.
write a letter issuing
an order that a new identity card be prepared for you."
"Won't you kindly give this order?" "I can't do that, Mr. Aryana. I must have orders from above." "But Mr. Doctor Shayan, several of you gentlemen have seen my application, you have all approved it, signed
." it
.
.
"That doesn't mean anything, Mr. Aryana. We must have orders from above. You will have to speak with one of my superiors. Speak with Mr. Firouz, he has the authority to instruct the Bureau to issue an identity card for you." "Is this so
"It
22
is
complique?"
not complique at
all,
Mr. Aryana. These are the
usual procedures/'
He
glanced at his watch and added,
you come and see Excellency Firouz tomorrow. In the meantime I will send your letter to Mr. Bastan at the registration office. When you come in tomorrow, stop at Mr. Bastan's "It
is
closing time now, I suggest
and he will direct you from there.' Aryana went out and slowly walked in the direction of his room. The streets were crowded as people huroffice first
ried
home
for
lunch and the afternoon nap.
The
shop-
keepers and merchants would go back in the evening
and government employees, working hours had finished and they would spend the rest of the day with their families and to trade, but for the others, office workers
friends.
Aryana crossed the
street to
walk in the shade; he
was pleased that his application had been approved and was confident that in a day or two he would have his
me money
buy food. I'm hungry. Please give me some money." Aryana turned around and, seeing a little boy following him, stopped and papers. "Give
to
automatically his hands searched in his pockets.
The
and disheveled, retreated a few steps then timidly stretched out his hand again. "Please
beggar boy,
frail
agha, I'm hungry, give
me something."
Aryana took a bill from his pocket, motioned to the boy to come and take it. But the boy stood staring in disbelief at the five-toman bill. "Is this all for me?" he asked. Aryana nodded, whereupon the boy took the money, held it securely in both hands, leaped about exuberantly and was soon lost in the crowd. 23
Aryana shook
his
head and smiled but then remem-
bering he was out on the street transferred his quiet celebration to the privacy of his mind. that he was needed.
He
stopped him on the
street.
beggar
as
much
as the
He was
pleased
was pleased that someone had
He
felt that
he needed the
beggar needed him.
It is
good to
be needed, he thought.
It
live in these parts of the
world where there are so many
who
are destitute
He
is,
in a sad way, flattering to
and come up
to
you
to
beg for help.
suddenly remembered that in his childhood he
was afraid of beggars, and on the way to school he and
away when a cripple or a blind beggar hobbled after them asking for help. He smiled as he remembered that his mother, who had first made him afraid of beggars, had later tried to help him outgrow this fear. Don't be afraid, she always said, God
his friends often ran
loves the poor.
Remembering
his
mother made him
sigh.
Before long other beggars were following
him
—
young woman holding an infant at her bared breast, an old man, three or four barefoot children. It occurred to him that the little boy had probably run back and alerted these others. The young woman moved closer, and exposing more of her pendulous breast, moaned, "Mossio, for the love of God, give me something, my child
is
hungry."
"I will give
you money, but why do you
am an Iranian, like you." The woman, taken aback, quickly
monsieur,
call
me
I
covered part of
her breast again and retreated a step or two. "Agha,
24
a fellow-Moslem.
please help disciple
Abbas give something
For the love of the
for this child."
Aryana gave the woman a ten-toman tributed smaller sums
among
and disBut as he
bill
the others.
walked away he was no longer cheerful. God, what
woman were my
that beggar girl
mother, what
Since his arrival, the widespread poverty
anything
else
his spirits.
much more than
alms, gave
He knew
had deflated
is
my
sister.
more than always gave
usually given beggars.
that all he gave did not really help them, did
not alter their misery, but he
Next
He
that little
if
with the sad eyes and dirty face were
if
still
gave and gave.
day, early in the morning, he
went
Bureau of Civil Registration and stopped
He
tan's office.
explained
at
to the
Mr. Bas-
why he had come and Mr.
Bastan, having listened carefully, shook his head and
'Tm
said,
letter
sorry
Mr. Aryana, no one has sent
or spoken to
me
me about your application."
"I was at Mr. Doctor Shayan's office yesterday said
he would send
take
it
to
your
my
Mr. Firouz.
letter to
He
and he
you and you would
advised
me
to stop
here
today before going upstairs."
Mr. Bastan threw out
his
arms and swore that he had
not received any letters or instructions concerning Mr.
Aryana.
come
"A
in today, but
look again." piled it is
lot of letters
on
I
He went
his table
and documents have already
haven't seen yours. Here,
through
and searched
all
I will
the papers that were
in his top drawer.
"No,
not here, absolutely not, you can be sure of that."
25
what could
"I don't understand, Mr. Bastan, then
have happened to
my application?"
"I don't know, I really don't know. tion
can make
I
.
.
."
shook hands and "I just "I
came
am honored.
minute
Please
Mr. Bastan rang a
came
in,
said,
man came and the two men
to see
down."
how you
down.
sit
a
I'll tell
are."
him
to bring
and when an attendant "Bring two teas. Mr. Aryana, will you
tea."
he
to his feet
kissed. "Please sit
for a
only sugges-
The door opened and
Mr. Bastan jumped
in.
The
bell
have tea?" ."
must "Please have tea, you must have "No, thank you,
I
.
.
tea.
Bring three
teas."
"So Dara, I'm delighted
to see you."
"Yes, yes, I'm very delighted to see you," Dara Bas-
tan said, patting his friend on the lap. "I've really
missed you.
We don't get to see each other frequently." we must arrange to meet more often. this way two close friends not seeing
"That's right, It's
not right
—
each other." "Yes,
The on a
we must try
to see
." .
.
attendant came in carrying three glasses of tea
tray. "Please
have
tea,
Mr. Aryana," Dara Bastan
said.
"Mr. Bastan, I'm in a hurry
"Why hurry,
." .
.
Mr. Aryana, here,
this glass
is
"So Dara, I'm really delighted to see you." "Yes, I'm very, very delighted to see you."
"So what 26
is
happening?"
for you."
"The news happen
is all
with you.
I
don't
know what
will
They say Leader AlNobody seems to want his
this unrest persists.
if
vand's position
is
very shaky.
regime/'
"Everybody knows that their support, his regime
knows
He
body.
with is
and
this
is
if
the Americans withdrew
would not
last
one week.
He
trying desperately to placate every-
has packed the government and parliament
illiterate grocers, tailors, wrestlers.
He
thinks this
a very democratic gesture. But what can an illiterate
grocer or wrestler teach the people?
Our
country
is
full
of educated people, they should be the guides, but
most of them don't want to have anything to do with this
regime."
"If
we only had a
"Well, last
if
these
uprising,
revolutionary regime ..."
Americans hadn't interfered in the
we would now have
a revolutionary
regime, a republic."
"Why are these Americans this way? I liked them so much at one time." "We all liked them. Don't you remember after the Second War we all wanted to run away and go to America?" "I don't understand.
Aryana,
I
who had been
just don't
understand
sitting impatiently,
.
.
."
wonder-
ing what had happened to his application, suddenly got up. Mr. Bastan's friend also got to leave. "Please convey see
my
up and
said he
salaam to your wife.
had
I will
you on Friday." 27
When
he
Dara Bastan
left,
down,
said, "Please sit
Mr. Aryana. Will you have another tea?"
"No, thank you, I'm in a hurry." "Please
saw
just
sit
is
down Mr.
Doctor. This gentleman you
an old friend. Before
each other frequently, but
I
was married, we saw
now we
only see each other
once or twice a week."
"Mr. Bastan, what has happened
"Oh!
Yes,
know what
your application
my application?"
to
—the
truth
is,
I
don't
has happened to your application, Mr.
Aryana. Are you sure Mr. Doctor Shayan told you yesterday that he would send "Yes,
I
am
sure.
He
said
it
me?"
to
he would send
to you,
it
and
come here to your office this morning." Mr. Bastan called up Doctor Shayan's office, but had
asked that
I
no response. "Mr. Doctor Shayan
we
not
Let
in.
will send the attendant to look for it."
bell
to
is
and when the attendant came
in, said,
Mr. Doctor Shayan's room and see
if
He
me
see,
rang a
"Look, go
you can find
the application of Excellency Mr. Aryana on his table. If
you don't find
where
The
it
there, see
if
Mr. Azarkeesh knows
it is."
attendant
bowed and went out
of the room.
He
said that he
came back about fifteen minutes later and had not found the application. When he left Mr. tan said, "It
is
probably
lost
or has been misplaced.
Well, never mind, never mind,
sit
here and write an-
other one."
"Another one? But 28
I
Bas-
wrote one yesterday."
"What's the difference, Mr. Doctor, write another one."
"But you gentlemen
—by the way, I'm not a doctor
—you gentlemen registered the other one, signed and approved
it.
you remember,
If
day and you registered "Yes,
yes,
I
I
brought
it
here yester-
it."
remember your
application,
but
it
and we will register give you some paper and
doesn't matter, write another one
and sign
it
for you. Here,
I'll
you can use any of these pens." letter to the Bureau of handed it to Mr. Bastan who read it, wrote a number on it, then entered this number into the registration book. Aryana took his letter to the second floor where Doctor Goljou signed it, then to the third floor where Mr. Souna stamped and signed it. "Weren't you here yesterday with a similar applica-
Aryana addressed another
Civil Registration,
tion?"
Aryana nodded and Mr. Souna happened to it?"
"They
"Then what
lost it."
Mr. Souna shook I
said,
his
head and
said,
"How much
did
charge you yesterday for the stamps?"
"Two tomans." "Very
well, then, today I will only charge
toman for the stamps." "Mr. Souna, I will pay what
is
you one
right."
"Just pay one toman, that will do. I want to be
but
fair,
between you and me." Aryana paid the one toman, then went downstairs, let this stay
29
hurried to the building across the courtyard and stairs to the second floor. He knocked and went into Mr. Doctor Shayan's office. Two gentlemen, sitting behind desks, looked up, and Aryana said that he had come to see Mr. Doctor Shayan. "He hasn't
climbed the
come
in today," the
gentleman
sitting closer to the
door replied.
"When do you
expect him?" Aryana said, enor-
mously disappointed. "I don't think he will
some shopping
to
come
in today. I think
he has
do for his house."
"I have an application here that
must be approved
and signed."
remember you from
"Yes, I
to wait until
But you have Mr. Doctor Shayan comes back to the yesterday.
probably tomorrow, day after tomorrow."
office,
"Will you please
tell
me who
takes care of his
work
during his absence."
"No one
takes care of his work.
When
he
is
here he
own work." "Then who will sign my application now?"
takes care of his
"No one
can sign your application now. Mr. Doctor
Shayan is the only one who can sign you wait until tomorrow."
He
left
home.
I
difficult,
I
I suggest,
never thought getting an identity card was so
he whispered to himself.
Where could
had never
I
have
traveled, never
How
did
left it?
I lose
my
Sometimes
I
gone anywhere, but
stayed here from the beginning, like so
30
agha,
the room, the building, and slowly walked
identity card?
wish
it.
many
others.
I
need
to talk with someone, right
looking around.
I
need
me and with whom
I
to
can
now, he muttered,
be with someone sit
and
talk
who knows
about things that
and informal and have nothing to do with business and offices and regulations. I wish, right now, as I am walking here, someone, an old friend, a longlost relative, an acquaintance, anyone who knows me, are private
would shout my name across the street, Daryoush, Daryoush, and come over and invite me to his home to have lunch with his mother and father and sister and brother and uncles. Just to sit somewhere, in a home, an enclosed garden that belongs to someone and is not public, eat food that has been prepared by a mother, a wife or a sister, sit and listen to people discuss family problems, listen to them talk about their grandmothers and grandfathers and relatives and their own childhood.
He went
to his
room and
spent the rest of the day
reading.
In the morning he went back to the Bureau of Civil Registration, but Mr. Doctor Shayan in.
one
He
and waited.
sat in the office
else take his place
had
Why
still
not come
doesn't some-
during his absence, he thought,
two men who sat idly at someone else sign this paper?
casting a furtive glance at the their desks.
What
if
Why
can't
he doesn't come back today and tomorrow and
next week and the week after?
went out of the room. forth,
back and forth.
He
arose suddenly
He paced the corridor, He waited all morning.
and
back and 31
A He
few minutes before noon, Doctor Shayan arrived.
was surprised that the
first
application had disap-
peared and swore that he had sent to
Mr. Bastan. "To
tell
you the
careful with these applications pass
them on
it
that very
truth, I
same day
always very
and documents, and
just as soon as they reach
took Aryana's arm and led
am
my
He
table."
him toward
room.
his
"Don't worry, Mr. Aryana, don't worry, come into
room
right
now and
immediately sign your
I'll
I
my
new
application."
They went
into the
room and Doctor Shayan,
with-
out taking the time to read the application, wrote a few
words at the bottom of the page, and signed
"You
at his watch,
he
lency Firouz.
Go right now
as
said,
still
it.
Glancing
have time to see Excel-
to his
room and just
he gives the order, the Bureau will
issue
as
soon
an identity
card for you."
Aryana went downstairs, walked rapidly across the courtyard and climbed the stairs to the third floor. An attendant lingering in the corridor directed him to Mr. Firouz's room,
and he went
shook hands and invited
oush Aryana
in.
Mr. Firouz got up,
his visitor to sit
sat in silence as
down. Dary-
Mr. Firouz read, then
re-
which consisted of Aryana's brief application, Doctor Goljou's comments at the bottom of the page, Mr. Souna's paragraph of approval, Doctor Shayan 's few words of approval, and read the contents of the
letter,
numerous signatures on both "Where did you lose your ana?"
32
sides of the paper.
identity card,
Mr. Ary-
"I don't know.
I lost it
during
my travels."
"Where do you live now?" Aryana hesitated as he turned the question over in his
mind.
"Do you "No,
I
live
here in Teheran?"
don't live here."
"Then where do you where your home is
in Shiraz then
is,
That's
home
You if,
better that
it is
plication there, or,
live?
because,
we must know home
us say, your
you submit your ap-
you want we
if
see,
let
will send
why we must know where you
live,
it
there.
where your
is."
"I don't have a
home."
"You don't have
home?" Mr. Firouz said, frowning. "How can you not have a home? Everyone has a home. You say you don't live in Teheran, then where do you live, Esfahan, Shiraz, Tabriz, where?" "I haven't lived anywhere long enough to say I have a home. I have been traveling, mostly abroad." "You mean you just travel? This is very interesting." He paused and thought a moment. "Forgive me for being inquisitive, but don't you get tired of traveling?" I like this man, Aryana thought, smiling. "Yes, I
am
a
tired of traveling, I
tired of
is
making
a
am very tired. What I am really
home then breaking
it
up and mov-
ing elsewhere."
Mr. Firouz nodded. "Yes, be
tiring.
may
I
You
say you've
I
should think that would
been traveling abroad, where
ask have you traveled?"
Aryana continued
to smile, pleased that
someone 33
had taken an
teen years old,
my
uncle,
age to Mecca, took
me
in Beirut with
joyed
my
"When I was about fourwho was going on a pilgrim-
interest in him.
me
with him and on the way
some of
stay in Beirut
his
—everything seemed
and strange and, how do you
made quick
me
stay in Beirut.
I
en-
—and
When my
home from Mecca,
I
different
say, inter essant
friends with the Arabs.
returned on his way to let
Lebanese friends,
left
I
uncle
begged him
I'm sure the dread of going
my family home in Teheran had something to do with my intense desire to stay abroad. Anyway, my uncle agreed to let me stay in back to the limitations of
Beirut.
was entered in a French school, then was
I
transferred to an
Arab
school,
and
later
continued
my
studies in an English school. I stayed in Beirut several
and when the war broke out, my parents and uncle and everybody in Teheran urged me to come back; but I had had a taste of freedom and was not will-
years
ing to give
it
up/*
Aryana paused to catch his breath and Mr. Firouz sat back and said, "Then you were a young boy when you left
your home."
"Yes,
I
was only fourteen,
fifteen,
I'm not sure."
"Did you come back when the war broke out?" "One of my friends in Beirut maneuvered himself a job on a ship bound for America and helped me get on it too. I lived in America several years. I worked and studied and traveled and learned to take care of myself.
My
bombarded me with letters, come back. I wanted to come back but I
parents and family
begging that 34
I
didn't. I told myself that first I
When I
I
finished
didn't have the
my studies at the
I
my studies.
university, I said that
that
to
it
was wisest to wait
till
the un-
my country had subsided. You may not believe it,
rest in
but
to finish
come back. When I had the needed more money and when I had
money
money I said that I more money, I said
my
had
wanted
to
come
back,
I
wanted
come and
to
that I was afraid. I
was afraid that
home and homeland, even
if I
for a brief
see
know now
parents and family and country, but I
came back to my visit, I would be
trapped there and would not be able to get out again." "
"You must have had an unusual family
"My
family was not at
unusual.
all
It
was an ordi-
nary family, like other Iranian families." "Forgive
me for interrupting you."
"Well anyway, I lived in America many years, then went to Europe. I lived in Paris, three, four years, then, suddenly
—or maybe
it
wasn't suddenly
—about three
came back." "What made you come back?" Aryana frowned and looked out of the window.
weeks ago,
"I
am
I
sorry, I shouldn't
don't want to talk about "I
want
to talk
be
officious,
perhaps you
it."
about
it,"
Aryana
said,
turning to
look at Mr. Firouz. "I'm grateful that you have asked
me
these questions
here, I haven't
You
see, I
When
and are
had the opportunity
came back because
you are not ready
to
my
interested. Since
I just
arrival
to speak this way.
had
to
come
back.
go back to your home and
homeland, nothing, neither the desire
to see
your fam35
and friends, nor the prospect of prestigious positions, nor anything, can induce you to go back. But when finally you are ready to go back, nothing, nothing ily
at
can hold you."
all,
ing, "Unfortunately,
you are too
finally
He it
happens sometimes, that when
ready and you go back,
it is,
in a way,
because the ones you wanted to see and the
late,
situations
you hungered
Mr. Firouz nodded. tion
cleared his throat before add-
and
said, "I
gladly sign
it
for are all gone."
He
glanced again at the applica-
have no objection to
this
and
will
for you. Please bring six small photo-
graphs of yourself and two certified
letters of introduc-
tion."
Aryana brought out an envelope from his pocket and handed it to Mr. Firouz, "I had been told about this and have them ready. Here are six photographs and two certified letters of introduction. One is from Mr. Barzeen, at whose house I have rented a room, and the other
is
from a gentleman who has known
me
several
years."
Mr. Firouz read the two
letters of
introduction and
took a quick look at the photographs. "This
is
fine.
you need. Now take these to Mr. Doctor Shayan and have him write a letter instructing this Bureau to issue an identity card for you." "Did you say Mr. Doctor Shayan?"
This
is all
"Yes, yes, Mr. Doctor Shayan. If he writes such a ter for
you the Bureau
will immediately issue
let-
your
identity card."
"But 36
I
have already spoken with Mr. Doctor Shayan.
He
he doesn't have the authority to give such an order. He said he must have orders from above and told me to see you because you have the authority to said
Bureau
direct the
to issue
my identity card."
do your application and
"I don't have the authority to
can only sign I will
sign
right now."
it
signed the application I
He
this,
Mr. Aryana.
I will
gladly do
I
it.
picked up a pen and
on both sides of the page. "Here,
am very glad to be of service." "But where will I get my identity card?" "That
one of
cannot
I
my
tell
you, Mr. Aryana.
superiors about
you, because for one thing
it.
would
I
do
like to
you the give such an order.
one from above gives the order,
see
for
it
obvious that you are a
it is
very refined gentleman. But to don't have the authority to
You must
I
truth, I
tell
If
promise that
I
some-
myself
immediately have the Bureau issue your identity
will
card." "I don't understand,"
"Everyone "Forgive
I see
me
sends
Aryana
me
said shaking his head, ."
to the next one.
for interrupting you,
but
if
.
Mr. Doctor
Shayan doesn't want to give the order, then
you who it
stay
to see
.
I
will tell
—
of course, don't say that I told you, let
between you and me." Lowering
whisper he
said,
Excellency
is
"Go and
his voice to a
His
see Excellency Sepenta.
a very educated
man,
like yourself,
and
in deference to a fellow scholar, will, without hesitation, see,
order the Bureau to issue your identity card.
he
is
the deputy chief of this whole place
word from him
You
and one
will take care of the matter."
37
Aryana picked up and
He
letters of
his application, the
photographs
introduction and went out of the room.
walked to the end of the corridor and asked an
at-
tendant sitting by a door where Mr. Sepenta's room was.
The
which he
attendant got sat, said,
up and
"This
is
the
indicating the door by
room
of His Excellency
Mr. Sepenta. But he has a committee meeting right
now."
"Do you know when his meeting will finish?" The attendant stared at him, slowly shook his head and
said, "It
38
is
difficult to say,
agha."
5 He went and
lay
to his
room, took
down on
the floor.
and trousers, He had gone to his room off his shirt
only to change clothes before going out to a restaurant
midday meal, but he found that his tired body and spirit were not willing to venture out again, not immediately. But if he was too tired to go out and eat, he was also too hungry and restless to fall asleep. He remained on the carpeted floor, thinking of his identity card, thinking how happy he would be if he received it and left forthwith. He often interrupted his thoughts for the
to listen to the people
who were
Mr. Barzeen's living room.
It
gathered downstairs in
always pleased
him when
somewhere to eat and talk and play, and he told himself that if Mr. Barzeen extended an invitation to him now, he would gratefully accept and go downstairs. friends or relatives assembled
He went
window and stood there a long time, up the voices and sounds of the party. I shouldn't have rented a room here, he told himself. All day I can hear them laughing, quarreling, entertaining; sometimes at night, I can even hear them making love. I shouldn't rent rooms in other people's to the
straining to pick
39
homes.
I
always do
muttering,
country I
don't
here
and
I
I
I
this.
He
looked about his room
never thought that even here in
would
way,
live this
know why
I
I
mean
in a rented
thought that when
would once again
live in a
my own
I
room.
came back
home with
relatives
others.
He
looked out of the window at the ungainly sight
of barren stretches of land,
unpaved
streets,
houses
tall
and short, modern and old, standing incompatibly next to one another. In the distance were the Alborz mountains, solid and serene, patched in parts with snow good sight for the eyes to contemplate after their unhappy wanderings. His mind journeyed again as he
—
many
thought of the
rented rooms and apartments
where he had lived and made his home and broken his home, only to move and make another home, and in time, break another home. Rooms overlooking crowded streets, rooms opening to dingy, forgotten backyards, rooms commanding views of mountains and lakes and forests and the sea. He liked the sea, and liked his homes that overlooked the sea. He smiled and shook his head as he remembered with particular fondness southern California, where years before he lived in a large apartment overlooking
the Pacific Ocean. Living in that apartment he always felt
he had his back to the world.
hours on his terrace looking out
beyond which,
for him,
was
He
at the limitless sea,
eternity.
America and Europe and the Middle
happy 40
there, his
often sat for long
Behind him was East,
back to the world, to the
and he was
past.
Then within
gradually, imperceptibly, changes took place
him and he was no longer
willing or able to
He slowly turned around to himself. He shed his shell, moved
have his back to the world. face
the world,
life,
into the city, then inched his
and
Coast, then to Paris, to his
way
to the
it
ran back
finally, years later,
homeland. In going back he had
around, and
busy East
now
occurred to him
fully
turned
that his return
home, however disappointing in ways, was nevertheless necessary.
Now he was ready
to
to turn his back to the
go out again, not
world and to
as before,
and cultivate
roots.
again, or settle in
Perhaps he would
one of the large
but to
his past,
to find a place for himself in the world, to
make
live
cities of the
now he was
try
home
a
near the sea world, or
perhaps he would have to search a long time. searched before, and although
not
He had
a tired
man,
and no longer with the zeal and energy he once had, he would search again. He was ready to leave in a few days, even the next day, but before he was allowed to go away again he had to have his idenailing in spirit
tity
paper.
He
on
sat
his
bed thinking: This
is
becoming a
Why should a simple thing Why should a man who has lost
painful ordeal. take so long? tity
card have to struggle to get a
can't get
new
one?
like this
his iden-
What
if
I
an identity card and have to stay here several
weeks or months or maybe even years?
He
felt
his cheeks
long streams of perspiration running
and under
his armpits,
and he
fell
down
back on 41
bed anxiously recalling that years before, he had
his
often
warned himself not
to
go back
to his country,
foreseen just the sort of predicament in which he
had
now
found himself. Other memories, equally disquieting, obscured by the passage of time,
now
vividly darted to
He
suddenly remembered that years before,
when he was
very young, twenty and twenty-five, he
his
mind.
had recurrent dreams that he had gone back to his country, family, home and school and it was all pleasant, but when he wanted to leave the country and go abroad again, he was not allowed
to leave. In these
dreams he always struggled and fought to get out of his home and country, but there was always something or someone (he had
him him
now
forgotten the details) holding
back, holding his legs, binding his feet, or locking in.
He always
fought desperately to free himself, to
break loose and run.
He remembered dreaming more
than once that he had gone
down
into a well but how-
ever frantically he tried he could not
He
got
that these
up and paced
come out
again.
the room, reminding himself
were nightmares and claustrophobias of an
earlier period in his life
outgrown.
he had long ago passed and
He remembered
that
many
of his
young
compatriots abroad had had similar anxieties and current nightmares. tions of
mind and
He
spirit
re-
told himself that these infec-
were no doubt reactions to
his
upbringing, reactions to a binding autocratic social system whose essential though perhaps unwitting aim
was
to trap
and imprison the
the dark cell of fears
42
and
spirits of its
self-doubt.
children in
His explanations notwithstanding, he was ruffled
and stood by the window, searching
his
mind
for a way-
out of the labyrinth. Unfamiliar with procedures of
government agencies, he could not
tell
how much
longer he would have to wait before obtaining his identity card. Perhaps after speaking with Mr. Sepenta, his card
would be
He
issued without further delay.
thought of going downstairs and discussing his prob-
lem with Mr. Barzeen, but remembering that
his land-
lord was busy with guests decided not to disturb him.
He
then thought of Mr. Meena, a personable
had met
at the
home he had
Customs upon
his arrival,
man he
and whose
already visited once. Pleased with his
decision, overjoyed at the prospect of being with
an
acquaintance, he hastily put on his trousers and shirt,
and without further ado, went out and called Mr. Meena. They salaamed cordially, and Daryoush Aryana, mindful not to trespass on Mr. Meena's time, quickly came to the point, for a
"May
I
come and
few minutes?'
mud
"Excellency Aryana, this humble place, this
hut
you
see
is
your own home, please grace
it
with your foot-
steps."
"I am grateful. I'll be there in two hours." "Why two hours? I beg you to come right
We
away.
have a small gathering here, and you'll condescend to share a morsel or two with us."
Aryana walked taxi,
to
Leader Alvand Avenue, called a
asked to be taken to Shemiran at the foot of the
Alborz mountains.
The
car,
driven by a harried
man
43
who was better suited through the
wound
way avenue, went up and up
for driving mules,
cool, tree-lined
toward the mountains and gardens of Shemiran.
its
When
they reached the bridge at the foot of the mountains,
Aryana got out of the car, walked up a steep road on both sides of which were gardens, entered an unpaved lane, and rang the bell at the first gate. Mr. Meena and most of his guests were gathered on the terrace in front of the garden. Several others were
on carpets by the shallow pond, drinking beer and arak, whispering among themselves. Three gentlemen, standing under an enormous plane tree, were deeply involved in a disputation; and not far away, two resting
ladies,
one enveloped in a
slacks
and high
pausing
heels,
now and
veil
and the other wearing
walked quietly, arm in arm,
again to look at the trees and the
flowers.
When Aryana arrived, race arose to
men
on the tergreet him. Mr. Meena welcomed him all
the
warmly, then led him to his wife, to her cousin,
sitting
who
introduced
him
Mr. Taba. Aryana shook hands with the
down when Mr. Taba came over and holding his arm, stopped him from reaching the chair. "Excellency Aryana, come with me and let me introduce you to the others. They ladies,
then with the men, and began to
sit
honored to meet you." As they walked to the pond where the others were gathered, he added,
will be
"Meena
has told
me much
about you.
you have recently arrived from abroad." "I arrived about four weeks ago."
44
I
think he said
"What may being
officious
"No, not at ".
.
.
I
ask
is
your occupation
—please forgive me, —thank you, you are
in
..."
I just
all.
."
.
—
gracious
I just
wondered
—perhaps I'm
which ministry or
office
I
just
tell
you
you work."
Tma teacher." "A
teacher, that's excellent, excellent.
the truth,
wanted
I
—here we
jumped
To
always wanted to be a teacher.
always
I
you later." The guests Aryana shook hands with
are, I'll tell
to their feet,
and
as
them, Mr. Taba made the introductions. "Excellency
Mr. Aryana. Excellency Mr. Nouri. Mr. Nouri
is
one
of the best building contractors in Iran."
"I
am very delighted," Mr. Nouri said,
"Mr. Doctor Tabrizi. Mr. Aryana. one of the
Tabrizi
is
cellency
Aryana
is
My
finest lawyers in
a professor
who
bowing. friend Doctor
our country. Ex-
taught at one of the
largest foreign universities."
"Really? "I
I
am very, very honored."
am not a professor.
..."
"His Excellency the Master. Excellency Professor Aryana. His Excellency the Master, as everyone knows, is
the greatest, the most illustrious poet of Iran."
The Master bowed and Engineer Taba
is
said,
"My
being very gracious.
dear friend Mr. I
am
nothing,
I
am your slave." "Mr. Balan. Mr. Aryana. Venerable Balan "Yes,
I
is
..."
have had the pleasure of meeting Mr.
Aryana," Mr. Balan said
good fortune
to
as
he shook hands.
meet him right here
last
I
had the
week."
45
"Yes,
we met here
last
week," Aryana
said. "I
am
happy to see you again, Mr. Balan." "Mr. Doctor Engineer Kamrou. Mr. Aryana. His Excellency Mr. Doctor Engineer Kamrou is one of the most influential merchants of Teheran. Mr. Aryana is the
." .
"I
.
am very delighted."
They all
sat
to join them.
neer
down on
the rug and invited Mr. Aryana
me
"Allow
to get
you
a chair,"
Mr. Engi-
Taba said.
"No, thank you," Aryana
said, sitting
on the
floor
next to Mr. Balan. "I enjoy sitting on these carpets."
we
"Professor Aryana,
are really honored by your
presence," the Master said, bowing. "Here in the shade of your presence there "Yes, "It
we
is
much we
can learn."
are honored," Mr. Doctor Tabrizi rejoined.
an honor for our country to have such learned
is
gentlemen
as Professor
Aryana teaching
at foreign uni-
versities."
"I
am
not a university professor;
what
I
taught in sec-
America is called high school/' "Mr. Aryana is a very modest man," Mr. Balan interposed smiling. "I had the inordinate pleasure of mak-
ondary
schools,
ing his acquaintance very, very learned
in
last
week, and
man. Don't
know
let his
that he
is
a
quiet manners
deceive you. Perhaps you gentlemen don't know, but let
me
tell
you, Mr. Aryana here
is
the author of a
book."
"Ah! then, Mr. Aryana, you are a poet," Mr. Nouri said.
46
am honored
"I
to
a fellow poet," the Master
meet
muttered, forcing a smile.
"There a poet.
is
a misunderstanding, gentlemen,
The book Mr. Balan
refers to
I
am
not
a collection of
is
on education and the need for basic changes in present methods of education." ''How long is your story?" Mr. Doctor Engineer
essays
Kamrou "It
is
asked.
not a story, agha.
call in English,
It is a dissertation,
what they
an essay"
"How long is
this, as
you
say, this essay?"
Mr. Doctor
Engineer Kamrou reiterated. "I don't it is
know how long
it is.
Let
me
see, I
almost three hundred pages, maybe a
"Three hundred pages?
that so,
Is
is
would
little
say
more."
that so?"
Mr.
Doctor Engineer Kamrou exclaimed.
"As
I say, I
am
not sure.
I
think
it is
a little over
hundred pages." "But that is excellent, excellent," Mr. Doctor Engineer Kamrou added. "You must be an excellent writer. Three hundred pages." "Yes, it must be an excellent book," Mr. Nouri said, staring at Daryoush Aryana. "You know, my friends," Mr. Engineer Taba sighed, "I always wanted to be a writer." "Yes, it must be absolutely fascinating," Mr. Nouri three
said, still staring at
On
Aryana.
the terrace, there was considerable activity as
Mrs. Meena, her daughter and a couple of servants ran
back and
forth, fetching dishes of food
from the
kitch-
47
en.
Mr. Meena, although aware that
hungry, for
his guests
was well past two o'clock in the
it
noon, had nevertheless delayed serving lunch last guests
had
arrived.
He now
were after-
till
the
stood on the terrace
and the guests, who were scattered around the pond and in the garden, responded immediately and walked to the terrace to join calling everyone to the table,
the others for lunch.
Two
long tables ornamented with flowers stood at
the edge of the terrace, near the pond.
On
was a variety of Iranian foods: huge
platters of rice,
some white, some yellow, some
these tables
saffroned; rich sauces
with eggplant, with walnuts, with raisins and dates and vegetables and meats; salads and other cold dishes
made
and squash. There were also numerdishes that usually complement an Iran-
of potatoes
ous other side
and short, stood in little groups all over the two tables: wine and arak and beer and sharbat of pomegranate and Pepsi-Cola and Canada ian meal. Bottles,
tall
Dry and Bubble-Up and other refreshments.
The
guests gathered
ing, praising the food.
around the "This
is
table, eating, drink-
the best lunch I have
ever had," one of the ladies said aloud.
"This eggplant sauce
is
very good.
It is very,
very
good." "Yes,
it is
the most delicious eggplant sauce
had in all my life." "There is so much where
to eat here,
48
is all
have
one doesn't know
to begin. Bravo! Bravo! Mrs.
truly a masterful cook. This
I
Meena, you are
excellent, excellent."
Meena walked about, prodding her guests to "You must forgive us for just having these few
Mrs. eat.
morsels of bread and cheese
.
.
."
The
guests inter-
rupted the customary apologies and renewed their extravagant praise.
Aryana stood near the pond, eating slowly, now and then exchanging a few words with Mr. Balan or with Mr. Engineer Taba. Looking variety of food
on the
tables,
at the
abundance and
he thought of
his friends
abroad, thought that they would have surely enjoyed
being in that garden, tasting
and
delicacies.
all
Unaccustomed
the
to eating
a bird's share, they would no doubt day.
How different
it is
to
many
exotic foods
more than
be entertained
at
just
the next
fall sick
an Iranian
home, he thought. Here they put abundant food in front of you and prod you to eat. There they give you just is
enough
to survive. In an Iranian
required to be passive, not
responsibilities,
but just
lift
home
the guest
a finger, not share any
back with almost childlike
sit
obedience and submit to the catering of the host and hostess
who,
like doting, over-protective parents are re-
quired to attend hand and foot to their guests.
He had missed all urgings, the dotings
and
hostess.
this abroad.
missed
all
the gregariousness and con-
countrymen.
He had
often daydreamed
about these Iranian get togethers where everyone
on rugs
the
and proddings of an Iranian host
He had missed
viviality of his
He had
in a garden, listening to music, eating
drinking, and although he ate
little
sits
and
and did not drink 49
at all,
with
still
he enjoyed being of foods
all sorts
at a table that
and wines and
was covered
fruits.
After lunch, the guests remained on the terrace,
some
on
resting
chairs
Huge
the rugs.
and armchairs, others lying on
baskets containing a variety of fruits
were placed on the squat
and Mrs. Meena
set
coffee tables
and on the
floor,
about peeling and slicing the fruits
for her guests. After fruits, tea
was served, then sweets
and pistachios, then tea again and coffee. Aryana rested on the floor, but Mr. and Mrs. Meena made him get up, insisting that for a man who had been abroad
a chair
was more comfortable. Reluctantly
and Mr. Balan came and sat next to him. "I know that when my wife learns you were here today she will be sorry for not having come. She was he
sat
on
a chair
very honored to meet you
last time,
and spoke very
highly of you afterward." "I thank her,"
company ''She
too.
Aryana
said nodding. "I enjoyed her
Why didn't she come here
wanted
today?"
to come, but she had to stay with the
children." "Yes, little
I
understand.
It is difficult
when you have
children."
"Believe me,
it is
very difficult."
"How old are they?" "Well, one
is
twenty-five
and the other
is
twenty-
three."
Aryana nodded and did
his best to conceal his as-
tonishment.
"The 50
older one wants
me
to send
him abroad
to
let
him
go.
these students are nowadays,
you
let
but I'm not sure
finish his studies,
You know how
I
should
them go and they never come back." Mr. Balan took a sip of his tea and said, "If it is not imprudent to ask, are you doing anything or teaching anywhere these days?"
am
"I
my.
not doing
much
these days. I
am
waiting for
." .
"If
you are not doing anything these
you honor
me
with a
floor,
why
don't
Come to the free; my office is
visit at the office.
Ministry of Finance any day you are
on the second
days,
we can
there and talk for an
sit
hour or two." "These days
I
am
..."
Mr. Meena suddenly called everyone's attention.
"My
dear friends,
my
wife and
you have graced our humble steps.
We
I
are very grateful that
little
are very thankful. This
we hope you
will
come
hut with your is
foot-
your own home,
He bent over to put out "We are particularly hon-
again."
his cigarette before adding,
ored today with the presence of some gentlemen of considerable learning, gentlemen of
Our esteemed
wisdom and
friend, the Master, has put us in his debt
by accepting our invitation, and we
will
deepen our gratitude by reciting some of poems. Excellency Mr. Gol-Jehan and
Mr. Arousha, two of the most will,
we
of letters.
beg him to
his celebrated
my
dear friend,
illustrious poets of Iran
beg, also uplift our souls with their
renowned
poems." 51
"Dear Master," one of the
ladies said, "Please re-
fresh us with your wisdom.'
"Yes,
we beg His Excellency
the Master to accept
our supplication and read some of his celebrated verses.
"I
am your slave,"
"But today
I
the Master said,
must beg
bowing
his head.
to be excused."
"That's impossible, impossible." "Master, you must not disappoint us."
"That's right, dear Master,
we have been waiting
impatiently to hear you today."
The Master
"My
friends,"
smiled and nodded in appreciation.
he
said,
"I don't dare recite
my
un-
worthy verses in the presence of such eminent masters
and men
of learning. I
beg His Excellency Professor
Gol-Jehan and Mr. Buta and
Arousha
"That head
my
dear friend Mr.
to refresh us with their poems." is
bowing his the Master, you must
impossible," Mr. Buta said,
to the Master.
"You
are
begin and we will follow."
"That is right," Mr. Gol-Jehan said, also bowing his head to the Master. "You must begin, you are the Master."
"Very well then, his
up
head
to everyone.
will obey," the Master said,
He
bowing
fingered his gray beard, looked
into the sky, then lowered his head
straight ahead. ter,
I
There was absolute
and stared
silence as the
Mas-
suddenly grave, began his recitation in a formal,
singsong tone.
52
The Finger
of
Time has
That thou
The Hand
shalt drink the
nightingale
now
Shall sing
The
wine of loneliness
of Fate has written
That thou
The
written
shalt drink
from the well of unhappiness
singing
no more
our paradise of happiness
in
candle of hope burning Shall flicker
The sea washes away
.
no more
in this soul of weariness
.
"Beautiful, beautiful." "Yes, beautiful."
The sea washes away the sand The fire of passion washes away my
bliss
Lovers' tears flow like a river
Clouds weeping over that rose-scented Listen
kiss
Oh! love-crazed wretch Oh! King of Kings
Spring follows winter, night follows day Life's adventures
have taught us
this.
Everyone applauded enthusiastically and spoke glowingly of the poem.
Meena
said,
"We
"My
dear exalted Master," Mr.
That was
excellent,
to repeat that line
about the
are very grateful.
excellent."
"Yes,
it
was very, very beautiful."
"Excellent. Excellent."
"Master,
may
lovers' tears. It
I
beg you
was superb."
The Master nodded,
quickly withdrew his smile,
closed his eyes and recited:
53
Lovers' tears flow like a river
Clouds weeping over that rose-scented
"Thank you, "Yes,
it is
kiss
Master, that's very powerful."
very, very powerful."
The Master was
beseeched to recite another poem.
At first he declined, but then yielded to the implorings and recited another poem. During this recitation two men sitting away from the others whispered a few words to each other, whereupon the Master suddenly stopped his recitation and staring resentfully at the two men refused to go on. The two men begged for-
—
—
giveness,
and the people implored him
recitation. After
much urging
to continue his
the Master relented
continued his grave, singsong delivery.
poem; the
When
recitation lasted
more than
and
was a long
It
half an hour.
he finished, he bowed his head several times
There were warm, admiration and Mr. Meena
in quick succession, then sat back.
abundant expressions of said, "It
is
also
remarkable that the Master has such a
phenomenal memory." "Yes, the Master heart," Mrs.
knows over four thousand
Arousha
"Well, you
see,
my
verses
said.
friends," the Master said, finger-
ing his gray beard, "I spend several hours a day rizing
poems
by
—mind you, not
just
my
memo-
own, but others'
as well."
"Yes, this
is
quite an accomplishment by
of the
gentlemen
that
think of
I
54
it,
said. "I I
know someone
know two
—
itself,"
in fact,
one
now
people, yes two people,
who know more than ten thousand verses by heart. One of them perhaps you know him what's his name Mr. I've forgotten his name right now, at the Ministry of Education who knows the entire Epic of Kings
—
—
—
by heart."
"What you
just said
reminds
me
wrote," Mr. Buta said. "I will recite
of a
it
poem
I
once
for you."
As he looked up into the sky to begin his recitation, Aryana got up and quietly went into the house. He walked restlessly from room to room, looking at the photographs and drawings on the walls. He went to the street door and was debating whether or not to leave when he remembered that he had not yet consulted Mr. Meena about his problem, and that that was the reason he had gone there in the first place. When he went back to the terrace Mr. Buta had finished reciting his poem and the guests were praising his work. Mr. Meena thanked him elaborately, and said, "We are honored with the presence of yet another master, another illustrious poet. As we all well know, Professor Gol-Jehan is a master whose poems are in the New Style. I don't think there is any doubt that Excellency Gol-Jehan is the unchallenged master of modern verse." "Professor Gol-Jehan's guests said. "I
we beg him
am an
work
is
unique," one of the
avid admirer of his poems.
to uplift us with
some of
his
May
modern
poems?"
Mr. Gol-Jehan bowed said, "I
am
his
head several times and
discountenanced by your condescension.
55
But
I
my
don't dare recite
insignificant scribblings in
the presence of such eminent masters/'
"You must not disappoint us, Master, we beg you." "Not today, please," Mr. Gol-Jehan said.
"No please, you must." "Very
well, then, I
obey your command." Mr. Gol-
Jehan, the master of modern verse, put out his cigarette, sat back,
and closing his
eyes,
began
his recitation.
Hark! the nightingale sings the song of forgetfulness Sip the wine from the lips of loveliness The tears of sadness dropped like rain over his eyes Like a waterfall they poured over his cheeks
The
rocks like
little
.
.
.
"Excellent, excellent." "Yes, yes, excellent."
The
rocks like little infants clung to the bosom of the mountain Oh! night of misery, Oh! abandoned paradise of happiness Oh! love-crazed frequenter of the wine shop of forgetfulness
Thou Thou
art
an
art a candle of
Oh! flower
my sorrow hope burning in my lamenting
oasis in the wilderness of
of happiness
.
.
soul
.
Mr. Balan slowly leaned forward and whispered in Aryana's ear,
"To
tell
you the
truth,
am too keen about this modern verse. poems. The other is real poetry."
I
I
can't say that I
prefer the other
Aryana nodded acquiescently, hoping not 56
to
pursue
When
Mr. Gol-Jehan finished his recitation, and after he had been praised, Mr. Arousha said, "Excellency Gol-Jehan's poem reminds me of a poem the matter.
—an unworthy poem— mission
I
will recite
I
once wrote. With your per-
for you."
it
Mr. Arousha recited
poem, then Mr. Buta and
his
another gentleman recited more poems.
of the
gentlemen
When, during
were being served, one
a brief pause, cool refreshments
an honor to be in the
said, "It is truly
Our country
has
ways produced the greatest poets in the world.
We
presence of such eminent poets.
al-
are
a nation of poets, therein lies our strength."
we are a nation of poets," Mr. Doctor Engineer Kamrou agreed. "In a way, everyone in our country is "Yes,
a poet. This
is
the land of poetry."
"That's right, that's right," Mr. Engineer
Taba
said,
and turning to Aryana gave a quick bow of the head and said, "Excellency Aryana, you are a very, very learned man and have traveled all over the world and have written many, many books, what do you think, don't
you think our country has the world, that ours
is
greatest poets in the
the land of poetry?"
Everyone turned to look at Aryana and await his reply.
Aryana
felt his
heartbeat quicken and fidgeted
uncomfortably, wondering
At
first
his
head swirl and he
say,
how
to
evade the question.
he muttered incomprehensibly but then he
"In
my own
poetry has passed,
When he came
lost all control
opinion, poetry it is
gone,
it is
to himself, he
is
felt
and heard himself dead.
The
age of
finished, finished."
had already uttered 57
his
opinion and the damage was done.
what he had
The
at all costs
wanted
What he had
to avoid,
feared,
had happened.
people stared at him in disbelief, shook their
heads and muttered indignantly. Several people, speaking simultaneously, rebuked him, voiced their complete disagreement with him, expressed their astonish-
ment at his
lack of insight
Mr. Meena, the to
and
discretion.
up and begged everyone
host, got
remain quiet, and when after a few moments, a shaky was restored, he
silence
quickly erase the
ill
down
sat
effects of
bring about a reconciliation,
again and hoping to
Aryana's words, and
said,
has been a misunderstanding.
"My
It is a
friends, there
small misunder-
and does not warrant excitement." He paused catch his breath and clear his throat. The wounded
standing, to
expression on his face and his tremulous voice clearly belied the confidence and geniality he was struggling to display.
"My
friends,
if
anyone here has
to
beg
for-
giveness for this small, this very small, misunderstanding,
it is I. I
cause
I
am
the culprit,
I
am
should have explained to you beforehand that
many many different spirit, how
Mr. Aryana has been abroad many years,
the guilty one, be-
and therefore speaks
shall I say,
in a
years,
he has a different vocabulary
—
yes, that's
he has a different vocabulary. Mr. Aryana learned, a very refined gentleman
meant no
I
am
a very
sure he
offense."
"Yes, yes," Mr. Balan interposed, ing.
and
is
it,
"Excellency Aryana
is
nodding and
a very refined
smil-
and gentle
person and meant no offense to the venerable masters
58
and poets who are here today. abroad many years.
—not
some poems
am
I
sure what he
now, perhaps,
say, a little
outmoded and
how
a little, well,
am
I
sure
we
all
that
—but we
shall
agree with
." .
.
"This
is
not at
everyone turned
what
all
to stare
inexorably, and
helplessly
what
I
and
him
at
all
in horror to himself.
at
mean
I
Age
is
that this
of Realism.
romanticism. There
is
There is
the is
is
listen
not at
is
all
at the
blurred
felt like
getting
sat heavily
himself nervously repeat, "This
What
out, involun-
"This
He
him.
up and running away, but he
his
felt
he could do was to
were staring back
and
tried in vain to stop
mean," he stammered, staring
faces that
said,
He
again.
The words came
himself from talking. tarily,
mean," Aryana
I
more and
heartbeat quicken once
the
meant was
the ones that were recited here
others, are
that
that he has been
It is just
and heard
not what
mean.
I
Age of Science, this is no room for such silly
no room
for poetry.
The
poets
of today are the dedicated, inspired realists, scientists
who
labor day and night to help
into himself finds
and
his
man probe
deeper
environment. Each time a
man
something new about himself, about the world
and universe he to heal
lives in,
each time he invents a formula
another disease of body or mind, each time he
builds a
new
school, hospital, or
an inspired poem. the miseries,
all
A sensitive,
rational
the injustices,
world, has no patience,
no
dam, he has written
all
man,
alive to all
the suffering in the
inclination to
sit
back and 59
passively
weave stupid,
idle
rhymings about mountains
weep and beautiful tears of love-crazed idiots." There was a momentary silence, as the words rapidly,
that
incompassionately, cut
men and women
as several testing, all
then confusion broke loose
in,
spoke simultaneously, pro-
rebuking, defending the poets and poetry and
the other sacred institutions which had been im-
plicitly attacked.
"This
is
shameful, shameful," one of
the ladies shouted. "I just don't understand
how
any-
one can be so disrespectful."
One men,
of the gentlemen got
ladies, please.
friends, please
up and
shouted, "Gentle-
Gentlemen, gentlemen,
please.
My
keep quiet, please, the Master wants to
say something. Gentlemen, ladies, please keep quiet.
The Master." The Master,
biting his lip, striving to appear calm and unscathed, tilted his head to one side, and simulating an expression of boundless fortitude, said, "Excellency Mr. Aryana, it is not for me to defend the poets and glorify our poetry. That would be ungracious. But I just want to say something, very briefly, of course, because I see that an awkward situation, or to quote our dear friend Mr. Meena, a misunderstanding has arisen. What you have said, aside from being completely incorrect, was also very unkind and not in our tradition no Iranian, certainly no well-bred Iranian, ever allows himself the imprudence to speak so brashly.
—
But
it is
obvious that you have been away very long
way an Iranian feels and you know nothing about poetry. If you knew anything at all' and don't 60
feel the
about our poems, you would not say that they were idle
and stupid and I don't remember now, but you said something about weeping mountains and so on. But let me tell you something, agha, to us, to our people, why do you call them these poems are not stupid
—
They
stupid? I will is
are not stupid, they are not, never, never,
never accept
He
not."
composure.
this.
Poetry
is
not dead.
It is not. It
cleared his throat and paused to regain his " These
poems with pro-
are important
you don't understand. You don't understand that we don't just write about mountains and I don't know what else you said, but that these mountains and gardens and wine shops and found meaning,
it is
just that
flowers all have deep meaning, they are symbolic, they all
symbolize deep things."
"That's right, they are
all
symbolic," Mr. Nouri said.
"Symbolic?" Aryana asked frowning.
"What do
they
symbolize?"
you what they symbolize," the Master said, nodding. "I will tell you. I sensed that you were unaware of the symbolism. But I will tell you. They symbolize deep problems of the mind, they symbolize our political problems." "I will
tell
"Who
says
Aryana
said,
bolism, agha, to say
shaking his head. "I don't see the symI
don't see
it
it
at all. If
you have anything
about problems of the mind or
lems, either don't say say
such problems?"
that they symbolize
clearly, directly,
it,
agha, or
and
if
you want
plainly. It
to write meaningless things, then
political prob-
is
to say
it,
in fashion here
make
all
sorts of
61
claims that they have deep hidden meanings and symbolize things."
up and
Several people got
A
to the garden, others to the house.
and talked effusively,
to stare
among
noisily
some few others got up
angrily stalked
off,
themselves,
gesticulating
now and
again turning
shaking their heads,
with obvious contempt at Aryana. Mr. Meena
quietly apologized to the poets, begging their indul-
them
gence, begging
to forgive the effrontery "with
own magnanimity," and
their
in his efforts to mollify
them praised their poems to the high heavens. Aryana sat isolated from the others. Even Mr. Balan who had sat next to him all afternoon got up abruptly and walked away. No one seemed willing to speak with him or in any way acknowledge him. The deference, the polite cordiality, the quick intimacy with which he had been treated earlier suddenly gave way to an icy rejection. He told himself, no people in the world reject
an offender
as completely, as mercilessly as these
Iranians. All at once, his
years
and he thought
neighbors, recalled other, rejected
him
mind
slid
back through the
of his parents, sister, relatives
how
—
and
often they rejected one an-
living in the
same house without
acknowledging or speaking with one another for days, weeks, even months. During his long stay abroad, he
had not thought
member
thinking of
would do well
to
to himself he felt
62
of this it)
ponder
now
re-
told himself that
he
(at least,
and he it
somewhat
he did not
some other time. Talking reassured,
and he chuckled
inwardly, as he thought, thank God, at least one can
always talk to one's
Only
self.
now remained on the terrace, and whispering among themselves. The
a few people
they sat together,
others were gathered in groups
on the lawn near the
pond and in the house. Aryana felt awkward alone, and he looked about wondering how to himself from the painful isolation.
Why
did
sitting
release I
bring
upon myself? he whispered to himself. Why did this have to happen? Did it really matter that their poems were incompatible with my own sentiments? Did it really matter that their sensitivity differed from mine? Here at last I was at a party true, that I had inthis
—
vited myself, that I had taken the initiative I
was here and that was
still,
that mattered. I enjoyed
all
hearing their voices, their laughter,
I
was even able
good humor their exaggerated
tolerate in
—but
civilities.
to I
needed their company, their friendship, their hospitality,
and
I
me, lapped here
I
He
lapped up the attention they lavished on it
up
am again,
like a
hungry desert dog.
sitting outside
Damn
it,
and alone.
mind an apology to Mr. and Mrs. Meena when he saw Mr. Engineer Taba coming out of the house. He got up and going forward said, "Mr. Engineer Taba, may I speak with you a began to formulate in
his
minute?"
Mr. Engineer Taba took a step back and stared uncertainly at Aryana.
Aryana,
I
am
"To be
completely
—
very honest with you, Mr. I
don't
know what
to say,
63
by God, I
I just
don't understand.
am very blunt. "Mr. Taba
.
.
To
tell
you the
truth,
."
—
I mean, Mr. Engineer Taba, please say on your mind." "I want to say this, Mr. Aryana, I want to say that forgive me for being blunt I want to tell you how shall I say it I want to tell you that you didn't show good judgment today. Even if you didn't like their poems although to be very honest, I can't see how anyone could not have enjoyed them still, even if you didn't like them, even if you don't like any poetry, you shouldn't have spoken so bluntly. We just don't do this here. We Iranians never speak so how shall I say, so unrestrainedly, so bluntly. If you didn't like their poems you should have nonetheless praised them, praised the poets, and said excellent, excellent, and kept to yourself what you really thought. ..." "My opinion was asked and I gave it. I didn't think they would react so sensitively. I know now that if I had spoken more cautiously, they would have still re-
whatever
is
—
—
—
—
—
—
acted with indignation. Please, agha, convey gies to
Mr. and Mrs. Meena.
hospitality.
64
I
my
apolo-
thank them for their
With your permission
I
will leave
now."
4 Aryana went into the garden, rapidly walked to the front of the house, opened the gate and stepped outside. He looked about him, took several deep breaths and his first thought was, here I am alone again, I don't know whether to rejoice or to be sorry. He walked to the paved road and instead of turning right to go to the Shemiran Bridge and from there by car to his room, he turned
left
and climbed the Darband road
that led to
the mountains.
Slowly he climbed the
hill,
breathing the clear eve-
ning air, stopping often to look at the
were partly hidden by the gardens and this side,
is
not
estates. I
my
They
imprudent
all
—
walls surrounding the
don't belong here, he muttered,
element.
agreed with what
I felt.
mud
that
tall leafy trees
Not
I said,
a single person took
or even understood
disagreed, were angry
my
how
and thought
me
a nation of poets, the land of poetry
what nonsense, what stupidity, what hollow pride therein lies our strength why don't you wake up and realize that therein lies our weakness, our weakness and
—
backwardness and apathy and misery. stand; agha,
You
don't under-
you don't understand the symbolism, they 65
—the
are symbolic, they symbolize deep problems
hell
they do, they don't symbolize a bloody thing, not a
bloody thing.
I
ought to go back right
now and
tell
them, gentlemen, you have been rotting here too long
—
and don't understand the real symbolism you can't see that these poems symbolize all that is sick and rotten and devitalized in this culture. Aryana paused to catch his breath, but before long he was walking briskly up the steep road, goaded by a persistent turbulence.
It
is
not in our tradition to
Our people never Damned right they always lie, why don't
speak this way, agha, he muttered.
speak so unrestrainedly, so bluntly. don't.
Why
don't you say they
you say they have never been given the confidence to tell
tell
the truth.
like
you who can never
the truth constantly declare that they are
going to
Here is
Only sycophants
tell
you the
now
truth, to tell the truth.
something you can write a poem about, here
is
another opportunity to squander whole days scav-
enging for words that rhyme, here tunity to drag in
all
is
another oppor-
the flowers and nightingales and
candles of sorrow and tears that flow like rivers.
Let
me
tell
you,
I
am
not one to offend people,
on their sensitivities. I wanted to remain and not say anything, or if asked, say something inoffensive and not disturb your cocoon. But I
to trample
silent, listen
couldn't,
I
just couldn't. All that anger, all that nausea
me and at last I couldn't The more I watched and listened
shrieked and howled within
keep them in check. to
your ridiculous melodrama the more incensed 66
I
be-
came, the more
although
I
regretted having
was desperate
I
melodrama was too much
come
to the party,
be with people. But the
to
—
the exaggerated intro-
all
ductions, the insincere praises, the dead-earnest recita-
sounded exactly
that
tions
their lessons stiff
—why do they
schoolboys?
If,
I
How
can
mean,
I
I
embarrassing.
if
It is
themselves so senti-
they took the whole thing as a it,
melodrama
that absurd
so grotesque, so disgusting.
have an
affinity for these
think and feel so differently?
me and
It is
with awe lapping up the cheap
joke and laughed about
would not be
nonsense like
at least, they didn't take
seriously, or sit
mentality,
recite their
do they recite their poems in
whining tone?
that sickening,
ridiculous.
Why
schoolboys reciting
like
They
don't understand them.
who
people
don't understand
Why
did
I
leave
my
had come for advice, perhaps Mr. Meena has unknowingly given me the advice I was seeking, for
room?
I
what has become
shadow
of a doubt,
of poetry," that tion of as
soon
my
is
what
that
I
I
now know beyond
don't belong to
further stay here
is
as possible
and get
The
a
"land
identity card
out.
he reached Darband, on top of the
fallen.
this
only a molesta-
my self, and that I must obtain my
When had
plain,
jeer jeer of the crickets
hill,
night
and the
dis-
howl of a jackal filled the air. A vigorous stream tumbled and cascaded down the mountain, calmed down and ran smoothly a little distance, then distant
appeared beneath the rocks to reappear later down the 67
At the
mountain were several garden cafes with tables and chairs under the trees and carpeted platforms right on the stream, so that when you reclined on these divans the water ran immediately hill.
foot of the
beneath you. People came here from the
and from Shemiran, in groups and in couples, reclined on the platforms over the gurgling stream, played the sitar and the flute, city
drank, ate kebab, sang with abandon, little retreats
among
the trees.
made
love in the
They came here during
the day and at night, often staying until the early hours
Some even brought
of morning.
rented quilts from the cafes here, even in
—
their
for
—and
midsummer
it
own
quilts or
was very cool up
slept at the stream all
night.
Aryana
strolled
by the garden
cafes,
watching the
people on the rugs under the trees and on the plat-
forms over the stream.
The
attendants were busy going
back and forth fetching long skewers of kebab, bottled refreshments, baskets of fruit, leaping from rock to
rock over the stream to reach the customers. Since Aryana's arrival in Teheran, he had wanted to
come here
to
Darband, particularly on warm
noons, and in the evenings.
He
after-
hadn't been here since
and during his long stay abroad had Darband and had promised himself would be one of the first places he would visit
his childhood,
often thought of that this
upon
his return to Iran.
at the sights
Now
as
he looked about him
he had so often evoked when he was on
the other side of the world, he was inordinately pleased
68
had not changed much since his childhood. Only the road from Shemiran had been paved, a few lights had been installed in the darker areas, and instead of the donkeys, mules, and horses to note that the place
that at one time brought the people
now
But the gay
there were cars.
from Shemiran,
lanterns, the
walnut
vendors, the serene garden cafes on the stream, the
huge
aroma
leafy trees, the
merry crowds, the lovers at the foot of the
Aryana
—
and
of flowers
all
were
still
plants, the
there, nestling
mountain.
hummed
contentedly to himself, although
had not come here sooner to spend whole and nights at the stream, making friends with the trees, meeting his old friend the
sorry he
afternoons, whole days
mountain, listening to the accounts of eration of crickets
—the
this
new
gen-
great-great-grandchildren of
the crickets he had listened to in his childhood.
He
was sorry that
his
modern countrymen did not
frequent Darband, and were, as a rule, loath to
down on called
lie
the rugs in the old cafes or teahouses, as they
them, but preferred to show themselves in
ostentatious restaurants, sitting
stiffly
on inhospitable
under aggressive neon lights. He regretted that he himself had frequented only these modern restauchairs
rants in the city,
eating places. to
Darband
day.
He
had
more Western must come here
in fact, sought the
told himself that he
often, every day, or perhaps every other
Being here and the prospect of coming here again
made his spirits rise, dissipating the gloom that had weighed him down hardly an hour before. 69
He
strolled
by the stream, in and out of the terraced
gardens, stopping to speak with the teahouse attendants, smiling,
up
to
nodding
to the people.
Slowly he walked
where the paved road ended and entered the
last
garden, the highest teahouse, that rose in terraces at the side of the mountain. terrace, leaped over a
He
climbed
to the
one of the carpeted platforms in midstream. for
some bread,
second
couple of rocks and occupied
cheese, tea
He
asked
and stretched out on the
rug.
The
trees, massive and dense, towered above him, and above them the mountain. The moon, bright and clear, peeked through the foliage, now hiding, now showing itself. Several lanterns hanging on low branches swung lazily in the breeze, and numerous light bulbs, red, blue, yellow, green, hidden in the trees among the leaves, winked to one another. On the lower terrace, a group of men and women were gathered on a couple of platforms carousing, and on higher terraces, on both sides of the stream, under the trees,
couples and small groups were quietly eating,
Down
away from Aryana, two men and a woman were lying side by side, whis-
chatting.
the stream, not far
among
pering, laughing
Aryana fell
ate the
themselves.
bread and cheese, drank the
tea,
then
back and rested, absorbing the sounds and sights
and the
clear air.
For a long time he listened
water that ran beneath him and on platform, then somewhere
began 70
to play the flute,
among
and he
sat
all sides
the trees
up
to the
of the
someone
listening to
it.
He
felt at
peace and smiled as he remembered
much he had
missed these sights and smells and sounds
how
of his country, far away, to
how
often he had longed,
when he was
be there, right there in Darband and in
and cheese,
the gardens of Shemiran, eating bread
smelling that unique aroma of Iranian gardens, listening to the pristine and pastoral note of the
He
felt in
tune with
element and for the first
this world,
first
flute.
he had found
his
time in weeks, perhaps the
time since his arrival in the country, he had found
He
something with which he was in harmony.
now even
willing and able to forgive the poets
was
and
all
—
had grated that afternoon all the sadness, all the anger had now receded. He regretted only not having that
a woman with woman he had rival,
and he
him, and he thought of Safoura, the seen two or three times since his ar-
told himself that
he would bring her up
here the very next time they met, perhaps the following night or the night after.
Much
the tea garden had
more
when most
later that night,
talkative,
left,
and the
of the people in
crickets
had become
he was suddenly jolted out of his sleep
by the distant voice of a man singing. The voice, at first faint and intermittent, got closer and closer and clearer, until
it
seemed
to
come from everywhere, from
the mountain, from the hill below, from trees.
Aryana
sat
up
transfixed.
The
among
voice,
the
haunting
and melancholy, seemed to issue from the depths of his memory, reverberating through hollow corridors that led back to his childhood, to the years he lived at
home 71
with his mother and father and uncle and the Friday afternoons he spent with
Over and over he whispered I
needed
72
to
come back
to
my
them
in
to himself,
country."
sister,
to
Darband.
"God, how
r He woke up in the morning refreshed. It was Friday, and people were coming in large groups to spend the day in Darband. All morning students and other young
men
with knapsacks on their backs passed by the
and laughing, then disappeared
tea gardens, singing
around the bend
to begin the long climb up the Alborz
mountain. Aryana spent the entire day strolling in and out of the tea gardens, lounging on the platforms,
watching the
and
fathers
men and women,
the lovers, the mothers
and children.
Early the next morning, he returned to the
changed
his clothes,
Registration.
He
and went
climbed the
to the
city,
Bureau of Civil
stairs to
the third floor,
went to the end of the corridor and asked the attendant if Mr. Sepenta was in. ''His Excellency Mr. Sepenta is in, but he has a committee meeting." "Do you know when his meeting will finish?" The attendant slowly shook his head and said, "It is difficult to say,
agha."
Aryana went away and came back about an hour later. He asked if the meeting was now over, and the attendant shook his head. "Weren't you here a few days ago, agha?"
73
on Thursday and you said Mr. Sepenta committee meeting. Isn't he ever free?"
"I was here
was in a "It
is
difficult to say, agha.
Mr. Sepenta
is
a very busy
man."
Aryana went downstairs to the first floor and explained to Mr. Bastan that he had tried several times to see Mr. Sepenta but had not succeeded and was too impatient to wait another day. Mr. Bastan nodded
down Mr. Aryana. I will Here, Gholam Ali, bring two
sympathetically. "Please
him
tell
to bring tea.
sit
teas."
"I don't
want
tea,
Mr. Bastan,
am
I
in a hurry."
"What's the hurry, Mr. Aryana, please
Aryana glared
at
him and
you what
I'll tell
the third floor, turn
left in
said, "If
to do.
Go
door
—not that one
next door.
I
you are back
the corridor, not the
door, not the second door, the third door glass
down."
him, and walked abruptly to the
door. Mr. Bastan followed in such a hurry,
sit
either,
is
to
first
a large
but the next one, the
will repeat the directions
—go upstairs
to
the third floor, the third floor, turn ..." "I have
it,
Mr. Bastan,
I
have
"Very well then, knock on the
first
it."
this
door
—
as I said,
not
door, not the second door, not the third, but
Knock on
and ask to speak with Bernous, Prince Bernous. He knows Mr. Sepenta's schedule. Are you sure you won't have tea, Mr. the next one.
it
and go
in
Aryana?"
Aryana hurried upstairs
on the fourth door on the 74
to the third floor,
left
and went
in.
knocked
Several
men
sitting
behind small desks
all
looked up. Aryana
stopped at the nearest desk and asked for Mr. Bernous.
The man turned around and
said, "Prince, this
agha
wants to speak with you." Prince Bernous, a short, middle-aged man, put away his newspaper, got up from his desk
and came forward,
bushy eyebrows meet-
his
"Do you wish
ing in an interrogatory frown.
to speak
with me, agha?"
came here on Thursday to see Mr. Sepenta, but was told that he had a committee meeting, and I have been here all morn-
come
"I have
to ask for
your help.
I
ing today, waiting to see him, but the attendant says
he
is still
busy."
Prince Bernous frowned again as he said, "I'm surprised, because Excellency
busy in the
"Then do you think a hurry,
and
Mr. Sepenta has not been
few days."
last
I
can see him right now? I'm in
will be grateful
if
you direct
me
to
him."
Prince Bernous did not answer immediately, but
looked Aryana up and down. "Mr. Aryana,
how
take you to see
it,
well, to tell
"Why not?" Aryana asked,
don't
I
you the truth, His Excellency Mr. Sepenta."
shall I say
I
cannot
taken aback.
"Aren't you aware that you have come here without a necktie?
I
can't take
you to Mr. Sepenta
this
way,
it's
not proper. People shouldn't go out of their homes this way,
it's
"I
against all the rules of
came out
this
." .
.
way only because
it is
a very hot
day."
"You
are not the only one, agha,
who
suffers
from 75
the heat, but the rest of us don't go out of our
without a necktie. After
ment bureau, is
all, this is
an
office,
homes
a govern-
work and serious affairs. This come and relax and take things
a place of
not a place to
lightly."
"I will bear your advice in mind, agha. Kindly take
me to see "I am
Mr. Sepenta now."
do it. I don't have special take anyone in dressed so improperly.
sorry I cannot
permission to
Mr. Sepenta may overlook the affront and not say any-
man
thing, or being a scholarly
dressing very if
he reacts
modern or
differently,
will be held responsible. suggest, agha,
as they say, liberal.
what No,
if
I
he
am
way of But what
consider this
insulted, then I
is
sorry, I can't
do
it.
I
you go home, put on a necktie and come
back."
"But
and
I live far
away from
.
I
I
go
.
"Well, I'm sorry, agha,
and
by the time
here,
."
will take
Seeing that
you it
I
just can't
do
it.
Come
back
in."
was
useless to debate,
Aryana con-
room and compound to
tained his disappointment, went out of the
rushed downstairs. As he was leaving the
go into the Firouzan,
street,
whom
his friend,
he had met during
"Salaam Daryoush. "I
he came upon
Kourosh
his travels abroad.
What are you doing here?"
am after my identity card."
"Are you "Yes, I
76
still
must
bent on leaving Iran?" leave. I
came here
to see
one of the
but they won't
officials
let
me
him because I'm not
see
wearing a necktie."
Kourosh laughed,
glanced
collar
and
to the office this
way?
open
Aryana's
at
"You mean you went
No one else would
That's marvelous, you have courage.
dare come out this way."
no courage
"It took
me, in
this heat
to
come out
this
way.
If
you ask
come out the way
takes courage to
it
you people are dressed." "Yes, these cows wear a necktie even
when
they go
mountain climbing. Now if you were wearing a uniform any uniform, even a doorman's uniform everyone would salute you and bow to you and you could probably go all the way and see the Leader himself, and no one would stop you." "And you, Kourosh, what are you doing here?" "I want to get a driver's license. But first I must obtain copies of my identity card here." He winked and tossed back his head as he said, "I'll get the copies and the driver's license without much trouble. I know
—
—
many help
people in these
let
offices.
By
the way,
if
you need
me know."
"Well, I've been trying to see one of the gentlemen here, but
it
"Is there
seems he
an attendant
"Yes there
"Look,
is
is,
always busy. at his
attendant
came here
.
.
."
door?"
but the attendant
slip the
I
five
." .
.
tomans and he will
help you get in."
"You mean
I
should bribe him?" Aryana asked
frowning.
77
"Don't bribe him, just give him
five
tomans. He'll
take care of the rest."
"But
this
attendant
it
in
I
ridiculous, Kourosh.
tomans
five
somebody.
done
is
do
can't
I
have to give an
go into an
just to
office
and
see
a thing like this, I have never
my life."
"Don't worry, Daryoush,
it
is
all right,
everybody
The government should do something about this, but you know how corrupt the government is, it won't do anything about it." He pressed Aryana's hand does
and
it.
said,
"Look Daryoush,
lunch today, come
to
if
you are not engaged
for
our house, we will share a couple
of morsels of bread together."
They kissed again. "May I be sacrificed "May your kindness never diminish."
for you."
Aryana called a taxi, rushed home, put on a necktie and rushed back to the Bureau of Civil Registration.
"The Prince the
men
left
about twenty minutes ago," one of
in the office said.
"But he told "Well you
me
see,
to
put on a necktie and come back."
His Highness the Prince has other jobs
you can catch him now at motioned to Aryana to come
outside. Perhaps
shop."
He
whispered, "If
it is
his grocery
closer
and
to see Excellency Sepenta, you don't
have to wait for the Prince. Just tell the attendant at the door that you have important business to discuss with Mr. Sepenta, and he will take you
in.
Of
course,
I told you all this." Aryana walked to the end of the corridor and seeing the attendant at Mr. Sepenta's door, went to him and
don't say
78
want
said, "I
to see
Mr. Sepenta about an important
matter."
"Yes
yes, I
remember, agha," the attendant said with-
out moving. "But Mr. Sepenta
"Look, "Yes a
I
I
said I
is
must see him.
know, but the agha
is
busy right now."
It is
important."
busy right now, he has
committee meeting."
Aryana groaned to himself, steps away. No one would believe believe it myself. What am I to do now? I
Son of a burnt and moved a few this; I can't
father,
know any more. Can you imagine having to money to a doorkeeper so he will let you into an
just don't
give
office to
do I
it. It's
speak with a government just not right. I
will wait here all day
official?
have never done
and
spite
him
it
No in
I can't
my
life.
rather than yield
to his extortion.
He what
paced the corridor, back and forth, wondering to do. I can't wait another day;
nous doesn't come in tomorrow? are slipping
The
what
if
this Ber-
days and weeks
away and I'm still here, getting nowhere, I must get out of here or I'll go
only sinking deeper.
mad.
I
He
must get out
of here.
stopped suddenly and thought, what do they say
man? What should I tell him when money? Shall I say, please accept this, it is a small gift for you? Or shall I say, here is some money, it's a bribe you understand, I want you to take
when I
give
me
they bribe a
him
the
in to see Mr. Sepenta; of course, let this stay be-
tween you and me.
He
took out a five-toman bill and walked resolutely
79
Mr. Sepenta's door. "Eh
to the attendant at is
.
.
.
eh
.
.
.
how would you
say
.
.
in his pocket.
eh
.
.
".
.
.
it
is
.
.
eh
eh,
.
eh
.
attendant took the money, and in a flash .
.
.
.
here
."
The
disappeared
it .
.
.
token
.
.
.
.
."
"Do you wish
to see
Mr. Sepenta, agha?" the attend-
ant interposed bowing.
"... eh ...
it
is
..
.
eh
—
that's right."
"Wait here, agha, I will see what I can do." He went in and hardly a moment later came out again. "Agha, Mr. Sepenta is free now. Please go in." Aryana went into the office and Mr. Sepenta, a tall bulky man, half rose from his swivel chair and they shook hands.
A man
occupying the only armchair in
and shook hands with sit down, rang a bell and when the attendant came in said, "Three teas." He then turned to his first visitor and said, "Well anyway, I just ..." the spacious office also rose
Aryana. Mr. Sepenta invited Aryana to
."
you were proclaiming that "I was submitting that I just don't know what will happen. This unrest is growing every day, and I am "Yes,
afraid
if
.
it
goes on this
way we
bloody revolution on our hands. ernment,
I
mean
if I
will have another
If I
were in the gov-
were really up there
I
would
act
all this
corruption and
why do we have
a government?
without mercy to do away with injustice. After all,
.
Why do we have a Leader?" "But why did they remove the rugs and chairs
80
from here?
How
all
the arm-
can an honorable government
official like
Your Excellency
aging to the dignity of the government high-ranking
important
officials like
affairs of
is
dam-
itself to
have
receive visitors? It
Your Excellency conduct the
the nation in such undignified sur-
roundings."
Mr. Sepenta rubbed
and said, "Well, they came here about a week ago and removed all the rugs and armchairs they only left the one you are sitting on and they took away the coffee tables and the electric fan and they just about took everything. The Great Leader of Leaders issued a statement that he was launching a vigorous economy drive, and this was part of it. In a few days they will probably come and remove
—
—
my
his chin
desk and chairs and
I'll
have to
guests will have to join
me
there and
all
and documents
these papers
sit
on the I'll
my
in
floor,
my
have to keep pockets or in
shoe boxes."
"This
is
sipping his
shameful, shameful," the tea.
first
visitor said,
"These people have no respect for the
dignity of honorable
men
like
Your Excellency. Even conscientious and
when one upright and honest and noble
official like
Your Excellency wants
to accomplish
things in this country, they won't let him.
won't
let
They
just
him."
"No, they won't
let
one do things."
"No, they won't, they won't. Well, I will not take any more of Your Excellency's time. With your permission
I will leave."
He
got
up and bowed
several
times.
Mr. Sepenta
also got
up and
as
they shook hands, 81
"Thank you
said,
"I pray
for giving
Your Excellency
me
the honor of this visit."
will not forget
my
supplica-
tion."
"No, no, I
I
won't forget your command. Rest assured
will take care of
it.
I,
myself, will take care of
it
for
you."
am
Your Excellency is an upand punctual and honorable gentleman and I am confident you will abide by your promise." He bowed again and backed out of the room. Mr. Sepenta picked up the paper his visitor had left "I
very, very grateful.
right
on
his desk, glanced at
it
and shook
disdainfully
The
head. "People are out of their minds. they make.
his
requests
He
don't have time to take care of this."
I
rang a bell and when the attendant came
in,
gave
him
and said, "Take this to Mr. Doctor Shayan or Mr. Neekta and tell him if he can't do anything with it to throw it away. If that gentleman the one the paper
who and
just left see
—comes back
—
him
in a few days tell
go
to
Mr. Neekta or one of the others."
When
the attendant
left,
sorry, agha, I didn't catch
"My name
is
Mr. Sepenta
said, "I
am
your name."
Daryoush Aryana."
"Mr. Aryana, Aryana. Where have I heard that name? I think Mr. Engineer Janan mentioned your name to me the other day. I think it was he ." .
"Yes,
have seen Mr. Engineer Janan.
person
first
"Why is
I
I
He
was the
saw here."
don't you
sit
more comfortable." 82
.
in the armchair,
Mr. Aryana,
it
am
"I all
comfortable here, merci.
I
have been waiting
morning to see you, Mr. Sepenta. Your attendant you were busy and ..." "You should have come in, I wasn't that busy." "I had to give him money to come in here."
said
"Really? Really? "I gave
him
Two
tomans.
see
how shameful
it
is?"
tomans."
five
"Five tomans?
You
You
tomans
shouldn't have given
him
five
the most one should give these
is
people."
"But
this
is
"Yes,
it is
terrible, terrible.
who
tleman
bribery Mr. Sepenta.
just
left,
the
As
I
.
." .
was telling the gen-
government
enough to do away with all this mess. know what is going to happen." "This
is
my
isn't I
doing
just don't
application for an identity card,
has
it
been signed and approved by several of the gentlemen here.
I
have two
also
photographs.
now
to
be grateful
have them make out
been running still
I will
letters of
introduction and six if
my
you
now
I really
weeks and
can't wait
As Aryana spoke, Mr. Sepenta looked tion. "I see
an order
identity card. I have
after this for the last three
nowhere, and
issue
am
any longer."
at the applica-
here that Mr. Doctor Shayan and His Ex-
cellency Mr. Firouz have signed your application;
why
didn't they give a simple order to issue your identity
card?"
"They say,
the
—
said they didn't have the
—how would you
I've forgotten the word. ..."
"Authority?" 83
They
"Yes, authority.
had
said they
to
have orders
from above." "That's nonsense, they didn't need orders for a
simple thing like this." Mr. Sepenta glanced at the
"You have written here
application again and said,
you are pressed for time, may
I
why you
ask
that
are in a
hurry?"
and need an identity
"I have to leave the country
card to get a passport."
"But haven't you
just recently
come back from
abroad?"
came back about a month ago." "And you already want to leave? May I ask why you want to leave so quickly?" Aryana fidgeted uncomfortably and said, "I must "Yes,
I
leave here.
I
don't
know why.
I
am
in great discomfort
here and can't stay any longer."
Mr. Sepenta was
silent a
long time.
He
looked at the
small photographs of Aryana, read and reread the application.
He
window, and Aryana,
shifted his position, stared out of the at length,
said, "I will tell
turning his head to look at
you something, Mr. Aryana,
but please don't misunderstand. only so you understand
my
—
lost his identity card, didn't
exact date
it
fined
84
I
have the number or the
He was an educated man —one —and always well dressed and very
was
could see that
—
tell you this There was a
would say about one he came here and said that he had
gentleman here some time ago or two years ago
I will
situation.
issued.
and he had two or three
re-
influential friends at
different ministries
new
us to issue a
make
who
—and
little
money
Anyway,
—
we
I will
admit that
an identity
brand new identity card
issued a
me just same man was
to
day, saw dif-
shortly after succeeded in getting
card. Yes,
urging
his behalf
he came here every
spent a
officials,
on
identity card for him.
the story short,
ferent
called us
you, hardly a
for this
month
agha. Well, let
tell
that very
caught on the border, heading
a million-toman smuggling operation.
checked into the matter,
was not an Iranian
at all,
it
When
later
the police
turned out that the agha
but from one of the neighbor-
ing countries, that he had lived here several years, and
had wanted an Iranian identity card only to facilitate his illegal operations." Mr. Sepenta cleared his throat before adding, "There have been others too, not many, but a few others who also claimed to that he
have
lost their identity cards
were foreigners ers, et cetera.
Aryana,
I
am
—
spies,
Now,
and who,
it
turned out,
smugglers, profiteers, tax dodg-
please don't misunderstand,
Mr.
implying that you are a
for-
not at
all
eigner, or that your hasty request for an identity card
under
false pretenses.
this at all.
you the
You
Believe me, I
say
—
I
not implying
certainly look Iranian, although, to tell
truth, I
have seen Arabs and Turks
have your dark features. listening to
am
is
you
I
It's
who
also
just that, sitting here,
—how
couldn't help thinking
shall I
couldn't help thinking that something was not
quite right. Please forgive me, but you cation written in a childish scrawl
you speak with an
is
accent, every other
see,
your appli-
full of mistakes,
word you
utter
85
is
English or French, you have been living abroad for
God knows how
long,
you want
very hastily, you don't
Mr. Engineer Janan told day
—and
above
all
to leave again hastily,
even know
me
the year
we
are in
this in passing the
other
you have absolutely nothing
show that you were born here, or
to
that your parents
were Iranian."
Aryana stared at him and tried to restrain himself from erupting. He wanted to say something, object to Mr. Sepenta's objections, refute the insinuations. But he just stared and was not able to organize his thoughts.
'Tut yourself
in
my place,
Mr. Aryana, wouldn't you
same way? Wouldn't you have the same won't say suspicions, that is rude but hesitation?
react the
—
would have
willing to swear you
—
—we I
am
same Aryana
exactly the
the same thoughts." He would talk, but the latter was still bogged in speechlessness, and Mr. Sepenta, sensing that he had perhaps offended his visitor, quickly added, "But don't let this
suspi
paused to see
worry you, Mr. Aryana,
it is
if
a very simple problem. It
you what to do. Go Police Department and have them write us a is
nothing
at all. I will tell
stating that will
you are Iranian. That's
letter
you need.
We
." .
.
"This
is
ridiculous,"
Sepenta. "This
is
Aryana groaned, glaring
do you think course is,
86
I
am this
I
I
am, agha? Of course
Iranian. I is,
I
at
Mr.
ridiculous. I have to bring proof
from the Police Department that
this
all
to the
am
am I
Iranian.
am
Iranian.
more Iranian than
just don't
know what
What
—
I
Of
mean,
to say, this
is
degoutant.
where
feel offended, agha. I
am
I
As you of us.
Still
that
—how can
I
explain
it
we had some written It would look more formal." shaking his head, Aryana
why
don't you call
now, and ask them to look
and can
didn't say this.
I
whether
see
I
am
at
my
—
well,
proof,
if
absurd. Look,
it
sure you are Ira-
you are probably more Iranian than many
said,
It's
am
not saying that you are not.
look better dence.
this any-
in the world."
"Don't nian.
have never seen anything like
I
said,
up
it
would
some
"This
is
evi-
really
the airport right
passport, they've got
Iranian or not."
no longer at the airport, and besides, Mr. Aryana, we can't call up anyone and ask for such information. That is why you should go "First of
your passport
all,
is
Department; they can
to the Police
easily
check
all
this."
Struggling to speak calmly, Aryana said, "There
Mr. Meena
upon my
at the
Customs who
saw
also
my
is
a
passport
why don't you call him?" Mr. Sepenta sat up and said, "Mr. Aryana, I don't understand why you don't want to go to the Police Department. You say you are Iranian. Fine. Then go arrival,
Department, have them write us a simple
to the Police
letter stating that
you are Iranian. That's
all. It is
very
simple."
"All these
"Forgive
." .
.
me
just as soon as
for interrupting you,
you bring that paper,
but I
I
promise that
myself will take 87
care of the rest for you. tity
I
them
will have
an iden-
issue
card for you within one day."
Aryana got up and quietly anything like
this
—
this
have never seen
said, "I
disgusting.
is
three weeks that I've been devoting
all
now
It's
my
over
time to get-
ting an identity card, I've been running from one ministry to another, I
am
still
wasting whole days in
nowhere, and you are telling
silly bit of
paper that says
to live here. I wish I
I
am
and now
offices
me
Iranian. It
had never come back
to get this is
an agony
to this coun-
try."
He walked out of the room, went
downstairs and left come back? How many times did I beg you, warn you not to come back? Why did you come back, Daryoush? Why? Why? I am angry at you. I knew this would happen. You had no reason to come here. This is not your element. You are
Why
the building.
not Iranian
—
country, this
I
that's right,
Thank God
nian.
did
is
Mr. Sepenta,
This
for that.
another century.
another part of the world,
I
I
is
I
am
not
Ira-
not just another
haven't just
have traveled
to
come
to
another
century, another era, I have slid back to the Middle
Ages.
He
suddenly realized he was muttering louder and
louder, see
if
and he glanced
furtively this
anyone had noticed him talking
however, he was
88
I
am
I
am
that, to
to himself. Soon,
walking briskly again,
"That's right, Mr. Sepenta,
modern man,
way and
muttering,
not Iranian,
—your application
is
I
am
a
full of mis-
takes,
you speak with an
accent, every other
use
English or French
—
is
you something,
first
you, that's right,
I
of
till
won't alter things.
He
tell
better than you, go ahead
it
your
me
Sepenta, let
speak Iranian better than
all, I
speak
and laugh. Laugh
listen,
word you
explodes.
fat belly
But
that
thinks just because he uses these
long ancient words no one understands and expertly recites cliche formalities,
he
is
more Iranian than me,
or speaks our language better than me. Well, let tell
you something Sepenta,
may
handwriting, and
I
not have a fancy
not understand
words you blurt out, but that less
may
me
still
all
the ten-meter
doesn't
make me
Iranian than you. Every other word you use
is
modern Iranian, I use English and French words to make myself understood. I am not ashamed of it. Not at all. Not at
Arabic or Turkish while
all. I
am
I
speak a more
not ashamed of using foreign words.
in the international language of today, I speak
a letter that says you are Iranian Iranian, cestors; I
I
am more
—damned
I
speak
—bring
right I
am
Iranian than your barbarian an-
what right do you have
me
a foreigner?
that. I
should have
to call
should have slapped your face for
—he suddenly found himself outside the home
of his
Kourosh Firouzan, and he stood on the
street,
friend,
unprepared idly
to
go
and arrived
out of himself.
in,
sorry that he
so soon, for he
He
walked back
had walked
so rap-
had much
to beat
still
to the
end of the
street,
then around the block, angrily pondering Mr. Sepenta's words. All his
life
he had been called a 89
for-
—
had been a foreigner in Beirut he was the ajami, in America he was the alien from faraway Asia, and in Europe he was le monsieur Oriental. Now, eigner, all his life he
he had come back to what he had thought was his country,
and
90
it
grieved
him
to
be called a foreigner.
6 He
rang the bell and almost immediately his friend's
young son opened the door and seeing Aryana quickly bowed his head and said salaam. ''Salaam Ardasheer. Are your father and mother in?" "My agha hasn't come from the office, and my mother went out about half an hour ago but told me to ask you to please come in. I think she went out to buy something and will be right back." "Are Pari and Babak home?" Aryana asked, going in. "My sister is doing her homework, and my brother is
—here he
is."
Babak bowed
his
head and said salaam, and Aryana,
patting the boy's head, returned the salaam.
He walked
across the small courtyard, entered the house,
and the
and followed him into the small living room. Aryana sat down in an armchair and asked the two boys to sit next to him. Pari also came into the room, bowed her head slightly and said salaam. "Come and sit next to me," Aryana said, and as Ardasheer got up and went out of the room, his sister diffidently sat in his place. "What was boys opened the
the
first
door on the
left
homework you were doing?" 91
Averting her glance, she shyly muttered, "I was
memorizing my history
lesson."
"Tell me, what were you memorizing?"
on Nader Shah the
"I was memorizing the chapter
Great."
"Will you recite
it
for
me?"
She blushed, smiled uneasily and looked away. Aryana asked her again, whereupon she erect,
and staring
began a rapid
straight ahead,
—"Nader
and
sat up, stiff
sing-
Shah was one of the great emperors of Iran he was a brave and just and humane Leader at the age of nineteen he murdered his brother song recitation
and uncle and proclaimed himself Shah over three hundred wives and during complished
much
had
cious he
for his people he
was
his son blinded before
many thousands of people conquered many lands and ..." "Which school do you attend?"
death
"I go to Leader
of Iran he his life
had
he
ac-
at times suspi-
him and put
this great
to
emperor
Alvand school."
"Last time you promised you would play backgam-
mon with me," Babak interposed shyly. "Go and Aryana
said,
still
backgammon
and we'll play," preoccupied with Mr. Sepenta's
fetch the
set
words. "It's in
my
parents' room,
sion to go in there.
and
Maybe my
I
don't have permis-
sister will
go in and get
it."
"I can't go in there," Pari said, "I don't have permission. Tell
92
my
big brother,
maybe he can
get
it."
Babak
called his older brother
into the room.
gammon
Aryana
why
"Can you
said,
get the back-
set?"
my parents' room; there." He turned to
"It's in
go in
who came running
don't you go and get
it.
I
don't have permission to
his sister
and
They won't
said, "Pari,
scold
you or
you anything."
tell
"You go and
get
it,
must have orders from them
to
"I can't go in there," Pari said.
you are older."
"Why doesn't Babak get it?" Ardasheer asked. "No, go
I
can't
in there.
do
it,
You do
"Very well,
I'll
I
it."
do
it,"
Ardasheer
hands and smiling worriedly. "But or
my mother
mustn't
tell
comes
I will
said,
as
rubbing
my
agha
back.
You
soon as
quickly take
it
his
them anything, do you understand, Babak?
Just keep it to yourself." He ran out of the room and a few moments later was back with the backgammon set.
He
placed
it
on the table and
the pieces in order said,
"Now
as
they began putting
don't forget, let this
among us. We won't tell them." They rolled the dice and began playing, and in a few moments they were all immersed in the game. Arda-
stay
sheer and Babak sat side by side and played against
Aryana who was an old hand at the game. Aryana won the first game and excitedly they began another game. "Mother is coming, mother is coming," Pari, who had been sitting by the window, whispered. In a flash Ardasheer gathered the pieces, closed the set and dashed
with
it
out of the room.
93
Laleh Firouzan came into the house and arose they salaamed
me this
as
Aryana
and shook hands. "Please forgive
when you arrived, but knew you would forgive.
for not being in the house is
your own home, and
Kourosh
will also
and
the table
I
be home in a minute." Seeing that
chairs
were differently arranged, she
turned to Ardasheer and
said,
"Were you playing
back-
gammon?" "I swear
we weren't doing anything."
She glared at him, then turning to Aryana,
said,
"Mr. Aryana, please
sit down. If you will forgive me, I and get lunch ready." She went into her room and soon after called Ardasheer. "Who gave you permission to come into this room when I was away?"
will go
come in here." ." "Don't lie to me. I know you came in here "If you want the truth, we wanted to come in here, but we didn't." She slapped his face and angrily said, "How many times have I told you not to come in here without per"I swear
on the Koran
I
didn't
.
mission?
How many
times have
I
told
.
you not
anything without orders from your father or me?
to
do
If
we
."
didn't
.
.
Ardasheer backed away to dodge his mother's blows and repeatedly swore that he hadn't come into the
room. "If
we
teach you what orders.
would rules and
didn't have a guest here right now, I
But wait
it is
to disobey
till I tell
your parents'
your father tonight."
Mrs. Firouzan's angry scoldings reached Aryana's
94
and he jumped up and went to the bedroom door. He knocked once and said, "Mrs. Firouzan, it's me. Please forgive me for interfering, but ..." Mrs. Firouzan reluctantly opened the door and smiled to
ears
conceal her anger and the scene with her son. "Please forgive just
me
for interfering,
wanted
my
fault,
ter
and not
I
say
you that
to tell
this
not the children's. let
them, after
—these problems
been away
so long
know
I
I
all,
I
whole thing was
we had
and have
—here
is
really
known bethow shall
should have
our house
at
shouldn't, but I
these
—
too.
But
I
have
Kourosh."
"What's going on here?"
"Nothing
at all.
Kourosh took Daryoush,
let's
Nothing."
by the arm and
his friend
go and
lie
down
"Come They went
said,
together."
room where Kourosh took off his and socks and urged his guest to do the same. Pari spread a sheet on the floor and the two men lay down side by side. I am unaccustomed to this sort of cordiality, Aryana
into the small living coat, shirt, shoes
thought.
have a
It feels
man
people are very
They They love cal.
everything.
strange to
lie
next to another man, to
hold your hand, stroke your hair. These
—
as
they say in America
—very physi-
are very demonstrative in their affection. to
hold hands and to touch.
I like this
about them.
I like
They touch .
.
.
There was a knock on the door and Babak said, "Mother says lunch is ready. Come to the other room." "Tell your Mother we will eat here, on the floor." Soon the door opened and Laleh Firouzan peeked in 95
and
"Why
said,
other room.
I
come
don't you gentlemen
have already
into the
set the table there."
"Bring the food here," Kourosh told his wife.
want to "But
eat right here, I
have already
it's
set the table."
"Well, never mind, never mind. Bring
oush
is
not a stranger that
is
table."
He
There
is
"Very
we should
it
here. Dary-
sit
stiffly
at a
hand and added, "This want to be comfortable.
pressed Daryoush's
own home and we
his
"We
more intimate."
all
no ceremony between
us."
well, then," his wife said, "If
you gentlemen
we will eat here." up and help you," Daryoush said, but as get up Kourosh held him back and said,
prefer to eat here "I will get
he began to
"Don't be
Daryoush, just
silly,
lie
here and relax,
they'll take care of everything."
The
children helped their mother bring the food to
They
the living room.
set the dishes of rice
and sauce
and the usual side dishes on the sheet. Then they joined Kourosh and his friend, sat on the floor around the sheet and ate. "Maybe Mr. Aryana isn't comfortable on the floor," Laleh said. "Don't worry about him," Kourosh replied. "If he
were not comfortable, he would
ceremony
here.
sat at tables, if I
floor
and
can't get
you
For
years, this
tell
away from
there
is
no
poor friend of mine has
know him, he now
eat informally. After
us,
craves to
all, isn't
these things,
sit
on the
he Iranian? You
no matter how long
stay abroad."
Aryana 96
ate quietly
and
tried to dismiss all thoughts
of his hapless conversation with
glances at the children, their
he told himself,
it is
good
to
Mr. Sepenta.
mother and
be here.
It is
He
stole
father,
and
good not to
have to eat alone, or in a restaurant, but to eat home-
cooked food, in a home, with a family, and to recount to
one another what you had done during the day,
sympathize with one another's failures, rejoice in one another's successes.
When
they finished eating, the children helped their
mother remove the
dishes. Fruits
were served, then
tea,
then sweets. Laleh sent her children to their rooms to
and went to the living room to join her husband and Aryana. "Mr. Aryana doesn't seem very happy sleep,
today," Laleh said.
"Daryoush
"But "Is
I
it
is
always sad," her husband rejoined.
think today he
sadder than usual."
is
because of your identity card?"
asked, turning to lie
on
his stomach.
Kourosh
"Don't worry,
you'll get it."
"I traveled all over the world with no hindrance," Aryana muttered, "and now, here in this country, I am trapped and can't move." "Where would you go, if you could leave right now?" Aryana looked up at the ceiling and smiled, "If I
could leave right now, quel bonheur,
I
would go
to
southern California or Paris or somewhere by the
Mediterranean Sea." think
two
I
would go
He
to Paris.
ladies speak French,
in Paris.
The
paused before adding, "I
The
and
it
other day
made me
older lady reminded
me
I
overheard
my life Madame
miss of
97
my
Poire,
river
and
"I never wished
tion,
had
I
by the
one of our haunts
,,
you wished you
in these places, said.
Why
were here.
I
were here?
I
sit at
until morning.
"When you were were here," Kourosh
abroad.
take a long walk
in the Tuileries, then
and chat with friends
wished
would
landlady. I
do you think
was always happy when
I
a quiet peaceful
compatible friends
—
I
life,
I
I lived
a gratifying posi-
had everything
I
wanted."
"You have forgotten that when you lived abroad you were really not as happy as you now think. It's just that you are now unhappy here and are romanticizing your life
abroad."
"That's not true, Kourosh. "If
to
My life abroad
." .
.
you were happy abroad, why did you always long
come here?" "I never longed to
"How
come
can you say
here."
that,
time you were here, but
wrong,
I
can prove
Daryoush? Your mind has
You
obviously tricked you.
I
said the
same thing
last
can prove that you are
it."
Laleh smiled and shifted her position, "Look Kourosh, don't
annoy the agha.
subject, talk about
"Very
well,
—
not being
realistic
back
it's
and
I
When
to this country,
98
talk
just that
annoys me.
really
something
we can
talk about
Why
about something
my
but
is
this
else." else, let's
dear friend Daryoush
is
annoys me,
it
must he
must you pursue
confess,
it
abroad he yearns to come
now
that he
is
here, instead
of settling stantly
"I
grumbles and wants
still
here. I
down and enjoying
say
may
don't
I
to
his country,
he con-
go away again."
remember longing
come back
to
." .
.
my
Kourosh said, sitting up. "Please don't say it. I have all your cards and letters right here in the house and if you want I can show them to you. I can show you letters and cards where in your own handwriting you told me about your life "Don't say
abroad and
Aryana
that,
friend,"
how you longed
also sat
come back here." up, and frowning, said, "I would to
like
to see them." "I'll
bring them right now," Kourosh
remember
said, getting
you were here, we had the same argument, although last time you were not as unhappy as you are today and therefore weren't so vehement in denying that when you were abroad you longed to come here. But that day, after you left, up. "If you
I
the other time
told Laleh, I said, look Laleh, this friend of mine,
this
dear Daryoush, has forgotten
when he was
abroad. But
I
how he
really felt
have his cards here and
going to take them out of
my
I
am
trunk and when he
is
enough to come here again, I can show them to him. Now, give me a minute and I'll get them for you." He went out of the room and came right back bringing with him a batch of soiled envelopes and cards. "I'll find them for you in a minute," Kourosh said, leafing through the papers. "Here is one from southnice
ern California is
—but
another from,
let
this
me
is
see,
not the one from,
it is
I
want
from
—here
Biarritz,
99
here
another one from Munich
is
Let's see, here
them,
it is
me
want
is
from America,
.
.
.
me
the salaam
all
for
is .
.
think this
I
here
yes, yes,
it
is
is,
one of
do you
years ago;
five, six
and
aleik
and get
let's see,
I'll
to the pertinent
—where 'Sundays go from Brooklyn sometimes here with — 'America my second home Yes, here
where you
she
just a card.
it."
"This was written part,
—
it's
to read it?"
"Yes, read
skip
from
a letter
—but
say
is it?
.
.'
.
.
.
.
it is
(sometimes
think
I
I
I
to
I
feel I
stays
.
is
have only second homes),
grew up here. America has given me the freedom and the opportunity to learn and work and grow and assert
my own not at
individual freedom.
home
cannot say
I
on the
here. I live
really live in
self into this
I like
it,
America, but
I
am
fringes of this society. I
or can ever integrate my-
culture which calls for an entirely differ-
ent orientation from mine. Living this way, outside society, I feel
why You
are you here, Daryoush? This
I
is
ask myself,
I say,
not your element.
More and more I feel that I my own country, live among my
don't belong here.
want
own
very alone. Sometimes
to
go back to
people, where
I
can
that's all in this one."
fit
in.
Kourosh
Yesterday cast a
I
went
to'
quick glance
at
Daryoush before adding, "There is a more recent one from Paris, I read it the other day. Let me see, here it 'and I just returned from a trip to Germany and is
—
Italy. lish,
Although Europe retarded
100
—and
in
is
socially
—
as
they say in Eng-
some ways reminds me of our
own country. Traveling in Europe is exciting and fun. The women are abundant and obliging you would like it here. You would own
country,
still it is
also love Paris
But everyone is
—
I
not our
—
it is
an adventure
know here
leaving next month.
hotel. I
know that
it
to live in this city.
either arrived last month, or
I feel I
am on
will all
tired of this unstable life here.
The
and
pointment them.
a
gentleman speak Iranian.
I
had and
It felt
good
sat there all
to hear
different,
wanted
as
if
—
I
put
off
an ap-
afternoon listening to Iranian.
as if their
their laughter,
I'm
overheard two
I
them speak
enjoyed hearing them laugh
glad.
other day at one of
the sidewalk cafes on the Capucines ladies
a ship or at a
end soon, and I'm
even
I
laughter were
were Iranian.
too,
I
and tell them, I am an Iranian too, and kiss them, buy them something, or do something for them. But I just couldn't muster to go over, introduce myself
the courage.
I
wish
I
were there right now, so we could
and talk about old times. I would love to sit with some relatives and old friends and talk about old times, go picnicking on Fridays, sit by one of those waterfalls in Darband (is Darband still the same?), spend a whole afternoon playing backgammon, make love with an
sit
Iranian
woman,
listen to the flute "
—God, how
I
wish
I
were back home right now.'
Daryoush Aryana remained
silent
and
He
reflective.
did not hear his friend Kourosh say that there were other cards and letters that bespoke the same content, the same restlessness, the
same yearning
dis-
to
101
go
home. Laleh Firouzan interrupted her husband to say, "Don't annoy the agha, Kourosh, maybe he doesn't
want you to read his letters." Aryana stared at Laleh without listening to what she said. He was completely arrested by the deliberations within him. Listen Daryoush, you are here right now, after all these years you are here at last, you are in Iran, in your own country, your own city, among your own people. Do you understand? This is what you wanted, you have sat by the waterfall in Darband, played back-
gammon, made to the flute
love with an Iranian
woman,
—where can you go now? This
is
listened
what you
what you wanted. What if you go abroad and have the same irrepressible craving to come running back? What if he glanced at Kourosh and his wife wondering if they suspected what was going on in his mind. Look Daryoush, why don't
wanted
all
these years, this
is
—
you find a small house, even a hut, near the bazaar somewhere, a small house in one of those narrow, dingy alleys and settle there for always and forget that you ever
left Iran, forget that
forget that there
is
there
is
an outside world,
an America and a Europe, forget
all
happened to you since that day many years ago when Uncle took you away from Iran God, why did he take me away from here? forget all that you've seen and heard and experienced all these years, forget them as if they had never, never, never happened to that
—
you, shut yourself a
woman,
the day
102
up
in
one of those old houses, with
a simple Iranian
you die
.
.
—
woman, and
live there
till
".
.
and perhaps you are angry that
.
I
read your
letters."
Daryoush shook "I
know
exactly
his head.
how you
felt
when you wrote
Mr. Aryana," Laleh Firouzan
letters,
was married,
I also
said.
those
"Before
went abroad and planned
I
to stay
away several years, perhaps even never come back. But you know, hardly two months after I left, I felt nostalgic and lonely and I so missed my family and friends and countrymen that I came running back and vowed never one's
go away again. There really
to
is
no place
like
own country."
Aryana turned his head to look at her, and he nodded without having heard what she said. Presently
know you won't
she added, "I
gave
me
a million tomans,
one came here and gave look Laleh, this
is
I
me
believe this, but
mean,
if
a million tomans
yours, all yours
if
they
right now, some-
and
said,
on the simple condi-
—
you leave Iran and live abroad I wouldn't accept. I know you don't believe this, but it's the truth. My husband knows this. I am very happy here in my own country, and have absolutely no desire, not even curiosity, to go abroad. You know, sometimes as I walk tion that
in the streets
and hear the peddlers sing out their wares, to them and kissing them. Sing
I feel like
running up
dear man,
I
say inwardly, sing dear peddler,
how
you sing. Then sometimes, when I go parents' home, I sit on our balcony and look to hear
love
to
my
at the
there for hours just staring at the
mountains.
I
mountains.
I really
sit
I
love them. Mountains,
I say,
103
you
are so big
Iranian mountains and
"You
I
happy
are
am
feel
you belong
land and this land belongs to you. Perhaps
have
the same
felt
way had
You
are
up. "I envy
said, getting
You
here.
mountains.
Iranian."
Aryana
are fortunate,"
You
you.
my
and rugged. You are
I
to this
would
not gone away."
I
"You know," Kourosh said with a smile, "the other day a thought came to me, I said to myself, I said maybe this Daryoush is really not Iranian. I mean when I think of
it
you could
just as well be
met you abroad on and although we have kept up a corre-
neighboring countries. After
board a
ship,
spondence
from one of the
all
all, I
through these
years, yet I really
know
past, I
have never met a relative
of yours or for that matter
anyone who knew you in
nothing about your
your childhood. In last
time you were
Daryoush, "I
sit
fact I
wanted
here—why
to ask
you about
did you get up?
Sit
this
down
down."
must go," Aryana
"Where must you
said,
putting on his
go? Please
sue this subject any more.
I
sit
down.
shirt.
We won't pur-
don't care where you are
from, where you want to go, what you want to do, that's all
your
own
business. I shouldn't have read your
let-
please forgive me."
ters,
who had
Laleh,
just stepped out of the
back and seeing Aryana buttoning his
"Where I
104
shirt,
said,
are you going, agha?"
"Don't him,
room, came
am
let
him
sorry,
go, Laleh.
I
think
I'm very sorry ..."
I
have offended
"Kourosh,
I
warned you not
on the sub-
to dwell
ject," his wife said.
"I am not offended," Aryana rejoined. "It is just that must leave now." "Agha, why must you leave now?" Laleh said sternly. "Where can a man, a bachelor, go at this hour? This is not an hour to venture out into the streets. You must rest right now. Kourosh, turn your back and go to sleep and let the agha go to sleep too." Aryana stood still and stared at her. "Agha, take off your shirt and lie down. You need to I
rest right
now."
"Daryoush, come and
down.
lie
Why
are
you
smil-
ing?"
"Perhaps the agha
smiling at
is
me
will just have to forgive
my
insolence.
You
for speaking so openly.
It's
you gentlemen who are single and without attachments sometimes don't know what is right for you.
just that
Who has heard of going out into the streets at this hour on
a
warm day like
you can have
tea,
Rest here an hour or two, then
this?
and
if
you want
to leave,
we
will not
insist."
Aryana
sat
down on
the
arm
said,
"You know,
what
to do,
been
a long long time since
it
feels
reprimand
good
an Iranian has rebuked
It
couch and smiling
to have
me and
something or scolded me.
of a
forbid
someone
me
tell
me
things. It has
anyone has forbidden
me
has been a long time since
me and
." .
.
"You've been away so long ..." -
"You know, my mother always made me
sleep in the
105
afternoons. She always scolded after lunch. It
is
good
me
out in the afternoon or stay up I left
wanted
to
go out
have someone scold you,
to
bid you things, reprimand you
too soon.
if I
my home
when you want
late at night. I left
too soon
for-
to go
them
and came back too
,,
late.
"Lie
down and
rest,
agha," Laleh said.
"We
can
all
talk again later."
you say, I will take off my shirt, lie down and not say any more." When Kourosh and his friend woke up about two "Very
hours
and
well,
later,
will
I
do
as
Pari brought
fetch the
them
backgammon
tea
set,"
and sweets. "Go Kourosh told his
daughter. "I want to win some of this Daryoush's dollars
and
francs."
The two men remained on
the floor,
leaned against huge cushions, and played backgammon. First they played a set of five games, then, excited
by
the close competition, they played another five games,
then another, and another. As they played, tea and
and delicacies and pistachios were served, and the men, carried away by the game, rapidly, automatically devoured everything that was brought for them. The children and their mother sat nearby on the floor, watching attentively and with each roll of the dice fruits
cheered, laughed, shifted their sympathies.
Aryana, thoroughly engrossed in the game and enor-
mously pleased
to be in a
home with
a family, involved
in a domestic gathering, played with self-confidence
and enthusiasm, turning now and again to wink at the children and acknowledge their cheers. "The way this 106
Daryoush plays backgammon you would never know he has been abroad all these years," Kourosh said. "He has won all my money." When they finished playing,
Aryana distributed the money he had won among the children.
and the children hurried to their rooms to do their homework. Kourosh and his wife asked Aryana to stay for dinner, and he accepted. As Laleh went into the kitchen, Kourosh and his friend Night had
fallen
and talked about old times. Soon, the family gathered for dinner and as they ate the children reported what they had done during the day, and what they planned to do the next day. After dinner, they all sat in the small courtyard and once again reclined on the
listened to the frogs
floor,
around the
little
pond.
107
7 When
Daryoush Aryana
home, the were deserted and most of the houses dark and Finding himself alone again, a depression that
streets silent.
had
He
earlier taken root in
suddenly
felt as
left his
him began
friend's
to
grow and spread.
though he had been shut out of the
world, as though he were detached and without con-
nection to anything in the world, without even a nest
which he could slink back.
to
Automatically he began to walk
all
the
way
to his
room, but after he had walked a few minutes he suddenly remembered Safoura and his footsteps slackened.
At
first
he told himself that he would go to her the next
day, for
He
it
was
late
now, and she was no doubt
continued walking and tried to dismiss
all
asleep.
thought
of her, but the prospect of returning to his room, facing
himself and spending another hollow night staring at the ceiling, tossing
crept over
and turning and talking to himself, stop and once again con-
him and made him
sider going to her.
He
changed
hesitantly, then
his course
and began
more and more
anticipation of being with a
to walk, at
first
deliberately. Slowly the
woman grew
within him 109
and began to dissipate his solicitude. The door that had been shut behind him was now reopened. He no longer felt excluded and isolated. There was still a connection, however temporary and frail and incomwith the world around him.
patible,
briskly, hopefully,
and passing by a
He walked
fruit shop, the
still open in that part of the city, he went and bought her fruits. He left the shop, walked to the end of the street, turned into a dark cobblestoned alley and began the descent into the Old City. He went through dim-lit deserted streets, and narrow alleys with old, decrepit houses and shops. The strong, ever-present smell of urine made him wrinkle his nose and shake his head. He walked through areas that were deep and dark like the bazaar, his footsteps echoing hollowly in the empty
only shop in
streets.
Here, where everything was old and
still,
dark
shadows rested heavily on the blistered pavement, now hiding and
now showing
the dirt, the gutter, the blood
near the gutter where hens and sheep were beheaded, the overlapping stains of urine on the walls, and scattered heaps of rubbish where cats gorged themselves.
Deeper and deeper he went into
this old
quarter of
the city, passing through areas that were remotely familiar.
He
straining to
paused more than once to look about, remember whether he had ever been here
or was confusing what he saw with similar places he
had known elsewhere. He stopped and urinated against a wall, and began to tell himself, it is not civilized to urinate in the streets, but was astonished to hear him-
110
self
mutter,
A
wall.
it feels
good
to stand
large tattered notice
caught his eye. All Believers,
and urinate against a
on the wall above him it said,
are
summoned
take part in the flagellations in observance of the
der of
Imam
to
mur-
Hussein. Every day, an hour before noon,
the procession will leave the Hajj sera near the
Abdul Aziz Caraven-
Gate of the Cave. Bring your own chains.
He began to walk away when he heard footsteps behind him. He stopped, turned around, and presently a veiled woman appeared out of the dark shadows. She walked slowly toward him, her dark eyes carefully measuring him from head to paces away, and stood
next move.
still
She stopped several
toe.
waiting for
"What do you want,
him
sister?"
to
make
Aryana mut-
tered, staring at her.
The woman motioned
with her head to come
closer,
two toward
more
as
to
him
he took a step or
her, she slowly let her veil
of her face, then suddenly she
tire veil
drop showing
opened up her en-
revealing her naked body.
Startled
by the suddenness of her move, Aryana drew
back a couple of
him
and
the
steps,
and the woman came toward
again. She enclosed herself in her black veil, then
show her body again. She spread her legs slightly and motioned to Aryana to come closer, but he shook his head and said that he was in a hurry. "I have a room on the next street," she whispered. "Come with me, I do it well." Aryana shook his head again and she said, "Then stand here in the doorway, and I'll do it for you. You don't have to do anything." Aryana walked away and the woman followed him.
reopened
it
to
-
Ill
"Look, agha," she want.
You can do
do
said, "I'll it
it
for
the other way,
if
you any way you you
like, I
don't
mind." "Look, "I can
sister, I
do
told
you I'm in
quickly,
it
a hurry."
you are
if
in a hurry. It won't
take long."
She continued importuning him, but seeing that he did not respond, she vanished. Aryana stopped, turned
around
to see
where she had gone, but could not
see
he continued
her, or even hear her footsteps. Puzzled,
walking, and wondered what had happened to her.
upon other women, all enveloped in cryptic veils. They opened their veils to show their naked or partly naked bodies, and motioned to him to come close. Opening and closing their veils, they Soon, he came
looked like huge black birds flapping their wings.
Aryana stopped and talked with them and he strangely comfortable as if
and
at
home with
these
women,
He
recalled
he had known them for centuries.
then that even that
first
felt
woman, notwithstanding
the
suddenness of her appearance, had induced in him the
same good feelings. Her simultaneous aggressiveness and compliance had been reassuring to him, and when she opened her veil and motioned to him to come in, it
was for him
opened up
Old
as if the
to take
him
City, or the earth itself,
in again.
He had
felt
sad
had
when
she suddenly vanished, and now, as he talked amiably
with these women, he looked
he would once again see that
The women clung 112
way and woman.
this
first
to him, each
that
hoping
promising a novel
new way,
thrill, a
self
be pulled
this
He
a complete submission.
way and
that,
importunings. Encouraged by held on to him, and
and
let
him-
listened to their
his permissiveness they
when he continued
walking, they
walked along, and more than one of them offered her love for love's sake.
When
they reached the street where Safoura lived,
Aryana extricated himself, and promising another night, walked away briskly. He went
to return
to the
end
and stopped at a small, inelegant brick house. He knocked at the door and waited. Soon he knocked again. Disappointment began to grip him and he knocked harder and harder. What if she is not in, of the street,
must see her. He listened carefully at the only window, hoping to catch a sound or a voice from inside. "Safoura, Safoura," he whispered at the window. He looked about to see if anyone was watching him from the nearby houses, and he shook his head dejectedly, reprimanding himself for not having come here sooner since that last time, more than ten days earlier, when he had spent an entire night with her. he muttered,
Who
I
cares that she
woman? What is wrong with
if
she
is is
not a sophisticated, modern
from
this part of the city?
this part of the city?
and interesting women
What
Some very decent
live in these parts.
People don't
have to be learned to be interesting. As he muttered to himself he knocked repeatedly on the door.
He
was be-
ginning to resign himself to the conclusion that she
was not
in,
or not willing to answer the door,
when he
heard footsteps inside the house. 113
"Who is it?" "It's
He
me, Safoura,
it's
me
—Daryoush."
heard her grumble and he shook his head and
smiled, pinned between feelings of elation
guilt.
him quizzically, then bowed her head and
She opened the door, looked haps even reproachfully,
and
at
persaid
salaam. Aryana salaamed and said, "Please Safoura,
—
me for disturbing you at this it's just that Safoura, I am so happy you are in. I came all this way
forgive
you and
to see
"I
am
honored, agha,
I
am
have condescended to come the city and to this
humble
really
all
the
shack.
honored that you
way
to this part of
just that I wasn't
It's
when you
expecting anyone at this late hour and
knocked, sein, I
"I
I
was very
hope there
am
is
startled
and
Ya Imam Hus-
said,
no trouble again."
very sorry Safoura,
it's
just that I hadn't seen
you in several days, and I just had to see you tonight and hoped you would forgive me if I arrived a little late."
"This you.
It's
is
your own home, agha,
just that
be imprudent
—
—please forgive me,
it's
just that I
am
not worthy of
it's
I
don't want to
not one of those
women, you know that yourself, and tomed to having people come here at
I
am
this
not accus-
hour
of the
night."
"Please don't feel offended, Safoura, you I
know
that
have respect for you."
A
on her face, and the wider. Aryana took a step forward
faint trace of a smile played
door opened a 114
little
come in?" The door opened a little wider, and Aryana went in. He stood in the dimly lit room and waited for her to lead the way. She quietly closed the door and as she turned around, he said, ." He suddenly grabbed her arm "Safoura, I'm really and in his elation kissed her hand and face and neck. He kissed her over and over again. "Ya Imam Hussein, what is happening, Daryoush Khan? You are so affecand
"May
said,
I
.
tionate." She stood
.
immobile
as
he continued kissing
her.
"What
is
this
"I brought
you have
in
your hands?"
you some tangerines. Here. I wanted to else, something good, but all the
bring you something shops were closed."
She took the bag of tangerines and
know how
to
said,
"I don't
thank you, Daryoush Khan, but you
shouldn't have done
this.
you and embarrass me.
You
always bring things with
I really
don't expect you to
bring anything."
"These are
just tangerines, Safoura,
it's
"They probably cheated you again," "You must bargain with them."
nothing."
she said, chuck-
ling.
"I hate to bargain."
"You
Daryoush Khan, would you bring you a sheet and pillows and
are very tired,
to rest here,
"Can't
I'll
we go
into the back room,
it's
like .
.
."
more intimate
there."
"The
other
room
is
in disorder, I
"It doesn't matter, Safoura,
was sleeping in
come,
let's
it."
go into the
other room."
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In the back room, a huge mattress with rumpled sheets
on the
on
it
on the floor. Two large pillows were and a gaudy quilt, neatly folded, was
rested
mattress,
nearby on the
floor.
Several cushions of different sizes
and shapes, some with embroidered inscriptions, others ornamented with colorful designs, rested invitingly on the carpeted floor. Covering the walls, the small win-
dow and even
the ceiling were old tapestries with busy
arabesque designs and impressions of distant Iranian gardens where dark-eyed lovers cavorted beneath cypress trees, and peacocks with magnificent plumage roamed nearby. An old, tired lantern spread a weak light, casting curious shadows that made the room appear deep and full of unexplored retreats. At the same time the tapestries covering the ceiling and walls made the room appear strangely small and cavelike. Aryana took off his shoes, entered the room, and Safoura followed him in. "Please forgive the untidiness here, I'll tidy up the mattress instantly." Aryana sat on the mattress and said, "Leave it as it is and come sit here." "Very well then, I'll fetch you something to eat." "I'm not hungry Safoura, please come and sit here." She did not heed his words, and having placed several cushions behind him so he could lean back, she hurried out of the room and was soon back with honey cakes, cheeses, herbs, spring onions, halvah, and homemade jams. She dashed out of the room again and came back with sweets and nuts and pistachios and the tangerines Aryana had brought. She spread a sheet on the
116
by the mattress, and placed
carpet,
the food
all
on the
sheet.
Not her
sit
Aryana had grabbed her hand and made down did she stop bringing in foods and attenduntil
ing to him. "Please eat something. If you'll let get
up and
"I don't
"Then I
me
I'll
light the samovar."
want tea, merci."
please eat something. I
am
very ashamed that
don't have anything else to offer you."
Although not hungry, Aryana munched on the
pista-
chios.
"Did you get your identity card?" Aryana shook his head. "First I have
to prove I
am
Iranian."
"Aren't you Iranian?" she said, turning to look at
him.
"What can I..." "They should ask me," tell
she
murmured,
smiling. "I'll
them."
"What do you mean?" he asked, staring at her. "Do you mean because I was inconsiderate and came here so late?"
She shook her head. "I wasn't asleep when you came.
A
little
and her
my neighbor woke me up and
was beating his wife
while ago cries
I
couldn't
fall
asleep
again."
"Why was he beating his wife?" "I don't
know, he always beats her.
home late at night, or goes with when she objects he beats her."
I
think he comes
other
women, and 117
"Why doesn't she complain to the authorities?" "It's not really necessary. He beats her and she but
they make up and
later
well again.
all is
cries,
just
It's
must have been beating her with a stick or something because she was really shrieking and that's why I woke up." "But this is wrong, what right does he have to beat that tonight he
her?
It's
women
not civilized, in
this
not right.
it's
They
country.
me
sorry for the
treated
are
abused, and they have no rights, no
"Daryoush Khan, allow
I feel
cruelly,
." .
.
to get
up and make you
tea."
"But why does she put up with
do something about it?" "Don't worry about everything. After
all
he
this,
is
it?
Why
tomorrow
her husband,
doesn't she
she'll
isn't
forget
he?"
She began to get up but he stopped her, "Stay here
you
I
"Then what can
I
Safoura,
I
told
don't want tea." get you,
"Please stop calling
"But what "I can't
me Daryoush Khan."
shall I call
"I told you last time
do
Daryoush Khan?"
you?"
—
just call
that, agha,
it's
me Daryoush."
not respectful. After
all,
you are a gentleman, God protect you, an honorable gentleman, and I like to be respectful." He took her in his arms and pressed her against his body. He leaned his head against hers and thought, what if I didn't have this woman right now? What if I were still alone, walking in the streets, going to my room?
Now
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I
understand why people take their
own
He
lives.
pressed her again in his arms and repeatedly
and head, overjoyed that he was with her. Suddenly his sadness, his hopelessness seemed to have vanished, and all at once, Teheran was the most beautiful city in the world, and the Old City the most kissed her face
reassuring place, the only place to be
He drew as
in.
back his head and looked
at
her carefully,
reassessing her after the interlude of
if
She had dark-brown
drooped
days.
untrimmed eyebrows, brown and full, prominent lips that
hair,
an imperfect nose,
eyes,
many
both ends, lending her face an
slightly at
amused, or perhaps a perplexed expression. Her skin was
soft
and
light
brown
She has an unusual face that
I
look at her,
closed eyes, thick
—the color
of the Iranian soil.
this Safoura,
he thought.
Now
think her high cheekbones, half-
I
lips,
brown
skin
make her look
at
once Mongolian and primitive. Perhaps her parents or grandparents were from the villages of the north.
I
must remember to ask her about this. But it's her body that interests me in particular. She has small breasts, wide hips, large round buttocks,
—a women—
heavy thighs, heavy sembles Maillol's
legs
short, solid, earthy, light at
the top, heavy at the base.
up
peasant's body. She re-
I
love this kind. She got
began to gather the foods and dishes on the and he leaned back on the cushions contemplating her body. He stared at her heavy thighs and butquietly,
sheet,
tocks that bulged conspicuously beneath her flimsy nightdress.
come
He
sat
up suddenly and
said,
"Safoura,
here."
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"Let
."
me clear these
.
.
"Leave those things right now. "It will only take a
."
.
.
few minutes.
Aryana got up suddenly, grabbed her and carried her to the mattress. He made her lie down and began to pull
up her
dued her
dress,
again,
but she
made her
lie
sat up, resisting.
He
sub-
down and pulled up her "What are you doing,
loose nightdress to her waist.
agha?"
want
"I only
"No please, "Turn
to
." .
.
not that way."
the other way,
"I can't,
it
woman."
hurts that way."
We
"I said turn the other way.
know you've done
He "But
men tell
many
it last
time. I
times."
way and she pleaded, Ya Imam Reza, why are you
forced her body the other
hurts this way.
it
this
were
it
did
way? You are
the same.
all
different. Please don't
you,
it is
do
it
had thought you
I
this
hurting. Please, don't.
way.
Not
It hurts. I
so hard.
are so cruel, Daryoush Khan, Ah! Ah! Daryoush, life.
my
Daryoush. Daryoush. ..."
They At
You
rested side by side
length, she said, "Shall
He
I
and were get
you
silent a
long time.
tea?"
shook his head.
"Shall
I
fetch
you something
Again he shook
to eat?"
his head.
"Do you want me
to
"Stay here beside
me and rest."
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rub your back,
if
you are
tired?"
hand and kissed it several times. "Sometimes you are so cruel, Daryoush Khan. I had thought you were different, but you are like all these Iranian men. You are not different. You are even worse than these Iranian men." She kissed his hand again and said, "I mean you are so educated and refined and you alShe took
ways
tell
his
me how you
and
treated
hate the way our
women
are
one would never think you'd do
all that,
things like these other men." "I was lying here admiring your
body when you sud-
denly got up and turned around to gather these things,
and it
I
had
here,
to
it's
have you."
so fat
He
patted her and said, "I love
and round and
He rested by her,
soft."
peaceful and happy.
He
slept there
and spent all of the next day with her in that dark, quiet room. At night as she tidied up her small hut, he stretched on the mattress, waiting for beside her
all
her, thinking, is
good
night,
it is
to feel
and
Once more
I feel
Why
I
I
good
to
be here with
to touch a
connected to
this
woman.
It
woman's body again. life and to mankind.
come here sooner? When for many days am not with a woman, cannot touch a woman's body,
feel
didn't
it,
kiss
feel cut off
thought of
it,
look at
from
life
it,
just look at
and hope.
this and, in
my
it
and fondle
I feel lost. I
it,
I
should have
present circumstances, not
stayed away.
He
turned his head and stared
lovers dallying
knew
that he
under the
at
the dark-eyed
trees in the tapestries.
He
had stayed away because this woman, this woman he had ever been with
Safoura, was unlike any
121
and
The
liked.
conspicuously
wanted an with
lacking
alert,
whom
universe, a
qualities
woman,
woman who had read books, if
and the
enjoyed music,
not herself crea-
and enjoy the creative and the had traveled much and had
broad, rational view of
ness,
life
A woman who
lived in the great cities of the world,
woman
always
modern woman
a
he could probe the enigmas of
able to perceive
tive,
He had
Safoura.
in
conversable
was intellectually inquisitive, and original.
women were
he admired in
of the
Old
life
who
nourished a
and the universe. But
this
City, although not lacking in alert-
was nevertheless not conversable, not modern, not
worldly, not particularly interested to
happening in the country, much
know what was the world. She
less in
was a quiet woman, resigned to her medieval sacred superstitions,
who had seldom
and body
fears
ventured, in
or mind, out of the Old City. She seemed to have sub-
dued within herself all ambition, all drive and siveness, and this was perhaps evident in her
aggres-
accept-
ance of suffering. She lived close to her traditions, and
her roots, although withered, were deep.
Yet
now he found
woman. At
himself more and more drawn to
improbable
as-
sociation to his present circumstances, because after
all,
this
he
felt like
first
he attributed
this
an abandoned man, and she had taken
him
home, given him a place, however tempothawed him out with her indulgence and care.
into her rarily,
To
be sure,
this
had much
to
do with
that accommodating, plebeian
it
—being with
woman was
the only
good event, the only mirth, the only comfort he could 122
look forward
to,
and the anticipation of seeing her
again and being with her already
made
his life in this
city a little less unbearable, a little less dispiriting.
soon
it
was evident that quite aside from
there was something about this cient
But
his loneliness,
woman, something
and familiar and earthy which
an-
stirred the deepest
feelings in him.
When
he woke up in the morning, Safoura was
He
the street door buying provisions from a peddler.
remained on the mattress listening
at
to her voice, her
Iranian voice, and to the peddler's voice, amazed and delighted and startled, as that he was in Iran.
whispering,
is it
if
He
now
he had just
discovered
smiled and shook his head,
really true that I
am
back here, and
—
Old City and I am in a home a woman's home? It's as though I had never been anywhere else, as though I had always been here, right here, in this hut, in this room. Am I the same man, the same Darythat this
is
the
oush Aryana, who once walked in the called
New
York and London and
home
in these places, just as right
here?
Am
I
men, spoke nothing of
the same one
who
Paris,
now
just as right
and
I feel
felt at
at
home
lived with foreign wo-
different languages with
it,
streets of places
them thinking
now being with
this
woman
and speaking Iranian seems very natural? Is it all part of the same life? It all seems so disconnected and not all part of the same life and same world. It seems Safoura tiptoed into the room, and he turned his head and said, "I am awake, Safoura, you don't have to tip.
toe."
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.
.
"Your morning be pleasant. I thought you were asleep and didn't want to disturb you." "I was listening to your voice. I could hear you bargaining with the peddler."
"You
Daryoush Khan, yesterday you didn't bargain with him and overpaid, so today I had difficulty see,
with him. a
He
kept saying go and bring the agha, he
good man, he doesn't bargain, he gives
You
him.
see, just
"It's true that I I
now he
is
hate to bargain, but he didn't cheat
gave him what he asked because he
him
a
little.
ask
greedy."
erished and a few tomans will not affect
help
I
because you hate to bargain he
cheated you yesterday and
me.
me what
is
me
is
impov-
but may
These poor people are the ones who
have been cheated, not those
who have and
give a
little
more."
"You good
are good yourself, agha,
in everything.
Daryoush Khan, that
and therefore
see the
God bless you. But you forget when people like you pay more,
who are poor will have to pay more too." Aryana shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know, I don't know. Come and sit here near me." She sat down on the mattress and averting her glance said, "Did you sleep well last night?" others
"I always sleep well
when I'm with
you.
It's
and quiet here I forget everything, even lems, and sleep very well." ful
"You know, you were night."
124
so peace-
my
prob-
talking in your sleep last
He
pressed her in his arms and said,
"What was
I
saying?"
She covered her knees with her derstand what you were saying.
dress. "I didn't
un-
You were mumbling
the whole time."
mumbling?" He stared at her and frowned. "I think you are right, I think I had a dream. Yes, yes, I had a dream. Now I remember." He paused, stared at her and shook his head. "What a strange dream.
"Was
I
What a strange dream." "I
hope
it
was a good dream."
"What?" "I said "I
hope
I
dreamt
—
the bazaar
was a good dream."
was in the bazaar, or perhaps
I
wasn't
it
was an old quarter, with dark, narrow
it
as in the bazaar,
alleys,
quiet.
it
and
it
was
all
deserted and
was walking rapidly to reach a certain place, or
I
remember now what it was, but I kept losing my way. I would think I had found my way, but then suddenly realize I was in the wrong alley again and I would get worried and run and run and
find something, I don't
run.
seemed
It
I
was running the whole time, and
went around and around
in a circle,
and couldn't
I
get
Then, I think I heard some people, yes, I heard some people, perhaps they were friends, they were laughing and talking aloud in another alley, and out of
I
it.
ran to catch up with them, but
alley they weren't there,
another
alley,
and
I
and
went
I
after
when
I
got to the next
heard them again in
them
again, as
if
125
we
were
all
and seek. As own voice from afar, and
playing, what's that game, hide
was running,
I
heard
my
stopped and laughed, perhaps worriedly, then
up with my
catch
from somewhere
else. I
wondered how from my body.
think
it
but
voice,
it
I
ran to
me and issued catch my breath and
eluded
stopped to
could be that
I
I
my
voice had separated
then got worried and thought must find my voice, put it back where it belongs, or I would be a body without a voice. Curious to see if now that my voice had decided to play hide and seek with me I could still utter a sound, I opened my mouth, and was shocked to see and hear, that at all costs,
I
I
I
pouring volubly out of
my
mouth, unintelligible,
in-
coherent vapors of sound, in a language that defied
comparison with anything
have ever heard.
I
stop myself, struggled to close
my
berish oozed out of
over
my
skin,
body. Thinking
I
my
tried to
mouth, but the gib-
out of
was on
I
my
pores,
fire, I
from
all
ran and ran,
and I think once again I was chasing my voice which seemed to leap from alley to alley and I lost my way again and I don't think I remember any more." "That was quite a dream, Daryoush Khan. God willing, it was not a bad dream, there was laughter in it, your friends, running and playing hide and seek and ." let's see, what else Aryana sat up shaking his head. "That was a strange
—
.
.
dream. Didn't you understand anything
I
said in
my
sleep?"
you were mumbling and I couldn't understand you. Look, Daryoush Khan, don't think about "As
I said,
126
good dream. I know that seeing the bazaar in a dream is a good omen. One of my friends dreamt about the bazaar once, and later it
any more. God willing,
she got married. Here,
a
it is
lie
down and
rub your
I'll
back."
He
lay
his neck, I'll
down and back and
she knelt beside
legs.
fetch your breakfast
Then you
"When
I finish
and you can
can rest and
him and rubbed eat
rubbing you, it
right here.
go prepare lunch.
I'll
What
would you like to eat?" "Anything you want no wait, let me see, I may not be able to come back for lunch. I must go after my
—
identity card today."
and
said,
stay here today too.
Why
She continued rubbing told
me you would
his legs
"But you don't you
go there tomorrow?" "I better go today, Safoura, I didn't go there yester-
day and
must go today." "Turn the other way and I'll rub you." "I must go now Safoura." "Why are you suddenly in a hurry to leave? Turn the other way and let me finish rubbing you." Aryana turned the other way and she gently rubbed it is
his chest
getting late.
and
legs.
I
"You do
relaxing, so relaxing.
What
so well, Safoura.
it
It's
are you doing, Safoura?
please. Wait. Safoura. Safoura
." .
.
127
so
No
s He
stayed there
night with that ing,
all
day and spent another gratifying
woman
of the
Old
City. In the
immediately after breakfast, he
through several
left.
He
mornwalked
before reaching a thoroughfare
alleys,
and finding a taxi. He got out at the Police Headquarters and went into the main building. In the crowded hall he stopped a police officer, asked for help, and was directed to Lieutenant Azarnoush, at the end of the corridor. ridor,
He
walked
knocked and went
in.
to the last
room
in the cor-
Several officers were sitting
some working or talking with visitors, others reading the morning papers. Aryana asked for Lieutenant Azarnoush, and was directed to the end of at their desks,
the large room.
"Lieutenant Azarnoush,
may
I
speak with you a mo-
ment?"
The
lieutenant half arose from his chair and said,
"Yes, yes, agha, please
sit
down. What can
I
do for
you?"
Aryana
sat
down. "I have
lost
my
identity card
and
have gone to the Bureau of Civil Registration to apply for a
new
one.
But
it
seems, because
I
don't
know 129
the
number
my
of
my
card and have no available evidence of
Iranian origin,
must
I
first
get a written statement
from the Police Department that Iran and
was born here in
I
am Iranian."
"I have heard of people losing their identity cards,
but
I
don't think I've heard of anyone not knowing the
number possible
mean how
of his birth registration. I
—surely
is
this
you must have some document a school
driver's license,
certificate,
property
—
state-
—that has the num-
ments, something, some document
ber of your identity card." "Lieutenant,
if I
complication and
I
had a document there would be no wouldn't be here now. But I have
lived abroad since I was a
young boy and have no
Ira-
nian documents."
"What
is
your nationality, agha,
I
mean your
origi-
nal nationality?"
"What do you mean what Iranian,
what
else? I
is
my
nationality?
I
am
have already said a thousand times
that I am Iranian, I was always Iranian, born of Moslem Iranian parents." The lieutenant was silent a few moments. "Well, I am sorry to tell you that this is not an easy problem.
In
fact
it is
very
difficult. It will
take at least two, three
months before we can issue the statement you need." "Two, three months? But why? At the Bureau of Civil Registration they said that it is a simple thing and can be issued quickly."
"They have nothing sponsibility
130
and
I
am
to
do with
telling
you
it
it.
This
is
our
re-
will take that long."
"But Lieutenant, why does All you have to do
is
they can easily check
The
call
my
up
it
have to take that long?
the airport right
now and
passport.'*
lieutenant smiled and said,
"It
is
not that
Your passport may no longer be at the airport, it may now be here at the Police Department and may entail a lot of running around to locate it." "Is there anyone else here who can help me?" simple.
"I don't know," he said, shrugging his shoulders. "I
don't think so."
He
sat
up
in his chair
and turning
look at Aryana, added, "Don't misunderstand, say I can't self;
have done ins
and
A
do
I'm sure
I
it.
I
would be honored
can take care of
this sort of
outs.
But
it
to help
don't
you my-
for you, because I
know
thing before, and
as I said, I will
I
to
have to
all
the
." .
.
policeman walked to the desk, saluted, then bent
over and whispered in the lieutenant's ear. Lieutenant
Azarnoush got up
instantly, told
Aryana
to wait, then
rushed out of the room, followed by the policeman.
Aryana
sat heavily,
weighed down with disappoint-
ment. For although his determination to leave the country had receded during the two days he had reveled with Safoura in her retreat,
shortly
after
he
emerged into the open the old restlessness took hold of him, and each collision with the surrounding world deepened his impatience to get out. He got up and walked to the front of the room, then back. He walked back and forth several times, turning to look at the
out.
One
door each time someone came in or went
of the officers in front of the
room motioned 131
to
him with
head and
his
Aryana went
"Can I help you, agha?" desk and said, "I am wait-
said,
closer to his
ing for Lieutenant Azarnoush. difficult to get a certificate
stating that
is
am
if it
is
from the Police Department
an Iranian?"
you are Iranian
"If
"I
one
Do you know
isn't difficult at all."
it
Iranian and was born here in Teheran, but
Lieutenant Azarnoush says
it is
difficult to
obtain this
statement and will take at least two, three months."
The want "It's
officer stared at
to say anything,"
not
Aryana and smiled. "I don't he
said, raising his
eyebrows.
my business."
"I don't understand
why
the lieutenant says
it
will
take so long."
The
smiled again and muttered, "You say you
officer
are Iranian but
way business "I've
is
been
it
seems you are not familiar with the
handled here." ."
.
.
He motioned
to
Aryana
to
come
closer,
then whis-
you what you must do, but let it stay us. I'm telling you this only because you seem a complete stranger here. Give the lieutenant something and he'll take care of you." Aryana stared at him questioningly. "I don't think I pered,
"I'll tell
between
understand what you mean.
What
is
it
I
should give
him?" "Ey, as
want,
much
as
you
like
—
thirty or forty or,
fifty."
"You mean
The 132
officer
I
should give him money?"
nodded.
if
you
Aryana stared
at
him, his eyebrows meeting. "But
why should I give him money? give him anything."
I
don't see
why
I
should
"So he will take care of your work."
"But then
why
"It's a
duty to take care of
his
it's
this
work.
mean,
I
he here?"
is
gesture of appreciation, and your
work
will
be taken care of more promptly."
"But
this
is
statement that to
do
ridiculous I
am
that, I
am
—
I
have to bribe him to get a
Iranian. Look, agha,
not asking a favor.
don't have to bribe anyone to prove
"Shh! Not so loud, agha. this
Do
am
I
I
Iranian and
it."
you want,
as
don't have
I told
you
only to be of help."
"Yes,
I
understand,
I
understand," Aryana
ing not to raise his voice.
thing like that. officer,
pride,
he
some
It's
"It's just that I can't
not right.
I
mean
a lieutenant, surely he
is
self-respect,
and
if I
will certainly feel offended, take
throw the money
at
said, striv-
this
man
is
an
must have some
try to bribe it
do a
as
him, he
an affront and
my face. I am sure you've made a am sure, because after all, this is
mistake, Mr. Officer, I plainly nothing
more than
bribery, cheap dirty brib-
ery."
"Watch your tongue, are saying,
you
is
you are being abusive.
not cheap, dirty bribery.
many people country do
am
it,
know what you What I suggested to
agha, you don't
It is
something that
some very fine people here in our and no one questions them. Of course, I
do,
aware there are also people here who don't believe 133
in giving or in taking, that
know very
is
their business.
that Lieutenant Azarnoush,
upright
fine,
officer,
is
who by
But
way
the
I
is
a
always grateful for such
kindnesses."
"Well,
if
he
is
work only
ple's
the sort of
if
official
who
attends to peo-
you give him money a
cote, I
would
rather go to one of the other officers." "Fine, agha, fine, go to any of the other officers in
Only
the back.
me
let
tell
you
that with this attitude
you won't get anywhere." Aryana walked
room, lingered by
to the front of the
the door, angry, dejected, unsure what to do.
opened the door and went into the can
else
go about
I
ing at the
and
that.
the
filth
it isn't
and
officers
Perhaps
now and
right
this,
I
hurried this way
in that back room. It
in that back
If I
who
should go and report
room
the other rooms, what
him.
civilians
He
if
only,
what
Where
to himself, look-
find a senior officer, tell
and mess
take bribes?
he muttered
corridor.
He
this. I'll
go
him about
all
is
my—what
if it is
if
the same in
the senior officers themselves
stopped abruptly and stared around
could only get out of here.
If I
could only get
out of this country.
He see
began
now?
I
to
walk again, thinking, who can
I
go and
can't go back into that room. I just can't
bring myself to yield to such greedy pressures. Perhaps I
am
I
were
I
would do what the others do and think nothing
not entitled to this statement after really Iranian, I
134
all,
because
wouldn't be sensitive to
if
all this,
of
it.
It's
just that I've never
ing. Please
come
—"I am sorry
kept you wait-
I
into the room."
Aryana stared
at
Lieutenant Azarnoush.
"Why did you tell me it will "I am sorry, I can't stand
take two, three months?"
discuss this. It
room and we
is
stonily
not proper. Please come back into the
will talk
about
Aryana hesitated, then back to the room. "Please were we,
here in the corridor and
it."
slowly, reluctantly
down.
sit
remember, you've
yes, I
walked
where
Let's see,
lost
your identity
card and need proof that you are Iranian. Well, as told you, this
"Why do it is
and
easy,
is
not easy. In
you say I,
fact, it is
it is difficult,
myself,
know
that
very difficult."
when everyone it is
says
easy."
"You've been misinformed, Mr. Aryana. easy because
I
It is
not
you have no evidence that you are
Ira-
nian."
"But
I
told
you about
my
passport and
have with
I
me two letters of introduction." "All this will take time to check, and as if I
weren't so busy right
now I
"Look Lieutenant, what
could
.
told you,
.
must do statement from the Police Department?"
"What
I
."
is it I
to get this
supplication can I make? I've given you
all
facts, it's up to you what you want to do." As the lieutenant pored over the papers on his desk, Aryana slowly drew out his wallet, removed thirty
the
tomans. if
he
What
if
this
feels offended,
is
makes a scene here
of attempting to bribe
What and accuses me
not enough, he thought.
him?
He
glanced at the lieuten135
ant from the corners of his eyes, removed another ten
tomans from
What
did
must be very
shall
I
word
now?
it
that attendant at Sepenta's door the
other day? But this I
How
his wallet.
I tell
is
not a doorman, this
—involuntarily
his
is
an
officer,
hand went out and
deposited the forty tomans on the lieutenant's desk.
The
head shot up
lieutenant's
he
as
"What
said,
is this,
agha?"
"This
is
just
—please
"You embarrass me,
He
your kindness."
." .
.
am
agha. I
discountenanced by
quietly put the
drawer. "This was really not necessary,
your service anyway.
I
am
money I
am
in
his
always at
your servant, what can
I
do
for you?"
"As
I
you
told
I
need a statement from the Police
."
Department "This is a very simple matter, I'll be honored to help you. Here is a sheet of paper and you can use this pen; .
.
write
down simply
Police
Department
ality.
you would
that
certificate of
Just write this and
I'll
like to request a
your Iranian nation-
take care of the rest for
you."
Aryana wrote what the lieutenant had told him and handed over the paper. "You have an interesting handwriting," Lieutenant Azarnoush said. "I see that two,
three words here have been misspelled, probably be-
cause you wrote this in a hurry. I'll
correct
them
for you,
arouse any doubts."
He
and returned the paper 136
it
With your permission
will look better
and not
corrected the misspelled words to
Aryana. "Please sign
it
here
and here and here." Aryana signed was
told,
his application as
then the lieutenant signed
that's necessary.
Now
"This
it.
he all
is
just take this to His Excellency
Major Heermand, have him approve it, then bring it right back to me and I'll have the statement ready for you in one day." Aryana went into the corridor, crossed the crowded and was guided by a policeman to Major Heermand's room. Three officers sitting at large desks were chatting, and when Aryana entered the room, they hall
turned their heads to look
at
him, then continued chat-
Aryana approached the nearest desk and asked for Major Heermand. "Yes, agha, I am Major Heermand."
ting.
"I have this application for a Police
statement about
my
Azarnoush has signed it
Department
Iranian nationality; Lieutenant it
and has instructed me
to bring
here for your signature."
"Come back tomorrow."
am
"I
look into
in a hurry, Major; I will it
be grateful
if
you
now."
"I said tomorrow, agha."
"But
I
can't
keep running after
this
every day."
am sorry, I am very busy right now."
"I
"It just requires
your signature."
"I have very important
work
to attend to.
Come
back another day."
Aryana placed
his application
on the
of the Major. "If you'll only look at
that -
it is
As
the
a very brief application
Major glanced
—
it
desk, in front
Major, you'll see
just
two sentences."
at the application,
he shook 137
his
head and
out of the question,
said, "It's
have the time to do anything about
—what
is
I
don't
this
name
here?"
my signature,
"That's
Daryoush Aryana."
"Are you Aryana?" "Yes,
my name is Aryana."
"Tell me, are you related Abdullah Aryana?"
"Abdullah Aryana?
"He
in a
is
"Why
suddenly. Please
sit
—what was
never ..."
related to
don't you
my sit
He
wife."
stood
up
down, Mr. Aryana?
up your time." not taking up my time. I was
want
are
to take
here chatting with
my
waited for Aryana to
colleagues. Please
sit
sit
down, then he too
think he was the great-granduncle of I
name
his
down."
"I don't
"You
way
I've
to
my
down."
sat
He
down. "I
wife's cousin.
understand he was a remarkable man.
father was also a remarkable
just sitting
My
wife's
man. Hajj Hussein Ali
Abbassi was his name, I'm sure you have heard of him.
He had character, he had dignity, integrity. You don't find men like that any more. Those days are gone. They are gone." He lowered his voice to a whisper. "Who are these men we see all around us nowadays? They
are of
no use
to
anybody, they are not worth the
skin of an onion."
The major nisced, "I
sat
back in his chair smiling
remember
—may they both
this
rest in
he remi-
Hajj Abbassi and his partner
peace
—they always argued and
accused each other of cheating.
138
as
It
seemed
as
though
backgammon, and imhonesty. But of course, they were
they always argued, even over
pugned each
other's
both unimpeachably honest. honest. Yes, I
ent
.
.
The
am
sure.
Men
am
I
they were
sure
were
in those days
differ-
."
other two
and began to gather application Aryana said,
officers arose
their papers. Indicating his
"This only requires your signature
"Dear Mr. Doctor, don't worry attend to
it
myself,
it
will
." .
.
about
at all
this. I'll
you want and chat and I'll also
be a privilege.
If
come back tomorrow, we will sit wait a minute, I just remembered, tomorrow is the birthday of the eighth Imam." "You mean the office will be closed?'' "Of course, of course. Please come back the day after
—
tomorrow."
He went there
is
away, disheartened and confused.
an insidious scheme to keep
these people are all
from leaving? his suspicion.
me
here?
working hand in hand
to
What if What if stop me
He shook his head and tried to dislodge He told himself that the frustration of
not being able to extricate himself had probably infected his mind, inclining
him
to these
unhealthy sup-
positions.
Two
days later he went back to the Police Depart-
ment. Major Heermand jumped up and extended his hand, "Salaam, salaam. privilege of seeing
Mr. Doctor. There
I
am
you again. is
much
I
overjoyed to have the I
beg you to
can learn in
sit
down
this audi-
ence."
139
"Major, "I
am
am
not a doctor," Aryana interposed.
You know, I told my wife about had the other day to meet you. I told her, Mr. Engineer Aryana, who is a very refined and very sorry.
the honor I said,
I
I
learned gentleman, and related to Abdullah Aryana,
gave
me
pleased.
the honor of a
One
visit.
She was very, very
you must grace our humble
of these days
hut and share a morsel or two with us." "I
would
like that,
will be a pleasure."
it
out the application from his pocket and
remember,
mentioned
I
application needs your
to
you
last
He
brought
said, "If
time that
you this
signature ..."
What
"Yes, yes, of course.
is
it
about, Mr. Engi-
neer?"
Aryana told him about efforts to
obtain a
tively before
new
one.
his identity card
The major
and
his
listened atten-
reading the brief application. "This
is
You don't need evidence from the Police Department. Of course you are Iranian. What are you,
laughable.
if
not Iranian?" told them this too. But it is no no evidence that I am Iranian statement from the Police Department
"I have protested use.
They
and must have
a
before they issue a
"They quired
and
said there
is
new
identity card."
you shouldn't be reDepartment statement." have this application now and
are out of their minds,
to obtain a Police
"Well, anyway,
I
Lieutenant Azarnoush has promised that just as
you sign and approve 140
it
as
he will take care of the
soon rest."
"I
must sign and approve
the major retorted,
it?"
staring at the application.
what he
"Yes, that's
He
said.
said that
it's
a simple
thing and he can take care of the rest himself." "Yes,
approve
it?
but why must
a simple matter,
it is
I
Don't misunderstand, Mr. Aryana,
absolutely no objection to
But you
this, I
and
sign I
have
have no objection
at
you the truth, it's not easy for me to approve it. I must have orders from above." "But Lieutenant Azarnoush said that your approval all.
see, to tell
will suffice."
The major thought a moment, shifted and said, "The lieutenant is mistaken. It's of
his position,
better
if
one
my superiors first approved it." "But
this
is
just a statement
tionality, I don't see
"Well, if I first
ties
it's
why you
not that
I
can't
have orders. As soon
approves
it,
I
about
can't
myself will
I'll
it."
it, it's
just better
one of the high authori-
jump
into the arena for
you, swing into action and take care of
now
Iranian na-
approve
approve as
my
it.
In
fact,
right
arrange for you to meet Colonel Bourmand,
one word from him and the whole thing will be taken care of within two minutes."
He
an attendant came
"I
agha upstairs to see
rang a bell and when
want you to take this His Excellency Mr. Doctor Colonel in, said,
Bourmand."
141
9 Aryana followed the attendant upstairs and entered a small room. A young officer standing behind a table nodded and said, "Mr. Engineer Aryana?" Aryana nodded and the young officer said, "Please sit down. Excellency Major
Heermand
just called
me
you
to say
were coming."
Aryana
sat
down and waited. He waited about
fifteen
minutes, then began to consider going downstairs to see
Lieutenant Azarnoush
when
the door opened and an
came in. He went to the table and whispered to the young officer, "Watch for a Mr. Aryana who will come up here. He is the son of the uncle of the cousin of Major Heermand's wife make sure his request is officer
—
fulfilled
immediately."
Indicating Aryana with a slight motion of his head, the
He and
young is
officer
whispered, "That's Mr. Aryana there.
waiting to see the colonel.
see
if I
can arrange to have
I will
him
go right away
see the colonel
right now."
He opened When,
after
and went into an adjacent room. a few minutes, he came back, he said, "Mr. a door
Aryana, there are several people in the next room
who
143
have been waiting two, three hours to see the colonel."
Winking and
smiling, he whispered,
"But
I've
maneu-
vered things so you can go in there before them."
"But I
if
they've been waiting longer,
not fair that
it's
go in before them."
"Don't worry, don't worry. Let them wait. They probably have nothing important anyway." the door and motioned to Aryana to go officers
and
civilians,
were
sitting hat in
He opened
Several men,
in.
hand, waiting
and they all looked up when Aryana came in. The young officer crossed the room, opened another door and motioned to Aryana to go in. The colonel, a tall, bald man, was sitting behind a to see the colonel,
large, well-polished desk, talking
with two
visitors.
He
when Aryana came in, and extended his hand. "I am delighted," he mumbled as they shook hands, "What can I do for you?"
half arose
Aryana brought out
his application
set it
Heermand
desk in front of the colonel. "Major to bring this application here for
and
on the
told
me
your signature and
approval."
The
colonel glanced at the application and shook his
head. "I don't understand self didn't
easily
approve your application.
approved
"He "He "I'll
He
could have
it."
had to have orders." didn't need orders from anyone." be grateful if you sign and approve said he
"Fine, leave
it
here,
"Won't you approve 144
why Major Heermand him-
I'll it
approve
right
it
this."
for you."
now?"
"I can't right now, as
But
I
will take care of
it
you
see I
am
very busy today.
for you, so don't worry."
"Then when shall I come back for it?" "Come back in three, four, five days." "Three, four,
"Look agha,
five days?
But
that's
you
I've given
my
very late."
promise to approve
Now
you have nothing more to worry about. Just be a little patient, after all you can't do
your paper.
things overnight."
"Very well then,
I'll
come back on Monday."
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday." "I'll come on Monday." "Come on Tuesday, to be sure." "I'll come on Tuesday, at eight o'clock." "Yes,
"Come "Then
at ten o'clock; ten, eleven, I'll
twelve o'clock."
be here on Tuesday
at exactly eleven
o'clock."
On
Tuesday, promptly
at eleven o'clock,
Aryana was
at the colonel's waiting-room.
He
expecting to be called, then
patience and asked the
officer
on duty
lost
sat a
few minutes
had arrived young officer The
to tell the colonel that he
for his eleven o'clock appointment.
went into the colonel's room and was back hardly a minute later. "His Excellency the Colonel said that he you now." "But I have an eleven o'clock appointment with him."
can't see
"His Excellency the Colonel said that he today,
and commanded me
to tell
you
to
is
very busy
come back one
day next week." 145
"Next week? What are you talking about? I can't come back next week. I have waited several days for this appointment. He said he would have my application ready today.
The
Where
officer stared at
my application?"
is
Aryana and shrugged
his shoul-
ders.
"Look, you must go back and
him
tell
him
must
I
see
right away/'
"Agha,
I
can't
keep disturbing him. There are guests
now.
in there right
He
wants you to come back next
week."
"No, no, right
I
won't wait any longer.
now and
there to
The
tell
get
him,
my
I'll
application. If
must
I
see
him
you don't go
in
go in there myself."
officer hesitated,
then slowly turned around and
went into the colonel's room. When, after a few minutes, he came back, he said, "His Excellency the Colonel will see you here tomorrow at exactly twelve o'clock noon."
The
next day, a few minutes before noon, Aryana
arrived at Colonel Bourmand's waiting room.
Only two
other men, embroiled in impenetrable whispers, were in the
room. Aryana
adjutant came o'clock
sat
down, and when the young
in, said that
he was present for his twelve
appointment with the colonel. "Yes, agha, I yesterday. The colonel has gone
remember you from out, but will be
back shortly."
He
Aryana remained seated and waited. minutes, ten minutes, twenty minutes.
.
.
.
waited
One
has to
wait and wait and wait in this country, he thought.
146
five
.
.
.
Thirty minutes, forty minutes.
.
.
.
He
got
paced the room, back and forth, back and
and .
.
.
forth.
This
.
is
.
.
An
incredible, this
is
back
degoutant, no one would
make appointments and
up, they just don't show up.
two hours, closing time. this officer?
forth,
hour, an hour and fifteen minutes.
believe this, people
is
up and
Where
is
.
.
.
.
.
.
don't show
An hour and
Where
is
this bastard?
this
a half,
man? Where
Overflowing with
anger and frustration he stormed out of the waiting
room and slammed
the door behind him. If I succeed
in getting out of this country,
back.
The thought
I'll
never, never
that he was trapped
come
and could
him and he felt long running down his back.
not get out suddenly seized streams of perspiration
He went
downstairs, walked back and forth in the
crowded corridor, wondering what
to do.
He
thought
Kourosh Firouzan, and quickly decided to go after him and ask for his help. He hurried back to the large central hall, and was leaving the building when he heard someone calling his name. He stopped, turned around and saw Major Heermand walking toward him. 'Salaam, Mr. Engineer," he said of his only friend,
'
saluting.
Aryana nodded, but remained sullen and grave. Holding Aryana's arm, the Major said, "My dear Aryana, on the life of my children, I swear I am very, very ashamed that I have not fulfilled your command. I
understand Colonel Bourmand has not been able to
you yet. I have been thinking about your application and have come up with a quick plan, a short cut
see
147
your identity card. Major Andriman, a
for obtaining
mine and
colleague of
a very
good
friend,
is
the
nephew
of His Excellency General Andriman who, as you
know,
the Minister of
is
politics. I've
and
told
and identity
word
—
just
in
card,
us. I
and he has promised
needn't
one word at all
tell
you,
my
to
have his
friend, that
one
—from the general and you won't about a Police Department
state-
or even have to run after the people at the
Bureau be
man
of this business about your nationality
have to worry
ment
influential
already spoken with the major about you
him
uncle help
War and an
of Civil Registration.
Your
good as obtained." Aryana stared at him and shook
identity card will
as
know what
to say. I
have wasted so
now
his head. "I don't
much
time running
." know Major Heermand took hold of Aryana's arm again and gently pushing him forward, said, "Come now, don't be angry. You are just not familiar with the way things are handled here. If we hurry now, the major may still be in his office." They hurried through the corridor, and entered the
after false promises that
office
I
just don't
next to Major Heermand's room.
.
An
.
officer
was
on his desk and seeing Major Heermand, saluted and smiled. Major Heermand made the introductions, tilting his head to one side, then to the other, "Excellency Mr. Engineer Aryana. Excellency Major Andriman. Mr. Engineer is a very, very learned gentleman, speaks many, many languages and has been all over the world. Major Andri-
hastily gathering the papers
148
man
is
one of the most capable
He is one am honored, I am
Department. "I
said as
honored," Major Andriman
he shook hands with Aryana. "I
whelmed with your condescension, beg you to
They said,
please
am
sit
over-
down.
I
down." remained standing and Major Heermand
sit
all
"Mr. Engineer
the agha I told
is
"Yes, yes, I realized that. It
your acquaintance.
mand
the Police
officers in
of the ..."
has told
My
is
you about."
a privilege to
make
venerable friend Major Heer-
me much
about you. Of course,
a very inconsequential officer here, but
I
am
be honored
I'll
my
whatever service you command.
I
am
uncle will be very pleased to help. In fact
I
was rushing
to render
out
now
to see him. If
you are
free,
sure
perhaps we can go
together."
Major Andriman and Aryana hurried through the corridor and went out of the building. They called a taxi, told the driver to rush and settled back in their seats. Major Andriman stared out of the window, but more than once turned his head to say something, thought better of it, and turned his head again to stare out of the window. He was a tall, dark man, with a becoming mustache, and uncommonly attractive in his uniform. But watching him, one had the impression that he was not comfortable in his uniform, and he appeared more embarrassed than proud. Unlike most of his fellow officers safety of their
man
who seldom ventured
uniforms even
at
out of the
home, Major Andri-
preferred civilian clothes, and wore his uniform
149
only at work. "I understand you were in America and
Europe," he said
flatly,
almost resentfully.
Aryana muttered an affirmative reply. "Did you enjoy your stay abroad?" "Yes,
." I
.
.
Major whispered. "Sometimes I want to pack up whatever I have and go far away, just go away from here. Then, there are times "Let
when for
I tell
me,
seat
stay
it
this
between
us,"
myself that this is
my
is,
fatherland."
the
after
He
all,
the best place
sank deeper in his
and looking up at Aryana, said, "What do you I should do, Mr. Engineer? Do you think I'll be
think
happy if I go abroad? To tell you the want to betray anyone here, but it's just thinking recently that
My to
father
if I
truth, I don't
that I've
been
lived abroad I'd be happier.
and grandfather were
also officers
and rose
high ranks and they never thought of leaving their
country and uniform. But
I
always say that times have
changed and things aren't quite the same. Don't you agree that that
times
have changed?
Don't you
agree
." .
.
"Yes, everything changes ..."
"Of course they change, of course they change. That's what I always say. I am glad you think this way too. There are people who think that if you leave your country and live abroad you are betraying someone or something. But that's stupid, isn't it? To tell you the truth, I myself thought this way too, but it's stupid to think this way. As you said, everything changes. When our parents and grandparents lived, everything was 150
from the moment he was the moment he died, was laid down. Isn't that
different. Everyone's place,
born
to
right?"
"Yes, everyone's place in life was clearly defined,
everyone knew where he was going, even after death." ''Exactly, exactly.
The Ruler
lieved that his position
it
stayed rich, or grew a a
little richer,
businessman and
we
as
was be-
was God's
it
he rule and that his subjects obey.
will that
mained
ruled and
was absolute, that
The
rich
the businessman reall
remember when
he died his sons automatically took over the business.
Women
had
their fixed places, servants
ants, beggars
remained beggars, and
am
their villages. Isn't that right? I
were happy with their
lot,
but
remained
serv-
villagers stayed in
not saying that they at least
knew
they
where they were and somehow accepted their lot. Don't you agree? Everything was kismet and that was that. But now things are changing. People are beginning to move, they no longer accept any
my to
friends,
move
everyone
is
life.
ica,
"My
quote one of
beginning to push, they want
up, they want to
move
out."
visibly pleased with the conversation,
Aryana.
To
He
sat
moved
up and, closer to
son dreams of going to college in Amer-
my daughter is already
talking of singing lessons in
Rome, my wife would like us all to move back to her native village in Mazenderan and as for me, well, I am ." confused. Sometimes I want to The taxi stopped at a gate on the old Shemiran Road. As they alighted from the car, Aryana began to .
.
pay, but the major quickly seized his hand, at the
same
151
time furiously digging into his
Mr. Engineer,
please,
I
won't
own
pockets. "Please,
you pay.
let
It's
out of
the question."
"The money
is
here in
my hand
"Absolutely not. Absolutely not "It's
me
"But
to pay.
it's
"Still, I it's
honor.
here
is
.
.
."
you pay," the major shouted,
ging in his pockets.
dren,
.
ready here."
"I won't let
Allow
." .
I'll
find
dig-
out of the question. Please. in a
it
minute
." .
.
only two tomans."
won't
let
you pay.
impossible. I beg
I'll
find
it
the money."
152
"It's
still
On
you
in a minute.
the
life
to give
Here
it
of
me is,
my
chil-
this small
here
it
is,
10 Major Andriman pushed the gate and begged Aryana to enter first. They walked through a large garden where many private and official limousines were parked, their black-suited chauffeurs gathered in small
Three or four of bowed and salaamed when they saw
groups, talking.
couple of servants
way
who had been
these chauffeurs
the major;
and
standing by the
in front of the house rushed forward,
one of them reported that the guests had
a
stair-
bowed, and all
arrived
and the conference had begun.
About
forty or fifty political figures
ministers, ex-ministers, erals,
members
and other high ranking
the vast, elegant living room.
—government
of parliament, gen-
officials
were gathered in
They were
all sitting
on
ornate couches and easy armchairs, and the small coffee tables in front of
them were covered with
tall glasses
of
sharbat, glasses of tea ensconced in filigreed silver holders,
and
cacies.
crystal jars rich
An
carpets,
with a variety of nuts and
deli-
old servant, walking lightly on the thick
went back and
forth, serving tea, fruits,
and
lighting cigarettes.
-Major Andriman tiptoed into the living room, and a 153
few minutes
later
came back
into the hall
and
told
Aryana that the dignitaries were in conference and that they would have to wait till the meeting was over to speak with General Andriman, the Minister of War. The major said that he didn't think the meeting would take long, because the dignitaries had not had lunch,
and
them had other important conferences to in the afternoon. Aryana sat down and the
several of
attend early
major, after talking in whispers with two
men who were
standing in the hall not far away, slowly opened one of the side doors to the living room, and quietly tiptoed in again.
Aryana was sipping
tea
when, a few minutes
later,
he suddenly turned his head and saw Major Andriman
beckoning
to
living room.
him from the partially opened door of the Aryana got up, quietly went to the door,
and the major, placing
a forefinger over his pursed lips,
him to be quiet, opened the door a little wider and let him in. They stood in a narrow alcove, hidden from the living room by thick curtains that covindicated to
ered
all
the doorways. "Instead of sitting in the hall,"
the major whispered in Aryana's ear, "I thought
might find
it
more
interesting to stand here. That's
you
my
uncle there, the general sitting beneath the huge painting at the other end of the room.
Aryana nodded
as
him?"
see
he looked through one of the thin
partings in the curtains.
The man on
Do you
his right
"He
—do you
is
War. fat and
the Minister of
see
bald, well, not that one, the next
him?
—he
is
one has a mustache,
not that one either, but the next one, that's Ara, the 154
Great Leader's right-hand man. This it is
he
who
his
is
house and
has called this emergency meeting."
They
both peered through the parting and watched the gentlemen in conference. "That agha
now
is
Afrashteh.
He
released last month.
who
is
talking right
spent a year in prison and was
They say he will soon be appointed
Prime Minister."
"Who
that
is
one
sitting alone
on the couch?" Ary-
ana whispered. "That's His Highness Prince Alvand, the Leader of Leaders' younger brother. His Highness to the Great
Leader on
is
very close
Leader and usually accompanies the Great
official visits
abroad."
"Yes, yes, I read about a recent trip.
They had gone
abroad to borrow money for the government, but
it
seems the Leader's wife attended receptions given in their honor, laden with fabulous jewelry valued at
sum they had come to borrow." "Shh!" Major Andriman put his finger to his lips. "You must be very, very careful, Mr. Engineer. They
more than
the
don't like people to discuss such things." "I
am
not discussing
it.
I
read this in foreign papers
when I was abroad recently." "That agha who is now whispering
to
Faraz, the present Minister of Finance.
my
uncle
They
is
say he
may be arrested soon and put in prison." "What has he done?" "This agha who just arose and is now crossing the room is Doctor Barbod, Iran's top chest surgeon. He is "Minister
of Roads,
but they say he wants to be Prime 155
—
when he was that's Ara speaking what he has to say."
Minister. Last year, right now,
let's see
"... again, and Ara, a short
frail
we
are all very, very honored," Mr.
man, was
Highness
saying, "that His
Prince Alvand has condescended to grace this gathering
Our Great
of his servants with his exalted footsteps.
Leader of Leaders, ever sympathetic aspirations of his people, has
needs and
to the
commanded me
to invite
the venerable gentlemen to this conference to attend to
some
Again
very, very pressing matters.
I
must beg
forgiveness for having deranged the venerable gentle-
men
at this
uncomfortable hour, but Your Excellencies
now
are all aware of the grave problems
country.
facing our
Troublemakers, communists, impolite
stu-
dents and other misguided elements are generating unrest,
shouting slogans in the
defying even our
streets,
Sacred Leader, circulating pamphlets, making
all sorts
and charging the government with corruption and tyranny. Of course, all the good and decent people of our beloved country are deeply shocked at these agitations, these uncouth violations of rules and
of threats,
conventions.
We know that the charges against the gov-
ernment are
all false.
The government
is
neither cor-
rupt nor tyrannical. All the honest and decent and
hardworking people in are
all
this
country
know
this.
They
completely devoted to their Great Leader of
Leaders and there
is
nothing to fear
." .
.
"That's right, that's right," one of the gentlemen interposed. "All the decent people are behind our
Sublime Leader of Leaders. There 156
is
nothing to fear."
"That's right," Mr. Ara continued, "There
is
noth-
ing to fear. Nevertheless, the Great Leader, always seek-
ing to please
all his
people and help them progress, has
once again decided to take some very bold, progressive
which
steps,
will
once more win the everlasting
tude of our people, and the praise of people the world. First of
all,
he
is
determined
grati-
all
over
to obliterate
corruption. Already two policemen have been arrested in
charges of corruption, and in a day or
Kerman on
two, they will be sentenced to
life
imprisonment, or
may even be executed, to show the government's good faith. Our Great Leader will discuss this in his speech Meeting tomorrow.
at the People's
"He
will also proclaim to the people his determina-
tion to bring a real
democracy to our country. But
today, in the presence of His Highness the Prince, the
me
Great Leader of Leaders commanded
to confer
immediately with Your Excellencies, and try as possible to establish a real
He
democracy.
as
quickly
has already
spoken with several of the venerable gentlemen about this,
and has
said that
one-party system.
It is
he
is
very displeased with this
not democratic.
It
does not allow
opportunities for opposition to the government.
now determined to have system, and has commanded us
Great Leader democratic ately
form two
countries.
party
is
One
political parties, as in all
party will be in
—the other party
already
summoned His
will
power
Our
a just and to
immedi-
democratic
—the majority
be the opposition.
He
has
Excellency Mr. Doctor Kiana 157
and ordered him
to
head the opposition party. In a few
minutes, His Excellency Mr. Doctor Kiana will read
names
the
of the venerable gentlemen
appointed to
who
who have been
Those gentlemen
this opposition party.
are not present here will be notified later
me
"Excellency Mr. Ara, please forgive
rupting Your Excellency, but
." .
.
for inter-
."
I
.
.
"Please, please, I beg you." ".
want
I
.
.
understand
to say that I
understand
opposition party.
this
fault,
that
or in any
I
—thank you,
way
Of
object,
but
—
I just
have been appointed to
want
to find
like to
submit
course, I don't I
would
have never belonged to any group or party op-
posing a government, and to feel
I
thank you
tell
you the
comfortable in such a party.
patriotic,
I
and an obedient servant
truth,
I
don't
have always been of
our Sublime
Leader of Leaders. Besides, the honorable ministers are
my
all
friends, I feel
would be very
no hatred or enmity
grateful
if I
for them. I
could be transferred to the
other party."
"Excellency Mr. Mehravan," Mr. Ara his
head
everyone
to the is
said,
bowing
gentleman he was addressing, "I think
well aware of your patriotism and the in-
valuable services you have rendered our Great Leader
and the country. The Leader himself is aware of your unflinching loyalty and faithfulness and feels that you can be most effective in the opposition party. Of course, in a few months we can make changes, and if, at that time, Your Excellency and other members of the oppo158
sition
would
there will be
like to serve in the other party, I
am
sure
no objection."
Mr. Mehravan nodded and
sat
back in his armchair.
"As the venerable gentlemen know, in democratic countries the Prime Minister is head of the incumbent party. ica
Our
dear Prime Minister has just
left for
Amer-
to borrow money for the government; we will send
His Excellency a telegram and ask him to stay there
and rest a little. Of course, this is strictly confidential and must not be disclosed until, at least, tomorrow noon. At the beginning of this session one of the venerable gentlemen proposed His Excellency Mr. Afrash-
new Prime been suggested. Of teh as
Minister.
Another name has
also
course, I will bring all this to the
morn-
attention of the Great Leader. Meanwhile, this
summoned His ExShadan and made him Prime Minister." "Bah bah, congratulations," one of the gentlemen
ing the Great Leader of Leaders cellency Mr.
exclaimed, nodding in approval.
"This "Yes,
is
a very wise appointment."
it is
a very, very wise appointment.
Leader has once again demonstrated
his
Our Great
unique wis-
dom."
"No one
can deny that His Exalted Excellency Mr.
Shadan deserved this
this
honor.
I
don't think anyone in
country can claim to have been more
obedient to our Sublime Leader. Excellency right now,
Where
we would
is
loyal,
more
His Exalted
like to congratulate
him?" 159
"I think he
"But
plied.
gency meetings
ment
will
at the baths right
is
am
I
Of
this afternoon.
remain
now," Mr. Ara
re-
sure he will attend the other emercourse, this appoint-
strictly confidential until
The Great Leader
has also
commanded me
tomorrow. to
inform
the gentlemen that there will be only one other change in the cabinet.
The
Minister of Justice will be
placed. In view of Mr. Manoushan's services
and
re-
loy-
alty, his
brother, Mr. Engineer Manoushan, will be
new
Minister of Justice. All the other Honorable
the
Ministers will retain their posts.
more
on behalf
of your time;
I
will not take
of the
up any
Prime Minister
I
will read the
names
party, then
His Excellency Dr. Kiana will read the
names
of the
gentlemen in the incumbent
of the
members
of his opposition party.
our Great Leader commanded
form the gentlemen that
if
me
this
from time
Oh
morning
to time, the op-
position party expresses criticism in parliament,
bers of the other party
must
yes,
to in-
try not to feel
mem-
hurt or take
the criticism as personal affront."
"Of course not," General Andriman, the Minister of War, said. "We are all servants of the Great Leader and are working for the same cause." "That's right, that's right."
"Excellency Mr. Ara, ports about the exact will start, can
"The
you
tell
I
have heard conflicting
hour tomorrow's mass meeting us the ..."
tomorrow will start at maybe three-thirty. But
People's Mass Meeting
—
exactly three o'clock sharp
160
re-
or
because of the hordes of people
hear their Sacred Leader
I
cies arrive early, preferably
Mr. Ara then turned
who
will rush there to
suggest that
Your Excellen-
before three."
bowed
to the Prince,
his
head
"Your Highness, with your permission, I will now read the names of the incumbent party members." Major Andriman nudged Aryana, whispered, "Come, let's go into the hall. The conference will end in a minute and they will all dash out." In the hall, many people were now gathered, some standing, some sitting, all talking in whispers, waiting for the conference to end. Servants hurried back and forth, serving tea and refreshments. As the major and Aryana quietly left the living room and entered the hall, a short, middle-aged man rushed forward and whispered, "Cyrus, what's happening in there?" "To tell you the truth," Major Andriman muttered, and
said,
"nothing
is
happening.
"I understand
we
The
usual things."
will have
many
political parties
again."
"Two parties," Major Andriman whispered. "Two parties?" the man repeated, frowning. country
we
parties.
When
are
no
"In
this
no parties at all or five hundred the Leader rules with an iron fist there
either have
parties,
when
the iron rule loosens temporarily,
everybody forms a party."
The major stared at him and nodded. "Will there be any changes in the government?" the
man whispered. 161
''Let
it
stay
between you and me, Shadan has been
ordered to be Prime Minister/' "Really? Really? Shadan?" "Yes, let
"Of
it
stay
between
major whispered.
us," the
man
and turning around, called his friend who was standing behind him. "Shadan is the new Prime Minister," he whispered. course, of course," the
said,
"Shadan? Really?" "Yes, let there. It
is
it
stay
between
us.
Cyrus just heard
it
in
in strict confidence."
"Of course, of course. Let me tell Anoush." Major Andriman turned to Aryana and said, "My friend, wait here, I'll go back into the living room and see
if I
can speak with
my uncle."
Aryana walked about in the hall, looking at the picon the walls huge pictures of the Leader, and
—
tures
smaller pictures of Mr. Ara in Washington and Lon-
don.
A
servant brought
him
tea
on a
tray,
but he de-
clined. Another servant brought a tall glass of sharbat, and he declined that too. He watched the men as they
whispered excitedly among themselves, gesticulating, tilting their
heads to
this side
and
that.
He
stood at the
ornate entrance of the mansion, gazed at the long row of limousines
and
at their chauffeurs,
and
his eyes
wan-
dered through the limitless garden.
Major Andriman reappeared, put an arm over Aryana's shoulder and said, "Look my friend, I spoke with my uncle about you. I told him how refined and learned you are, and
162
how
very different from the
men
him that you and I many many years and went to have been close friends school together in our childhood. I had to tell him this, it all helps. If I told him you have been abroad all these one meets in
this city. I also told
met you, he wouldn't have understood. One must know how to maneuver things here. Anyway, I will not trouble your head, he was very sympathetic and willing to help. But he said that all the government ministers have strict orders from the years,
and
that I've just
very top not to approve anything or take any steps
without the consent of the Prime Minister, and
My
Leader himself.
essary, the
uncle said that
if
it
nec-
won't
be necessary to see the Great Leader about a small mat-
but he will have to speak with the Prime
ter like this,
Minister and obtain his consent.
with the
new Prime
"The Prime Minister Aryana muttered identity card to the
.
.
you.
promised to speak
.
.
.
about a thing
like this?"
gravely. "I never thought that
would
entail such complications
my
and lead
."
"I don't
Bureau
He
Minister this afternoon."
know why one
of the gentlemen at the
of Civil Registration didn't issue the card for
Any one of them
Aryana shrugged
could have done his shoulders
it."
and stared
at the
sleek limousines.
"Well, anyway, don't worry about
it,
my
uncle will
speak with the Prime Minister, then will write a note ordering the Bureau of Civil Registration to issue your card immediately." 163
The
room suddenly opened and the dignitaries rushed out. "Look dear Mr. Engineer, I must run now, come to the Police Department todoors of the living
morrow, about noon, 111 have my uncle's note for you." He saluted and backed away. "Please forgive me, but
I
must go
May your shadow
in a hurry.
never grow
less."
Aryana walked down the stairs into the garden, passed by the long, black limousines and went Slowly, sadly,
He walked
into the street.
in the middle of the street,
unmindful of the hot sun that beat down on his head. A car honked behind him and he automatically went to the sidewalk, continued walking, and did not hear the driver's loud, angry imprecations.
few passers-by without
ambled from
really
street to street,
He
stared at the
seeing them, and he
without knowing where
he was going.
A
taxi
climbed
stopped near
in.
The
him and he unthinkingly
driver asked where he wanted to go,
but Aryana did not hear him, and the driver asked again.
Aryana
said that
he wanted to go home, then
chuckled hollowly to himself, and told the driver that
he wanted
and moments later Leader Alvand Square. The
to go to a restaurant,
asked to be dropped at driver regarded
him perplexedly through
the mirror.
Aryana stared out of the window. The shops were all closed and the streets nearly deserted. The people were in their homes having lunch with their families and taking the afternoon nap. A muleteer was leading a long 164
file
of donkeys across the street,
and the
taxi
A
driver had to bring his car to a sudden stop.
veiled
woman
standing on the sidewalk winked to the driver,
and the
latter
shook his head.
A double-decker bus half
loaded with passengers sped by on the wrong side of the street, narrowly missing the donkeys. site
On
the oppo-
sidewalk a shopkeeper was squatting outside his
shop having lunch, bread and broth, and a few steps
man
away, a
with a peasant's cap on his head was
watching him.
The
taxi lurched forward and Aryana held on to his and continued staring out of the window and at the back of the driver's head. "Have you ever lost your
seat
identity card?" he said involuntarily.
"What did you "I said have
The agha,
I
say,
agha?"
you ever lost your identity card?"
driver looked at Aryana in the mirror.
have never
"You
lost it."
are fortunate. I have lost
mine and
new one. I have no identity card." The driver half turned around and ana from the corners of his
new one?" "They won't ago
I
give
me
a
eyes.
new
it.
or perhaps
I
can't get a
glanced at Ary-
"Why
don't you get a
one. Nearly two
applied for an identity card and
obtained
"No
I still
months haven't
They have doubts about my nationality, just don't know how to manipulate things
here in this country and therefore
am
not entitled to
Iranian papers."
"Don't worry, agha, you'll get
it.
You must be
tient."
165
pa-
on my behalf with the Prime Minister. Then the Prime Minister
War
"Well, the Minister of
will probably talk
my
about
will speak
identity card with the
Leader, the Great Leader as they the Great Leader will speak with after
—
here.
Then
there to see
him?"
"Don't worry agha,
and
him who is
call
if
He
God
is
great.
wants to help, no one
He
sees everything,
—not even the Leader,
can stop Him."
"How
does one arrange to see
"Well,
and
if
in this country?"
you have the right connections, you can go Mazandi, the great spiritual leader,
see Ayatollah
and he
God
will pray for you.
They
say his prayers are al-
ways answered."
Aryana lapsed into his thoughts, wondering what to do if he had no results the next day. A thought he had grappled with earlier came back to him, and he instantly sat up. There must be a way, he thought with panting heart, to cross the border without a passport. If I
could just cross the border into one of the Arab
countries, I'm sure I could
speak Arabic fluently, and Arabs; the
would go back
I
palm
of
my
way
am sure
not at
"They
is
say the
166
After
all
.
my
old
Europe or America.
I
.
Leader even though he has is
all I
know my way among the Beirut, which I know like
to go back to
power and wealth because of the
rest.
hand, and with the help of
friends find a this
to
manage the
all
that
wary of the Ayatollah Mazandi and closeness to the
latter's holiness
But everyone knows that the Leader gets his orders from the foreigners, the Americans. Everyone is people.
afraid of the Leader, but
they forget that the Leader
Why quiet,
himself
one
afraid of some-
is
noyed that
You may
stupid, but I
Aryana thought, an-
if
think
I
am
you ask me,
think everyone in this
afraid of I
someone above
mean even
the gov-
ernment ministers who are supposed to be somebody, are really
nobody
They
country.
a conversation with taxi
who
this
Shadan
has just been
Prime Minister, he
made is
only
another errand boy, another
.
.
—
ine,
water without his permis-
Take
them from talking, they go on and on and won't leave you in peace. Anyway, what was I saying, yes, I was saying can you imagthe son of a burnt
are just er-
They won't even drink sion.
you can't then stop
in this
rand boys for the Leader.
father Beirut,
is
talking
still
I'll
old friends
—in my
find
one of
—
wonder
I
if
Jeddah, Barakat, Zamaria
and the others are there? I'm sure
"Did you
just
I'll
still
find
mention
Shadan?"
."
"Yes, I said this
is
the trouble with starting
drivers,
him.
thoughts
were interrupted. This
country, even the Leader, is
his
Isn't that right,
too.
agha?
keep
he
doesn't
new Prime Minister
is
just another
errand boy."
"How
do you know Shadan
is
the
new Prime Min-
ister?"
"Everybody knows.
I
heard
it
about two, three hours 167
The Leader
them turns. Whoever bows lowest to him, licks his feet and most often tells him how great he is, becomes Prime Minister. Where shall I ago.
gives
drop you, agha?"
Aryana asked him to stop at the north side of Leader Alvand Square and having paid the fare, climbed out of the diminutive car. He walked a long time turning the plan over in his mind.
next day he
much
as
still
had no
He
told himself that
results,
way
the
he would, without so
another day's delay, leave for Abadan or some
other point in the south and from there his
if
into another country.
Hungry,
somehow make tired, anxious,
came upon. It was the same empty restaurant where he had eaten one rainy, melancholy day nearly two months before. he entered the
168
first
restaurant he
ii The
noon he was at the Police Department. Major Andriman was not in his office, but an officer, on his way out of the room, said that the major had left about thirty minutes earlier, and would be back soon. Aryana sat down and waited. Over and over he told himself that he would wait no longer than one hour, then go directly to the nearest travel agency, buy a ticket for the trip to the Gulf.
following day at exactly twelve o'clock
The
prospect of leaving the country soon,
though infused with uncertainties, lightened
and made his whole being crouch, ready the city by the fastest means.
He
al-
his spirit
to leap
out of
thought of the people he had seen and met since
his arrival in Iran
and wondered
gret having left them.
The
if
he would later
re-
him and
his
gulf between
countrymen had widened irreparably, and although at times he felt an indefinable closeness to some of them, understood them and was able to share their feelings,
most of the time he
felt
he was an island that had been
torn away from the mainland, and he did not and
could not share their land, he
had passed
lives.
it
by.
He had outgrown his homeHe had matured faster than 169
his
country had progressed and therefore he could
on equal terms
never live
countrymen.
It
was in a way
—compatibly—with
like
his
outgrowing a wife or
someone you loved in your youth and perhaps still like, but can no longer live with because you have grown up faster. The most affable Iranians live abroad anyway, he thought. This time I will seek out my compatriots, I will seek out these displaced countrymen of mine. Suddenly he remembered Safoura, and the thought of never again having that woman, at whose home in the Old City he had spent strangely reassuring days and nights, saddened him and he automatically sank deeper in his seat. She doesn't have an attractive face, and isn't an educated woman, he told himself. I don't think she a husband,
is
for
me,
this Safoura.
a different
life.
She belongs to a different world,
Abroad
I'll
find an attractive,
modern
—
woman, perhaps a displaced Iranian woman he got up and restlessly paced the empty room, back and forth, back and forth. At one o'clock, he was about to leave the room, when the door opened and Major Andriman rushed in. "Dear Engineer," he said, as they shook hands, "I hope I didn't keep you waiting long. It's been a hectic day. The Great Leader will speak at the People's Mass Meeting this afternoon, and the Police Department has been kept busy all day." He collapsed in the chair behind his desk and removing a handkerchief from his pocket, began to dry the perspiration on his forehead. He got up again and still drying his face, said, "Please 170
forgive
me
down
for sitting
this
way.
I beg you to sit down. Please." Aryana sat down, then the major
It's
very rude of
me.
good news
"I have very
for you.
sat
down
again.
My uncle spoke
with
the Prime Minister about your identity card and ob-
tained his approval to instruct the Bureau of Civil
My
Registration to issue your card.
busy
order for your card, but he told the
uncle was very
morning and didn't have the time
all
Bureau and take
Andriman put
it
to
him
me
to issue the
to prepare a note to
Major pocket and took
for his signature."
the handkerchief in his
a deep breath. "I'll write the note in a minute, but
you can
wait,
I'll
take
it
him tomorrow.
to
If,
other hand, you are in a hurry and can't wait, the note with
me
him
It will
to sign
it.
he won't mind.
take
I'll
and ask
to the rally this afternoon
He
if
on the
only take a minute and I'm sure
man, this uncle of mine." "Thank you, thank you," Aryana said, striving to is
a kind
repress the elation within him.
before adding,
they say
not
—
"My
He
dear Cyrus,
if it is
—
not
in English they say, inconvenient,
if
it
is
." .
.
"Yes, yes, I understand
"Well,
if
it
is
." .
.
not inconvenient for you,
rather have the letter today so
Bureau
"We
I
can take
I
would
it
to the
of Civil Registration early in the morning."
"Fine, fine, will
upon my
eyes."
He
rang a bell and arose.
have lunch right here, under your shadow,
then you will condescend to come with us as all
moment how do
thought a
we make
the last minute preparations for the big meeting at
171
the Leader Alvand Stadium."
The door opened and an
attendant came in and bowed. "Look, go and fetch two
and kebab, one
rice I
want them
man
to
—what's
plates
Also, tell
him
all
agha and one for me. But
be clean, do you understand,
his
wash the
for the
name
—
tell
at the restaurant, tell
and spoons and
that
him
to
forks with hot water.
to give us plenty of onions, radishes,
and
the rest."
Major Andriman walked to the window, looked out, then went back to his desk, sat down and wrote a firm note to the Bureau of Civil Registration instructing them to issue Aryana's identity card immediately. As Aryana began to read the letter, the attendant came back carrying, on a tin tray, two plates of rice, kebab and the usual side dishes. As soon as they finished eating, they left the room, hurried to the end of the corridor and entered the im-
mense courtyard behind the building. Here, numerous local police officers and officers of the national gendarmerie were gathered, talking excitedly among themselves, last
studying charts of the
minute
city,
instructions. Several
giving and receiving
dozen police and gen-
darmerie trucks were parked in long rows, and standing or leaning against these trucks were four or five
hundred heavily armed policemen and gendarmes. Major Andriman told Aryana to wait by one of the trucks, then ran to join a group of officers colonels and majors who were talking, gesturing and pointing
—
—
at the trucks. Several other officers soon joined the
group and they 172
all saluted,
bowed, and shook hands.
Before long a general appeared in the courtyard and all
the officers immediately
shot
fell silent,
up
their
heads, bloated their chests, clicked their heels, saluted.
The
general returned their salute, greeted them, nod-
ding to some, muttering a few words to others.
and
the colonels stepped forward a large sheet of paper.
The
saluting,
One
of
handed him
general glanced at the
paper, then looking around, quietly but firmly said that he
wanted once more
here faithfully to earlier,
all
urged them
to
remind the
officers to ad-
the instructions they had received to
fill
the trucks with as
ple as possible for the meeting, cautioned
watchful and
move quickly
then read the names of the
to
many
them
peo-
to
He
put out skirmishes.
officers,
one of the poor sections of the
be
assigning each to
city.
"I needn't
you," he whispered, "that the venerable
officers
tell
who
round up the largest number of people for this important meeting will be duly rewarded, perhaps even by the Great Leader of Leaders himself." The officers quickly dispersed, running to the trucks to which they had been assigned. They ordered the policemen and gendarmes to climb into the trucks, shouted instructions to them, and within a few minutes, the trucks rolled
out of the courtyard. Some of
the officers rode in jeeps ahead of the trucks, others sat
with the gendarmes, over and over repeating to them
what to do, what not to do. Major Andriman and Aryana rode in a lead truck, followed by eleven other trucks assigned to the major. As the long line of military vehicles manned with armed gendarmes sped 173
through the
on the
the people
city,
stopped to
streets
gape and whispered uneasily to one another.
The
houses and shops were bedecked with
flags
and
and pictures of the Leader. Huge laces of multicolored bulbs hung in front of government buildings, and on top of some of these buildings were enormous flowers
neon impressions of the Leader's
profile.
Banners with
bold calligraphy exalting the Leader, pledging the un-
dying loyalty of one group or another to him, hung at frequent intervals above the sections flags,
The
large inter-
were elaborately decorated with
clusters of
multicolored ribbons, huge banners and, facing
each intersecting
and
traffic.
his wife.
street, gigantic pictures of the
On
Leader
each corner stood pyramidal struc-
tures covered with colorful rugs, tapestries, pots of flowers,
and hundreds of colorful
posters
and pictures
of the Leader in different poses. Here, loudspeakers
blared out military marches and impassioned speeches glorifying the Leader, recounting all the services he
had rendered
his people, all his sacrifices, his
accom-
plishments.
Major Andriman's trucks stopped in a narrow, cobblestoned street in south Teheran where the poor live. The gendarmes jumped out of the trucks, and as they stood at attention the major gave them orders to start collecting
people to take to the meeting. Several
gendarmes were ordered people all all
who were brought
to
guard the trucks and the
in; the rest of the
gendarmes,
armed with guns and bayonets, quickly dispersed in directions. They rounded up all the men on the 174
street,
entered
all
the huts
and shops, searched
rooms, roof tops, basements,
to the trucks.
old,
Those who
promised food after the meeting, those bribes were threatened and their disloyalty,
busy and
warned
and the few who
resisted
who
the
and
closets, courtyards,
brought out the men, young and
and led them
all
idle,
were
resisted the
of reprisals for
resisted the threats
were pushed and shoved out of their homes and shops
and taken
to the trucks at gunpoint.
Some
of the
men,
having nothing to do and glad to be taken for a ride in a truck,
needed no prodding. But most of them were
loath to leave their
work and
their families, afraid that
they were being duped, led astray or taken for mili-
and war. They begged, pleaded, argued, shouted, but the gendarmes firmly and without waste of words led them to the waiting vehicles. Only a few who had the means to give money to the gendarmes were allowed to stay behind and hide. tary service
Major Andriman strode up and down the street,
dirty
giving instructions to the gendarmes, reassuring
and goading the people. He entered a small grocery shop and asked the owner why he had no flags and pictures of the Leader in his shop window. The man
bowed low and
said, "Excellency Major, I swear on the Koran I don't have the money right now to buy flags and pictures of our Great Leader. I had some posters and pictures from last time, but yesterday they stole them from me."
"Well, what are you waiting for? Don't you see this is
a big occasion,
you must buy new ones." He turned 175
one of the gendarmes, ordered him to fetch pictures and posters from the truck. "Ill give you the pictures, to
you must buy flags, do you understand?" When the posters announcing the People's Meeting and the pictures of the Leader were brought but
later today
in, the grocer hastily pasted five of them to his shop window, and one of the gendarmes pasted several others to the door and walls of the small shop. "Now go and sit
one of those trucks so we can take you
in
to the
meeting."
"Meeting?
me
take
What have
away?
I
haven't done anything,
"Don't be
I
afraid,
I
Why
done?
swear on
only
do you want
the twelve
all
Imams
to I
." .
.
no one wants
to hurt you.
The
Great Leader of Leaders just wants to talk to you and all
the people."
"May God
bless
our Great Leader of Leaders.
We all
pray that he will come here one day and see us and ..."
"How
How I
can the Great Leader of Leaders come here?
can anyone come here?
have never seen a place
this
It's
and smelly. and disgusting as
so filthy
as filthy
." .
.
"What can we
do,
Your Excellency?" the grocer
head to one side. "We all urinate and throw garbage, but the government doesn't come and clean up. The government ..." "Don't talk so much, go and sit in the truck."
moaned,
tilting his
in the street
The
grocer quickly gathered the lollipops and the
cheap candy on the counter and locked them in a small 176
closet.
"Excellency Major, do you think
we
will be able
and speak with the Great Leader of Leaders?" know," the major replied, shrugging his shoulders. "Write down your supplication, tell the Sublime Leader you want to kiss his feet, he being to see
"I don't
compassionate and benevolent
you
to see
may condescend
to allow
him."
The major motioned grocer to the truck and
to the left
gendarmes
to take the
the shop. Holding a hand-
kerchief over his nose and mouth, he walked to the
end
of the
narrow
street,
watching the gendarmes
they went in and out of the old
mud
as
huts and shops.
Seeing several gendarmes pulling and dragging a
man
out of a shop, he went over and asked what the matter was.
man had
The gendarmes
explained that they had told the
several times to go to the meeting,
but that he
and they were left with no alternative but to take him by force. "Release him," the major said, and the gendarmes instantly let go of the man. The major motioned to the gendarmes to stand away, and turning to the young man, softly said, "What is the matter, brother? Why don't you want to steadfastly refused,
go to the meeting?" "I have
work
to do," the
a baker at this shop
bread for
man
said resentfully.
"I'm
and we're busy right now making my work now."
this evening. I can't leave
"I understand, I understand," the
major
said quietly.
"But brother there is an important meeting right now and you can certainly leave your work for a few hours." 177
"I can't, I can't," the
man
my
missed one day's work and that night. I have children
and an old father, they all anyone you want. I can't
week I hungry went children
said angrily. "Last
and I have a pregnant wife depend on me, you can ask leave my work, they need
food."
Major Andriman thought a moment. "I understand what you mean, I understand. But you see, my friend, sometimes one must make sacrifices. Today, there is a big meeting and our Great Leader of Leaders has condescended to come and talk to his people. All decent, patriotic Iranians have put aside their work to hear the proclamations of their Great Leader and learn what their
government has done
The man shrugged
for them."
his shoulders
government and things ." work and earn a .
"But
this
is
Leaders is above symbol ..."
my
The Great Leader
of
want
to
.
not
politics.
all this.
—
is
do
like that. I just
He
is
"A symbol? What's that?" "It's a how shall I say a he
and looking away
to do with politics and
grumbled, "I have nothing
—
like
our
father,
sacred tradition,
he
I
is
a
mean
someone above everybody and everything, some-
one to venerate and honor.
He
is
a symbol, a symbol."
The man frowned as he pondered the major's remarks. He shook his head and still frowning muttered, "I don't understand
what
all this is
you right now,
My
children are hungry ..."
178
I
about. But
don't need a symbol,
tell
I
I
can
need food.
Major Andriman turned
pretended not to be listening. cope with the problem. At
man and He was unsure how to
his
first,
back
he considered display-
ing anger, severely castigating the the gendarmes to take
thought better of calmly, though
go and
sit
this
man and
ordering
He
force to the trucks.
and turning around
again,
less amicably than before, said, "Look,
in the truck, I will see to
your family
"But
him by
to the
isn't left
officer, I
it
right
now
that
hungry tonight."
have to make bread for these
I told you I would what can be done. Now go in there and sit down." He told the gendarmes to take the man to a truck, then hurried in the opposite direction and entered the bakery. Several women, in tattered clothes, were gathered inside, cursing and grumbling. Seeing the major, they turned to him and continued shouting. The major
"Listen now, don't be obstinate.
see
ordered them to be quiet, then asked one of them to explain what the agitation was about. Several of the
women
talked simultaneously
and again the major
shouted at them to be quiet, and ordered one of the
women
to reply.
The woman stared at him, turned able to talk. The woman next to her
and was not began to explain, but she stuttered, stammered, quickly gave up. At length, one of the women in the back, prodded by the others, spoke up and explained that the gendarmes had taken away the two bakers and that, as a result, everybody in the quarter would be without pale,
food in the evening.
The woman was
still
talking
the major suddenly realized that there was
when
commotion 179
in the street.
He
ran out of the shop and saw several
gendarmes gathered near the
trucks,
kicking the young baker with spoken. Several
women and
punching and
whom
he had just
children were gathered
nearby weeping and shrieking, begging the gendarmes to
have mercy.
Major Andriman shouted to the gendarmes to stop what they were doing, and when he reached them, pushed them to the side and bent over the young baker lying on the ground, bruised and bleeding. He helped the man to his feet and began to question the gendarmes, when the baker, bleeding profusely from the head, suddenly turned around and with all his power punched the nearest gendarme in the face. Taken aback by the suddenness and force of the blow, the gendarme staggered a couple of steps and would have fallen had the other gendarmes not come to his
The
rescue.
baker, dazed and
now blinded by
that dripped over his eyes, stood
way
to turn.
unsure which
A gendarme stepped behind him and with
the butt of his
head.
still,
the blood
gun
The baker
dealt a heavy
blow on the baker's
reeled, quivered,
then
fell
to the
ground.
The women and children closed in, screaming and Other women and children came running over, shouting, "They killed the baker. They killed him. They killed him." Their men sitting in the wailing.
trucks fidgeted uncomfortably, nudged one another, and the gendarmes quickly surrounded the trucks and stopped them from jumping out. Major Andriman
180
waved
his arms, furiously shouting at the top of his
lungs that the baker was not dead but had only lost consciousness.
He
angrily rebuked the gendarmes
who
had beaten the baker; the gendarmes at first blamed the baker, then blamed one another. Major Andriman ordered them to carry the baker to his shop and with the help of the women to wash his face and head and minister to his wounds. As the baker was being carried to his shop, the
major ordered a couple of gendarmes
to find the other baker
and help him
start
who was
making bread
in one of the trucks for the people.
Seeing that the trucks were nearly full and the situa-
Major Andriman ordered the gendarmes to climb into the vehicles and prepare to leave. The women and children lingered by the trucks, some weeping, some cheering, some begging the gendarmes not to take away their men. As the trucks quickly tion explosive,
pulled out, Aryana, depressed at the sight of the im-
poverished people and their dilapidated shacks and stinking gutters, asked the major about the commotion.
Major Andriman shook nothing.
The baker
his
didn't
"I don't understand
head and muttered, "It was
want
why
to
go to the meeting."
these people are being
forced to attend a meeting."
"We
always do
these rallies
this. It is
and demonstrate
good for them
to attend
their loyalty to the Great
Leader of their country. They won't go on their own. The Great Leader of Leaders wants to make a proclamation
to
them about
establishing democracy in this
country."
181
"But wishes
to
own how
drag people to a meeting against their undemocratic. Besides
is itself
a feudal hereditary
I
don't see
regime can speak of democracy."
"Be careful Daryoush. Be careful what you say." The major looked this way and that to make sure no one was listening. "Why are you against this regime anyway?" "I find this type of
say that Iran
now
is
regime very
able to have a
system, but the country
more revolutionary
is
offensive.
I
don't
modern democratic
certainly ripe
now
for a
progressive regime than this one."
"Well, the Americans like this regime; you like the
Americans,
why
are supporting
Aryana
don't you like this regime which they
and maintaining?"
and stared out of the car window. "I don't know what to say. This is one of the shifted his position
discouraging paradoxes.
It is
sad that a country like
America supports such repressive and reactionary
re-
gimes."
"Why do you "I don't
each time suffering
and
think the Americans do this?"
know,
I really
I see this
poverty, this
I
know
is
that
misery and needless
a deep resentment for this feudal regime
I feel
for those
don't know. All
Americans who help and maintain
this
regime."
"You shouldn't
say such things, Daryoush.
They
are
very touchy about these things ..." "I
mean how can
This one man,
own most
Leader and
be allowed to go on?
his family
and friends
of the wealth of the land, they live in fabu-
lous estates
182
this
this injustice
and palaces and
villas,
they gorge them-
selves
men
on
their luxury while millions of their country-
grovel in gutters and are undernourished ..."
"Daryoush, be careful what you
say,
you might
find
yourself in trouble."
"You know, the other day I heard this Leader of yours say on the radio that he wants to help the poor and be just. Someone ought to tell him that in a country such as this where Aryana shrugged
his
shoulders.
millions of people have never enjoyed a square meal in their lives, his fabulous wealth
is
itself
the most
horrible injustice."
183
iZ When
the trucks arrived at the Leader Alvand Sta-
dium, Major Andriman jumped out and ordered the
gendarmes the
field.
to lead the
people they had rounded up to
Several dozen gendarmerie trucks
arrived and were
now parked
dozens more were arriving.
came bringing
had already
in rows near the field,
A
few private cars
also
passengers. In the vast field hundreds of
men were
gathered. They were laborers, peasants, begand other poor people. Dressed in dirty old clothes they sat or squatted on the dusty ground and did not appear to mind the hot sun that beat on their heads.
gars
They whispered among themselves, looked about flags
and banners and pictures
of the Leader,
at the
some
joked and laughed, others seemed perplexed. Numerous policemen armed with clubs, and helmeted para-
armed with submachine guns stood watchfully around the field and mixed with the people.
troopers all
On
the other side of a heavily guarded fence were
the dignitaries. Dozens of
abandoned Prime Ministers,
ex-ministers, princes of forgotten dynasties, senators
and representatives
of a non-existent parliament, pro-
fessors at projected universities
and other important 185
people,
all
impeccably dressed in
and top hats, salaaming and bowing to one
stood in disorderly lines,
tails
another. Opposite them, in another long line, bellied generals
and admirals with bemedaled
stood at attention,
with
stiff
all
fat-
chests
the earnestness of boy
scouts.
A government minister was rostrum addressing the people
standing at the elevated as they
awaited the
ar-
and the large number of people who have come running here today is another proof of the deep loyalty and devotion our people have for their Great Sublime Leader of Leaders. For us, the greatest honor, the most overwhelming experience of our lives is to be here today under the shadow of this kind, illustrious father of our country, this Sublime Leader of Leaders. That he has deigned to come here rival of the Leader:
in this heat
".
.
.
and make a proclamation
to his people,
another evidence of the love he has for you.
bow our mission. The
all
"Long
live
We
is
must
heads in everlasting gratitude and subtruth
." is
.
.
our Great Leader of Leaders," some one
shouted.
"The truth is, dear countrymen "Long live our Great Leader
." .
.
of Leaders,"
a few
people shouted.
"The truth "Long live
." .
.
the Great Leader of Leaders.
Long
live
the Great Leader of Leaders." Soon most of the people in the vast field
were shouting and cheering.
The gentleman on 186
the speaker's platform looked
down them
nodded, smiled and gestured
at the people,
in encouragement.
At
length,
when
to
they stopped
cheering and screaming, he shouted into the micro-
phone, "Here loyalty
is
another touching evidence of the deep
and veneration
all
our people have for their
beloved, self-sacrificing, sublime Leader. ing, the truth
dear
is,
As
I
was
say-
." .
.
"Hurraaaaaaah," a few people shouted.
"The truth dear countrymen "Long live our Great Leader. .
." .
Victorious our Great
Leader. Victorious, victorious ..."
when they stopped, the gentleman on the rostrum shouted, "The truth is, dear countrymen, that we the people of this country are all willing and prepared to lay down our lives, to die for our Great At
length,
Leader, the Leader of Leaders."
"We will die for him," a man "We will die for him. ." .
The
"We
crowd screamed.
in the
.
people, arrested by the screams, roared back,
will die for him.
for him.
When
We will die for him. We will
die
." .
.
the
shouted, "Yes,
screaming
we
subsided
gentleman
the
the slaves of the Great Leader Al-
vand, are ready, at any time, in any place, to give our lives, to
die for the great father of our country. This
Sacred Leader cratic Leader.
who
is
unlike other leaders. This
This
is
a just Leader.
This
is
is
a
a
demoLeader
and is in constant contact with them. Everybody remembers that hardly ten months loves his people
ago this Great Leader of Leaders,
this
Shadow
of
God
187
upon
Earth, went to one of the villages of the north
to the surprise
and
and admiration of everybody, took part And again, hardly seven months
in the local festivities.
when
ago,
great,
disaster struck the villages in Kurdistan, this
humane,
self-sacrificing
Leader
left
the comfort
of his palace to spend a whole afternoon
afternoon
—
whole
in the cold of the wilderness, with the
poor, homeless villagers. This
A
—a
is
the ..."
general of the police force ran to the rostrum
shouting frantically,
The Great Leader
is
"The Great Leader comiiing.
He
is
is
comiiing.
comiiing.
He
is
comiiing."
The gentleman on
the rostrum
waved
his
arms
furi-
ously and announced that the Great Leader of Leaders
was arriving.
The
people
immediately
fell
silent,
pushed toward the guarded fence and rose on their toes to catch a glimpse of the Leader.
On
the other side
of the fence, dignitaries, reporters, photographers, po-
licemen, plainclothesmen, ran excitedly in every direction,
informing one another that the Great Leader was
coming, the Great Leader was coming.
As the Leader,
and
emerged from the black, bulletproof limousine, an army band played a military march and the flag was slowly hoisted above the rostrum. The Leader glanced furtively this way and that, nodded to the Prime Minister and Mr. Ara who had come forward to greet him, then walked slowly toward the rostrum. The generals and admirals standing in line on his left rose to their full heights, pushed tall
attractive,
out their bemedaled chests to the limit, shot up their 188
heads, clicked their heels dignitaries
bowed from
and
saluted.
On
his right, the
the waist and as the Leader
passed by, remained stooped, facing the ground.
The Leader
slowly, gravely, stepped
up
to the raised
rostrum, and the people on the other side of the fence
pushed and elbowed one another and began "Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah .
to roar, ."
.
The Leader nodded and smiled and waved his arms to the people. He turned his head this way and that, acknowledging the outcries, enormously pleased with the earsplitting tribute he was receiving.
He waved
his
arms and nodded repeatedly.
At
length, he gestured to the people to stop cheer-
But they went on screaming and shrieking and were not able to stop. He gestured to them again to stop but they went on screaming, and he grew impatient and scowled. Several police officers and civilians climbed the fence and waved to the people, urging them to stop shouting, but the clamor persisted, and from all over the vast field rose shrill, piercing cries of "Long live the Great Leader of Leaders." Twenty, thirty minutes, and the Leader grew restless. He turned to the officials beneath the rostrum and ordered them to restrain the people. The officials ran this way and that, frantically shouting orders to their subordiing.
nates,
who
in turn
prodded their subordinates to do
something. Not until the military band began to play the national
anthem did the people
finally quiet
down.
The Leader stood at attention and stared straight The people also stiffened and stared up at the
ahead.
189
Leader and the military
band
flags
When
waving behind him.
the
finished playing the national anthem, the
Leader quickly stepped forward to the microphone and
began
his speech. ''Dear
countrymen,
I
am
very, very
glad to be here with you, the decent, patriotic, hard-
working, brave people of this country. Fortunately
"Looooooong
liiiiiiive
man
Leadeeeeeers," a
am
.
."
our Great Leadeeeeeer of
shrieked. ."
"Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah.
The Leader waved
.
his
.
.
hand, smiled and nodded. "I
deeply touched by your patriotic sentiments and
this
show
of loyalty. You, the decent, upright people
of this historic country have always proven your loyalty to
your fatherland and to your Leader
"Long
.
the Great Leader of Iran,"
live
." .
someone
shouted, and immediately the rest screamed,
"Long
Great Leader of Iran. Long
Great
live the
live the
."
Leader of Iran.
.
.
The Leader nodded and waved
his hand. "Fortu-
nately the elements have been gracious to us and have
made
this a nice,
sunny day.
." .
.
"Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah.
"This
is
." .
a very important day in the three-thousand-
year history of our sacred, historic country. of our history shine with glory. est
.
We
empire in the world, we had the greatest
in the world.
.
.
The
pages
once had the greatcivilization
."
"Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah.
"Hardly two thousand years
." .
.
ago,
our proud empire
was the center of the whole world. Only yesterday we 190
had great rulers, like Cyrus and Daryoush, who conquered many countries and whom the whole world feared. We have always had democracy in our country, always been tolerant of others, respected the rights of other countries and other peoples. These are historic facts
you must always remember and be proud of
"Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah.
." .
.
." .
.
"In the course of our four-thousand-year civilization,
our brave, courageous, proud people have always
shown
that they are ready to fight to the last
drop of
blood. ..."
"Hurraaaaaah ..."
"To
fight
tyranny and corruption and injustice.
There are always greedy, corrupt elements here who want to grab power. ..." "Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah.
"... and
foist their
." .
.
tyranny on the hardworking,
decent people of this country. But our proud, sacrificing people will not
back and allow these
self-
be fooled. They will not
traitors to exploit
sit
them and take
advantage of them. These young misled traitors don't
want us
to progress.
.
.
."
"Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah.
"They have
.
."
defied our sacred religion.
defied our sacred fatherland. is
.
They have
They have
defied all that
sacred to you, the God-fearing, patriotic people of
Iran.
They have betrayed
noble forefathers have tors.
But we
the sacred heritage our great,
left us.
will crush them.
They
We
are traitors, trai-
will
show them no
mercy. ..." 191
"Death
The Death
to the traitors,'' a
people roared back, "Death to the
Death
traitors. ."
.
.
." .
.
." .
.
to the traitors ..."
"Dear countrymen death to the .
.
.
.
.
.
listen, listen
.
.
Stop
it
now
.
.
.
Yes, yes,
.
death to the traitors
traitors,
me
listen to
to the traitors.
to the traitors ..."
Death
"Dear countrymen "...
Death
to the traitors.
"Dear countrymen "...
man screamed.
.
.
.
Now
Last night I had a
."
dream.
.
.
"Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah.
." .
.
had a dream. I dreamt I was going on a pilgrimage to the Holy City, when suddenly my horse reared and I fell off. But before I hit the ground, our Great Prophet, praised be his name, caught me and gently set me down. If he had not "Yes countrymen,
I
would surely have been killed. Then the Great Prophet, praised be his name, said to me, he said, you are the Leader of Iran, the savior of your people, no harm must befall you. God has sent me to ." protect you, because your poor people need you. "Looooong liiiiive the Great Leader of Leadeeeeers,
rescued
me
I
.
"
Savior of Iran
"Loooooong liiiiiive
liiiiiive
the Great Leader.
this
Loooooong
"
the Great Leader
"Dear countrymen,
A
.
is
also, in a
way, a sad day.
year ago, on this day, four of our countrymen, an
officer
and three
soldiers, lost their lives in that traitor-
ous uprising against your Leader. 192
Now
in
honor of
men, those martyrs whose blood
those noble, valiant
was shed in the struggle country,
I
to preserve
freedom in our
proclaim one minute of silence."
"Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah. Hurra "I ".
." .
.
now proclaim one minute of silence." .
aaaaah. Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah
.
The Leader mained
silent.
."
.
.
stepped back, bent his head and re-
"What mules," he muttered, "what
idiots." ".
.
Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah. Hurraaaaaah."
.
The Leader and the dignitaries observed a minute of silence. The Leader then stepped forward again and shouted into the microphone to interrupt the cheering,
"Dear countrymen
.
.
.
Dear countrymen
.
.
.
Dear
countrymen, we must not forget that these brave patriots gave their lives to protect the sacred traditions
They did not die in vain. We move ahead. As I told you when I
of our historic country.
are determined to
was proclaimed Leader of Leaders twenty years ago,
am
determined to obliterate
There
is
this
shameful poverty.
no reason why you and millions
of our coun-
trymen should go on living in shacks and go
hungry
at night.
This morning
I
I
to
bed
gave special instruc-
tions to the Ministry of Finance that for the next three
months, the
official
allowance for
winter palaces must be cut
my summer and
down from
three
hundred
thousand tomans a month to two hundred thousand tomans. Also, for the next three months
down
the
official
we
will cut
allowances for the palaces of
all
193
my
This will relieve some of the sures on our poor people. ..." brothers and
sisters.
"Loooooong
liiiiiive
pres-
our compassionate, benevolent
Leader of Leadeeeeeers ..." a
man
beneath
the
rostrum shouted. "I have also instructed the Minister of Agriculture to distribute
some
of
poor peasants of that
my own area.
lands in Khorassan to the
This will
." .
Aryana nudged Major Andriman, ing away any lands?"
.
"What did you say?" Major Andriman "I said
is
be a simpleton," he is
as
shouted.
he regarded him. "Don't
whispering in Aryana's
ear.
and impress the
for-
works each time. Later they will take
pic-
said,
to mollify the masses
eigners. It
giv-
he really giving away any of his lands?"
Major Andriman smiled "This
he really
"Is
tures of these peasants kissing the Great Leader's feet in gratitude for his generosity. ..."
"You mean he
"Why
is
should he
not giving away any of his lands?"
when he can
sell it to
them?"
"But how can they buy anything, they are erished
.
."
.
"Well, they pay years, I later.
am
Give
it
him
for the next fifteen or twenty
not sure which. Look
me
Registration.
him
so impov-
that letter
I'll
take
it
I
wrote
right
we
to
now
will talk
the Bureau to
my
about
it
of Civil
uncle and ask
to sign it."
Aryana pulled the letter out of his pocket and gave to Major Andriman. "Wait here Daryoush, I'll be
right back."
194
Aryana watched the major slowly make
way
his
toward the fence. Finding himself suddenly alone
among
beggars, laborers, peasants in tattered clothes,
he
depressed.
felt
He
told himself that these
were
his
countrymen, people of the same ancestry, and that he was a stranger, in people, in his to
effect, a
foreigner
among
his
own
country. Several times he had tried
persuade himself to stay and help these hapless peo-
ple,
to
own
but his
spirit,
already ailing and long accustomed
an entirely different climate, lacked the ingredient
to survive the putrid air of It
medieval
life.
was not that the hardships and privations of pov-
erty repelled him.
He had
never sought wealth, on the
he enjoyed the simple
contrary,
life
—wore
simple
clothes, ate simple foods, lived in simple lodgings, de-
lighted in simple pleasures like conversing with friends, strolling as
on
by the
sea.
Finding himself among the poor,
made him want
this day,
to
withdraw into an
even simpler existence. Again he told himself that no
man
is
justified to live in
hungry people
He was
luxury so long
as there are
in the world.
looking about wondering
how many
years or
generations would pass before these unfortunates of the world were delivered from the horrors of poverty,
when he
felt
a
hand on
his
shoulder and turning
around saw Major Andriman. "I have news
for you," the
signed
it
major
for you, here
Aryana took the
said,
very, very
beaming.
"My
good uncle
it is."
letter
and seeing the signature
smiled and thanked the major. 195
"Take
Bureau of Civil Registhe morning, and within one hour you will to
it
tration in
any
official at
the
have your identity card."
As they shook hands, Major Andriman said that it was he who really benefited from the brief association, because he was stimulated to think and talk more searchingly than he usually did.
Aryana walked away been in better dent in weeks.
He knew now
tity card.
As soon
muttered
elatedly,
present I'll
I'll
optimistic
—
fine I
and
confi-
that at last after all these
he was to obtain
his iden-
reach Europe or America, he
and begin again,
I'll
and
to teach at school
send Major Andriman a
think of a suitable present
send General Andriman something
some all
—
money
delays,
as I
man pursued. He had not
more
spirits, felt
weeks of enervating
earn some
like a
later.
too.
Perhaps
There
are
They are not that whenever I come upon
people in the military service.
don't
know why
it is
a professional soldier or officer I feel like reassuring
him, telling him look, don't be don't have to
put up
a front.
afraid, relax, relax.
No
You
one will question
your manliness.
Well anyway, here at last I have my identity card, thanks to the Andrimans. I can't believe it. I suppose one must just be very patient here. Everything gets done. Dear, dear Iranians, you are such bastards, but I love you all. He bought a small gift for Safoura, went to her home in the Old City and spent the night with her on the wide mattress. 196
15 In the morning, he woke up rested and in good
He had ised to
breakfast with Safoura
come back and Bureau
mattress,
prom-
see her before his departure,
and
He went by
taxi
shortly after ten o'clock left her to the
on the
spirits.
home.
of Civil Registration, asked for
Mr.
Sepenta, but the attendant in the corridor explained that
Mr. Sepenta had not yet arrived.
stairs again, crossed
He went down-
the courtyard and entered Doctor
room on the second floor. Doctor Shayan arose, bowed and as they shook hands, said, "Please sit down. It's been a long time we haven't had the honor Shayan's
of seeing you, agha."
"I have been going to the
"I beg after
you
to
sit
." .
.
down. Please
sit
down. You were
an identity card, weren't you?"
Aryana sat down and nodded. Doctor Shayan also sat down. "Did you get it?" "Not yet. Mr. Sepenta said that I must first bring a statement from the Police Department certifying that I
am
Iranian."
"Really? Really?" Doctor Shayan muttered, making his
eyebrows meet. "You shouldn't be required to have 197
a Police
What
Department statement about your
are you,
if
nationality.
not Iranian? Well, anyway, did you
get the statement?" "I couldn't get that either.
War
the Minister of
But
have a
I
instructing this
from
letter
Bureau
to issue
my card immediately." "The
Minister of War?"
Andriman. Here is the letter." Doctor Shayan took the letter, read it, reread it, glanced at the signature. He shook his head and return"Yes, General
ing the letter to Aryana, said, "Agha, this letter
is
use-
less."
"What?" "I said this letter it is
useless, it
is
is
—how
shall I say
not valid."
"But why?
I
don't understand," Aryana
mumbled.
"Don't you really know?"
Aryana shook stand.
I
just
his head, "I don't
know
know,
I
don't under-
that this letter was signed yesterday
by General Andriman, the Minister of War.
you where he signed it ." yesterday with Major tell
.
"Forgive it's
me
—
went
for interrupting you,
obvious you don't
know what
A revolution?
can even
meeting
—
I
Mr. Aryana, but
has happened. Last
." .
.
revolution?" Aryana echoed,
of the chair. "But, but
I
to the big
.
night there was a revolution
"A
I
moving
just don't
to the
know what
edge
to say.
Revolution?"
"That's right, that's right, there was another revolution."
198
"But why?
mean what happened? Everything
I
seemed quiet yesterday. Are you sure there was a revolution?"
Doctor Shayan chuckled. "Of course, there was a revolution. This
is
papers are full of
"But
not something anyone can hide.
it,
everybody
don't understand,
I
Yesterday everything was
"There
is
is
talking about
I just
The
it."
don't understand.
." .
.
nothing to understand, Mr. Aryana. There
was just another uprising, another struggle to over-
throw the Leader, only not sure.
it's still
this
time they nearly succeeded,
." .
.
"What do you mean?" "Well, they are versity
and
they say
in that area there
now
it is
around the Uniheavy fighting. But
fighting. All
still
is
spreading to the bazaar area.
pose the students aren't the only ones
change; the poor are also talk
about
"What "They
this
has
now who want
But it's better not ." what happens. .
a
to
.
of the Leader?"
tried to assassinate
him
yesterday but they
Doctor Shayan whispered.
just missed,"
"But why did they want
to assassinate
him? They
."
and "But they succeeded ." Minister and the "But why? Why? This
don't have to
kill
.
.
Why
sup-
restless.
now. We'll see
become
I
.
in
assassinating
the
Prime
.
is
primitive,
it is
sickening.
are they this way?"
"Well regime.
as
you know they want
How
else
can they go about
to
overthrow the
it?"
199
"I
am
not in sympathy with
Aryana muttered
this
regime either,"
"But surely there must be way of bringing about change. They don't have to murder and behave like savages." "I don't want to say anything," Doctor Shayan whispered. "It's just that this is the way it has always been. gravely.
a civilized
It's its
not a secret that the regime has executed enemies,
now
many
of
others are taking revenge."
Aryana stared out of the window. I wish I had never come back here, he said to himself. I wish there were some way I could go away, just go away and never come back. He picked up General Andriman's letter and slowly arose. "Mr. Doctor Shayan, is there no way at all I
can obtain
my
Doctor Shayan
identity card?"
also arose.
make, Mr. Aryana? This
"What
letter
supplication can
I
was signed by the Min-
War, but last night an attempt was made on the Minister's life, and now he has gone into hiding, there is even a rumor today that he has run away from the country. Anyway today nobody knows who is Minister of War. That is why, much as I would like to be of service to you, I cannot carry out General Andriman's instructions, no one here can." He paused and thought a moment before adding, "Why don't you wait a few days till the unrest has subsided and new officials have been appointed, then get another letter like this one, bring it to me and I promise to have your identity ister of
card issued immediately."
Aryana wandered through the city, trying to find out what was happening. All that day, all the next day and 200
The
the day after, the fighting continued in Teheran. clatter of
mortar
machine-gun
shells
and the whizzing
fire
blast of
reverberated ominously across the
city.
Martial law was declared and the people were forbid-
den to venture into the streets between nine in the evening and eight o'clock in the morning. Government agencies, offices, schools and private businesses, all closed down, and the people remained in their homes even during the day.
Sherman tanks and other military vehicles, manned by heavily armed paratroopers and gendarmes, roamed the streets and protected important government buildings, the radio station and all the palaces of the Leader, palaces of his relatives and friends. Large bands of revolutionaries, university students, members of Dr. Mossadegh's National Front Party and the underprivileged of south Teheran attacked the Ministry of Justice, set fire to a wing of the building, then moved in the direction of the palaces although
it
was well known
that the
Leader and
summer
palaces outside the city. Soon the rebels were
his family
joined by thousands of others
Leader Alvand. Long
all
live Dr.
had withdrawn
to the
shouting, ''Down with
Mossadegh. Long
Down
Allahyar Saleh, beloved leaders of the people.
with Leader Alvand.
The government with machine guns. ties,
retreated,
Down
forces,
The
with the Leader.
live
." .
.
using tanks, fired on them
rebels suffered heavy casual-
regrouped in smaller bands and tried
again to reach the palaces. But again the government forces
pushed them back. By the third day, although '
201
there was
sporadic righting in the
still
the rebels
city,
The paratroopers and gendarmes number of them all the way to the rebels made a last stand but, heavily
were badly routed.
pursued a great
Here the outnumbered by the government forces and defenseless against tanks and modern weapons, they abandoned the fight, and hurriedly dispersed in all direcbazaar.
tions, still shouting,
"Down with Leader Alvand. Down
with Leader Alvand.
The were
." .
.
student rebels and National Front
also
University grounds.
One
up on a "This Leader and his
of the leaders stood
platform and began shouting,
gang who have stolen from the poor abroad,
who have
power, will justice. If
all
will rid
meet a shameful end
We
will try
our country of
regime which
is
to build villas
tyrannized the innocent to remain in
we haven't succeeded
ceed next time.
We
members
pushed back and they sought refuge on the
this time,
and this
try until
we we
hands of will suc-
succeed.
medieval, reactionary
stunting our progress.
to help the poor, instead they
at the
They promised
helped the rich
—they
helped themselves. They promised to obliterate corruption, instead they encouraged the corrupt.
promised to hold free
They
elections, instead they packed
the government
and parliament with servile, sniveling errand boys who, even in public, kiss the Leader's feet. They promised to end violence and persecution, instead, week after week they hang their opponents in the main square of Teheran; week after week they execute people in the barracks outside the
202
city.
They
promised to respect the rights of our people, instead they have instituted a reign of terror where no one dares talk,
no one dares ..."
Suddenly about forty or
fifty
military trucks filled
with paratroopers surrounded the University grounds.
Some of managed
the students to
run away
and National Front members
The
in time.
ran into the
rest
buildings and hid in classrooms, closets, lavatories. paratroopers, wearing helmets
and
The and
battle fatigues
armed with submachine guns, poured into the University. They forced their way into the buildings, breaking doors and windows. They caught the students and the others, beat them with clubs, punched and kicked them, and several who attempted to resist the beatings and arrests were machine-gunned to death. The Military Commander of Teheran announced the
"My
government's victory on the radio.
men,
I
am
dear country-
overjoyed to inform you that peace and
order have been restored to our city and country. brave,
patriotic,
have squelched
Leader-worshiping people of Iran
this treasonous uprising.
criminals, traitors
who want
to
These
overthrow
Leader of Leaders has commanded the proud, decent people of Iran,
we
will not relent until
every single criminal uprising. trial
We promise
who to
me
and
to
to
ruffians,
that
all
The
sacred to our people have been routed.
that
The
is
Great
thank you,
promise you
we have tracked down
took part in this treasonous
have them brought to a quick
and executed forthwith. 203
"Dear countrymen, long
Great Leader of
live the
Leaders; long live the Sublime Leader of Iran."
Slowly people ventured out of their homes. Govern-
ment bureaus,
and shops reopened and within a few days life in Teheran reverted to its habitual course. A foreign news service reported that about ninety people had been killed in the disturbances. In Teheran, and elsewhere in the country, people began schools
to prepare for the holidays.
Aryana went ment.
On
across the city to the Police Depart-
the street in front of the building he ran
Kourosh Firouzan who had just come the Police Department. They greeted each other
into his friend
out of
and Firouzan
said,
"Are you going in
for
your identity
card?" "Yes, I'm just don't
after that
still
seem
to
damned
be able to get
identity card. I
it."
"What did you think of our recent elections?" "What elections?" "Where have you been the last ten, fifteen days? We were holding our own brand of elections, trying to determine what kind of leadership we want." "I wish I could laugh about gravely. "Perhaps
goes on here,
uprising as
I
if I
it,"
Aryana muttered
did not feel involved in
would have calmly viewed
—how
shall
I
say
—
as
I feel
and have witnessed the violence and the
that
this violent
political
pains of a backward people. But because
all
growing involved
ugliness, I
cannot help feeling revolted."
"Look Daryoush, 204
please forgive me, I
must go now,
I
must rush
Department of Motor Vehicles
to the
for
my driver's license." "You mean you
don't have your driver's
still
li-
cense?"
"Well you know,
it's
been only three months. You
can't rush these things."
"Three months to get a driver's you tolerate this waste of time?" "It's
license?
not a waste of time," Firouzan
his shoulders. "After
all,
if
said,
How
can
shrugging
you want something you
must struggle and fight for it. Getting a driver's license takes time; you must see many people, visit different offices,
pay a
little
here, a little there.
And
don't forget
there are always explosions like last week. All this takes time, but I don't
mind."
"That's right, you don't mind. this struggle
things.
But
is
inevitable, that
it
You is
all
I don't, I can't."
"Well, although I've traveled a really lived
think that
in the nature of
abroad and
I
I've
little
never
don't know ..."
known
"Yes, you've never lived abroad, never
any-
and you can therefore accept all this. In a way, you are fortunate, Kourosh. But I've lived abroad many years and now I can't help comparing everything thing
else,
tendency to view everything in compari-
I see. It is this
son that
is
—how
constantly thinking, this is
not
it is
as
good
as it
in Paris so
devastating.
shall I say
it's
is
is
not as
it
*'Daryoush, forgive
me
find myself
was in Europe,
in America, this
excusable.
I
is
this
not worse than
." .
.
for interrupting you, but as
205
I
told
you
I
have an appointment right
now
at the
Department of Motor Vehicles; in fact I am about forty minutes late. Look, what are you doing tomorrow? It's Friday you know; come to our house around noon and we'll all go to a party. Who knows, you may even meet someone there who'll be able to help you."
Aryana climbed the stairs, entered the building, made his way through the crowded hall and corridor, and went into Major Andriman's office. The major was not
in,
but an
officer,
another desk,
sitting at
Aryana that Major Andriman had just left and to a meeting. "If you hurry, agha, you may still find him in the courtyard, behind the building." Aryana rushed out to the vast courtyard where nutold
was going
merous police trucks and vans and jeeps were parked.
He
was walking in the center of the courtyard, looking
way and that, when a jeep suddenly halted behind him. "Where do you think you are strolling, agha, on the Champs £lysees?" Aryana darted to the side to make way for the jeep. "My dear Engineer," Major Andriman said, alighting this
from the jeep, "I'm sorry "Salaam Cyrus,
I
if I
startled you."
was looking for you."
hope you haven't come to say good-by." "No, I haven't, I still don't have my identity card." "I
"Why "Well,
not? I
tration, the officials
You had
that letter
from
my
uncle."
took that letter to the Bureau of Civil Regis-
day after you gave
it
to
me, but one of the
there said that he couldn't carry out the orders
because of the disturbances and he also said he wasn't
206
sure that General
War." "Son
Andriman was
of a burnt father.
wouldn't do
it,
ha? Give
me
the Minister of
still
Son of a whore. So he his
name,
I'll
destroy his
destroy his father. ..."
By God, I'll "But you know he was
father.
the instructions. After
justified in
all,
not carrying out
there was a revolution
and
General ..."
"Don't you worry about
Leave
it
to
name and
me,
I'll
I'll
teach
this,
my
dear Engineer.
take care of him. Just give
him what
it is
me
to eat dung. So
his
he
thought just because there was a revolution he could ignore orders and recommendations." Major Andri-
man paused
to catch his breath.
He
bit his lip, twisted
mouth to one side then to the other. "The son of a dog could have done it if he wanted. But don't worry, his
I'll
.
." .
"What has become
Andriman?" "My uncle is fine, he is fine. He was away for a few days but he is in Teheran now. As you may have heard he is no longer the Minister of War. The Great Leader has just made him a senator." of General
"A senator?" Major Andriman nodded. "These recent disturbances have brought
many
changes."
"I can't see any changes. This Leader of yours could initiate
changes
if
he dissolved his archaic regime. This
would endear him to progressive people all over the world, and make way, hopefully without bloodshed, for a revolutionary regime to take over and ..."
207
Major Andriman chuckled as he said, "It's obvious you don't understand the politics in our country."
much to understand the sad state country. You know, I was beginning
"It doesn't take politics in this
that
rejoice
was no longer
I
bureaucracy, that
ning from one
no
less
bureaucracy.
society
"Well,
I
am
suddenly less
convinced that is
not just our
it's
but that
sick,
this
retarded."
is
"You know,
I
which are no
politics
bureaucracy or our politics that
whole
be sent run-
to
another, but then
medieval and disgusting than the
am
I
to
the mercy of this
no longer had
I
office to
found myself caught in the irrational,
at
of
these views are not patriotic."
not patriotic. Patriotism
for school-
is
children."
"Daryoush, you must be very careful. People here don't like to hear such views."
"You always
say this, but
why should
what people of the fourteenth century "Well, maybe
now
things will
said, "I don't
ous that this country
and dislike." ." get better and we .
going forward
I'm sure no one, not even
and
and
regime, can stop
But
when
the present
is
so painful
An officer called Major Andriman tily said, It's
the time,
can't
I
future
this archaic
very obvi-
it's still far too backward and crude, content myself with visions of a happy
progress.
its
It's
all
.
the time,"
all
quarrel with that. is
damn
like
"I'm sure things are getting better
Aryana
give a
I
"Look Daryoush,
I'll
and
." .
.
and the
latter has-
take care of this for you.
not necessary to give you another letter to the
208
Bureau
of Civil Registration.
tonight and ask
them
to
just wait
make and
him
I'll
to call the
absolutely sure.
see.
You can be
speak with
Bureau, I'll
I
my
uncle
too will call
make them do
it,
sure that this time you'll
have your identity card. Just go to the Bureau on Sun-
day or Monday and see a Mr. Engineer Janan sure that's his
name
—the
Police
sionally has dealings with him.
Department
He
will have
— I'm occa-
your
identity card ready."
209
14 The
next day, shortly before noon, Aryana went across
the city to the
home
of
was dressed in Friday
and careful
Kourosh Firouzan. The family
clothes,
to avoid reckless
perfumed, well-combed,
movements
that
might en-
danger their neat appearance.
"Did you obtain your identity card yesterday?" Firouzan asked as they all walked the short distance to the party.
Aryana shook his head. "What's holding it up, anyway? You probably don't know how to go about it. Remember sometimes you
must shout at these people, you must threaten them, curse them ..." and threatening people." you must do it. You must
"I don't believe in cursing
"But here always
in this country
make them
feel
you are an important person, a
person with authority or that you are related to some-
one important, someone powerful. You must always drop names and
titles.
brother the Colonel say
my
For example, you must say
who
is
my
man, or here and His
a very nervous
friend General so-and-so sent
me
Excellency wants this to be done immediately
—im-
211
mediately. Military serious.
You must
titles
are the best. Don't laugh, I'm
always threaten and bully and bluff,
bow to you, obey anything you here we are."
then they'll fear you,
want them
to
do
—
In the house, about thirty or forty people, mostly relatives of
Laleh Firouzan, were assembled to spend
Friday together. Several of them were gathered in the
room playing poker, several others sat in an adjacent room playing rummy. A few of the guests walked back and forth from one room to the other chatting among themselves, watching and discussing the card living
games.
Kourosh Firouzan introduced Mrs. Sohrab Mani, the host and ored," the host, a his head.
"We
tall,
his friend to
Mr. and
"We
are hon-
hostess.
gray-haired man, said,
bowing
are very honored that you have conde-
poor hut with your footsteps." "Merci, merci. Yesterday Kourosh ..."
scended to grace
this
"Please, please, this
is
your own home, your own
home." "Mr. Aryana," the hostess eat something.
self,
these tables
said, "Please
Would you
Aryana shook his head and "This is what I call
"He won't
one of
Kourosh and
much about
want man," Mr. Mani
said that he didn't
a fine
waste his time playing cards. We'll just
stand here and talk. There son-in-law
like to sit at
and play?"
to play. said.
help your-
my
is
can learn.
My
daughter have told
me
much
I
Mrs. Mani excused herself and walked away; Mr. Mani affectionately held Aryana's
212
you."
arm and this
said,
"Let
"I'm
us, I too
don't like
here.
hear what you said."
sorry, I didn't
"I said,
I
too don't enjoy this gambling.
It's
They've been playing since nine o'clock
ing and they'll probably after midnight. I it
between
stay
it
gambling."
mean
wouldn't be bad, but
A man
sit if
so noisy
this
morn-
there and gamble until long
they played an hour or two,
that's all
came forward, bowed
they do.
said,
was
I
Mr. Mani and
to
Mani
salaam. "Salaam, salaam," Mr.
When
said
extending his
hand. "Did you just come in?" "Yes,
just..."
I
"Do you know Mr. Aryana? Mr. Aryana is a very, very distinguished, learned, worldly gentleman. Mr. Shaheen is
an
official at
the Ministry of Labor.
heen that Ministry
nothing.
is
He is
.
.
and Aryana shook hands, Mr. Mani father,
Without Mr. Sha." As Mr. Shaheen
said,
"How
is
your
Mr. Shaheen?"
"Thank you, he is
." .
.
"How is your uncle?" "Thank
you, he
." .
.
"How are the children?" "Thank you, "I fine
am
and
they kiss your
very glad, very glad.
." .
.
Thank God everyone
.
.
"How is your health, Mr. Mani?" am grateful to God, my health
"I
"Well, thank God, thank God.
your
is
."
is
not very ..."
How
is
the Banou,
sister?"
213
"By your kindness, she
."
not
is
.
.
"How are the children?" "Thank you, thank you, "Are they "Yes,
it's
all
is
.
.
.
."
a nice day today
"Yes, she
." .
here today?"
"Beg your pardon,
"By
they are very
I
.
.
didn't hear
what
."
in the parlor ..."
the way,
how
is
your brother?
I
haven't seen
him
in a long time."
"Thank you, my brother "And how is his wife?" "She
is
." .
.
." .
.
"Well, thank God, thank God.
I
was worried
." .
.
Mrs. Mani, the hostess, came by and said, "Mr. Aryana,
why aren't you eating something?
self,
please."
"Thank you,
"My
I'll
Please help your-
help myself."
me you
daughter Laleh told
years, I think she said
you lived
lived abroad
in
many
America and
in
Europe." "That's right,
have lived in
I
." .
.
"There is an American gentleman ." and "An American?" .
.
"Yes, an American. of
my
here, a close friend
brother.
Would you "Yes, yes,
He
like to I
He
is
a close friend
and colleague
has been here two, three years.
meet him?"
would
like to
meet him. Where
is
he?"
"He is in the other room, please come with me." They went into the other room where Mrs. Mani introduced 214
the two
men
to each other,
you how happy I am
to
and
them. "I can't
left
tell
meet you, Mr. Paparelli," Aryana
said in English.
"By the way, my name "Mine is Daryoush."
Dick/'
is
"Daryoush? That's a beautiful name. Daryoush. Daryoush.
It's
ancient and historic."
"So you're from America? You know, you are
.
.
."
"Daryoush the Great and Cyrus the Great. They were the greatest emperors of the Persian Empire. Right?
They were
fabulous
men
..."
"So you're an American. "Correct
who had
me
if
I
lived
.
.
."
I'm wrong, wasn't Daryoush the one
mighty army in Persepolis and invaded
that
Greece?" ".
.
.
in
America
"You know,
several years
I've visited the ruins of Persepolis eight
times, eight times. I tell really fantastic ".
.
.
".
.
.
.
.
you those ancient empires were
."
friends in America. fantastic, fantastic.
"What
and have many ..."
What
part of the
." .
So you're Daryoush
.
.
.
."
part of the United States are you from?"
"What?" "I said what state are you from?" "Well,
my
folks live in
New
York. But
I
guess
I
am
from California. ..." "Really?
we
You are from
California?
You know in a way
are compatriots."
"That's right.
I feel
a kinship with your people.
I feel
like a Persian."
215
"What
I
meant was
southern California.
that
.
.
we both
home
feel at
in
."
home there. I hate that phony place. I much prefer living in this part of the world. Let me tell you something, Americans and Europeans don't know how to live. Here it is different, people don't rush all the "I don't feel at
time, there isn't all that aggravation, all that
around trying love
to
keep up with the Joneses.
you,
I
and the people here and every-
here. I love Persia
it
running
I tell
thing."
"I
am delighted
wouldn't
that
you
like
it
here. I only wish
you
call it Persia."
"What
shall I call it?"
"Iran."
"No
I
don't like Iran,
I like
"
Persia
"But we have always called our country Iran. Persia not an accurate name; it is more a fantasy of the Western world. I mean no offense to you but I've noticed that people who don't want to or who cannot view is
country
this
realistically call
though the people here
it
way
Persia. In a
insisted
on
calling
it's
as
you and
other Americans Mr. Rockefeller or Al Capone or Jesse
James." "I don't get
thing,
who
I
am
what you mean. But
always disappointed
"It
who
when
I
can't enjoy their beautiful country
Europe or America. is
no
less
I
think
it's
sad,
you some-
I'll tell
it's
see Persians
and go
very sad.
." .
.
sad than the American or European
can't adjust to
modern
life,
has to run
seek refuge in the world of the Middle Ages."
216
to
away and
The American saying, "I haven't
stared resentfully at
Aryana before
run away from anywhere. Besides,
what's wrong with the Middle Ages?"
"There's nothing wrong it,
you weren't brought up
if
in
then given the opportunity to see a better world."
"You know, ple,
that's the trouble
you go abroad and lose
all
with some of you peo-
that authentic
and ancient
charm you've inherited. Well, perhaps I shouldn't talk this way, you Persians are so darned sensitive. I sometimes forget and speak freely, thinking I'm back home. I better get back to my friends. Perhaps I'll see you again." Aryana nodded and moved away. This man is as confused as I am, he thought. But it's good there are Americans and Europeans who aren't sensitive to our backwardness and come here to work and live just as we live in their countries and don't mind their problems. This should help
mix
and eventually do away with
the peoples of the world nationality.
He began
to
walk back to the other room when Mrs. Mani, the hostess,
aren't
suddenly confronted him. "Mr. Aryana,
why
you eating something? Please help yourself."
Aryana stood behind one of the card players and watched the men and women as they sat around a large round table, gambling. Soon after, lunch was served and the guests were
all
summoned into the dining room. The
long table was covered with a bewildering variety of foods, hot
tables
and
cold, foreign
and
native.
Two
small side
were covered with more foods and refreshments.
A couple of maidservants, as well as the hostess and several of her female relatives, ran in
and out of the dining 217
room removing empty
and bringing more food. went to the ad-
dishes
Several people helped themselves and
joining rooms to eat, the rest sat or hovered around the table.
They
all ate
prodigiously, praised the meal to
and toasted the elders of the family. the men went about the room prodding several
the high heavens
One
of
of the others to eat quickly so they could go back to their poker game.
"Let
me eat in peace,
I can't
play this afternoon, any-
way."
"Why not? We've only played a few hours." want to go to Alvand Stadium." "I
"Since
when
this political
you interested
are
"I'm not interested in
Leader
at the
in politics?"
politics, I
promised to take
my
we all watch the paratroopers, the peoand the gendarmes. They say it's very exciting." can
children so ple,
meeting
"Forget about the meeting,
"Nezam
is
right,
let's
go and play."
why do you want
to waste
your time
going to a meeting? Let's continue our game."
"But tell
if
he wants to go
you the
to the Stadium, let
truth, I myself
these political meetings. culture, what's his
name,
would
They is
him
like to attend
go.
To
one of
say this Minister of Agri-
and the
a formidable speaker
people really worship him." "I think they worshiped the National Front leaders
more.
I
happened
to
be near one of those
the recent uprisings and
you
can't believe
rallies
how
during
the peo-
ple raved and cheered. I've never seen anything like that."
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"There are people here who also worship the Leader." "Mr. Aryana has an interesting observation. Mr. Aryana, why don't you say aloud what you just told me." "I just said that life
seems to
it
and autocratic
heavily on authority, fear
seems to me
said that
it
with
exclusivism
and majesty, only ity. It
family
do not instill in our authority. Here people lean
social system
people a healthy attitude to
its
me our patriarchal
it,
and are
in
awe
this type of political
of
intensifies the people's
I also
regime here,
— —how do they — its
it.
say
its
pomp
awe of author-
encourages extremes of rebelliousness and sub-
—
We
must try to humanize authority don't remember what else I said." "If I were the leader I'd show you what must be done missiveness.
for this country."
would be a great leader." "What would you do if you were leader?" "What would I do? Well, first of all I'd hold free elections a month or two after I became leader ..." "Knowing you, if you became leader you would never hold elections. You'd enjoy being leader and would find "Yes, Big Uncle
all sorts
of excuses to postpone elections."
would stick to my promise. I would be a good leader because I really know what the people want. I would do away with corruption and dictatorship and favoritism and ." "That's not true.
I
.
.
"My dear cousin, being a leader isn't that simple. You wouldn't even know how to handle the country's affairs with foreign powers.
You know nothing about
inter-
national relations and ..."
219
would have a man who has been abroad and who knows about I might even make you my foreign minister." "Who? Me?" "I
would have
a foreign minister.
I
—
"Yes,
why not?"
"But
I
"What I
am if
your cousin."
you are
my cousin? I can appoint whomever
want." "That's kind of you.
I
think
I
Now that I
think of
it,
why
not?
would be an effective foreign minister."
"Big Uncle, you've made a very wise appointment."
"As foreign minister,
my
act
first
would be
to
make
the Foreign Ministry a smooth, efficient, well-coordi-
nated department
"
"You wouldn't do anything of the sort." "Of course, I would, why not?" "/ would have to decide on that, not you." "But
I
"What
am if
foreign minister.
.
." .
you are foreign minister? / appointed you
foreign minister, don't forget that. If you think just be-
cause
I
have made you foreign minister, you can act
the leader
and make
decisions,
I'll
as
throw you out im-
mediately. Don't laugh, you are always this way, you
know more than everybody else." "But then why would you appoint me foreign minister? You know nothing about the foreign ministry and
always think you
diplomacy, yet ..."
know more than you. You think just bespent a month in Kerbela and speak a few
"I certainly
cause you've
220
words of English, you know everything about diplomacy
and international problems." "I didn't say I
certainly
know everything about diplomacy, but
know more than you."
"No you angry
I
don't,
and stop saying you do,
get very
I'll
you."
at
"When
I
think of
it,
why should
be foreign
I just
minister? I could be the leader. That's right,
I
the leader, a very effective leader, because I
informed and
could be
am
well-
I can ..."
"That's nonsense, you can't be a leader." "I
would
"Damn it, stop bragging. always
hate that,
I
I
hate
it.
"Gentlemen, gentlemen, please stop arguing.
you are cousins, you are shouldn't fight and berate each other." all,
"That's right, this whole thing
argue about a
silly
.
You are
is
a joke,
It's
not
you
friends,
you shouldn't
thing like this."
"I wasn't arguing with him.
say he
I just
is
mistaken
he thinks he can be leader." "I'm not mistaken, people who know
I
.
..."
proper. After
if
."
certainly be a better leader than you.
me
all
say that
." .
.
"Well, of us
is
"Very
"You "Not
let's
more
ask the people right here which of the two qualified to be leader.
well, let's ask
are both being at all, I
." .
.
them." ." silly.
.
.
enjoy this sort of thing. This
is
they call the democratic process, the people decide
what
who
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—
should be their leader
exactly as in a democratic coun-
try."
"Since everybody
am
of the interior. I
"Very
well,
"Now,
let's
for leader. till I
is
getting a post,
I'll
be the minister
in charge of the elections."
you are
in charge of the elections."
have your votes,
We have
two candidates
begin here and slowly go around the room
I'll
have everybody's vote. You agha, for
whom do you
your vote?"
cast
"Leave me out of this. As you ested in politics.
am
I
know,
I
too busy earning a
children and family to care
all
know what
is
am not interliving for my
happening and
who is leader."
"How about you, agha?" "Why do you ask me, ask
the others
first. I'll
accept
anyone who becomes leader." "This agha won't take part in the elections far neither candidate has a vote.
"If dates.
So
agha?"
you ask me, I don't like either of these candiDon't laugh, I am serious. I don't trust these
men who
struggle hard to
the same.
They
cousin.
become leaders. They are all But I am not ambitious
are all tyrants.
and can be a more
my
And you,
either.
reliable leader than
.
brother or
.
"You are not a candidate,
"My
my
."
brother always does
don't disrupt the elections." this.
rupt everything, yet he claims he "That's true,
I
am
He is
always likes to
dis-
not ambitious."
not ambitious. But everyone here
knows that you always want to be leader and give orders and have your way in everything." 222
"I at least
am open
about
it.
I
admit that
leader and do things for people.
me
.
I like to
be
." .
You can't be a leader. You can hardly manage your own affairs. ..." "Look who is accusing me of not being able to manage personal affairs a man who is constantly at odds with "Don't make
laugh.
—
his wife,
body
.
tyrannizes his children, fights with every."
.
"Gentlemen,
let's
get
on with the
elections.
." .
.
"I don't fight with anybody, you are the one
always
fights.
Everyone knows
this.
You aren't on own
ing terms with half of your relatives, your will have nothing to to see
who
speaksisters
do with you and you never even go
your father and mother.
.
.
."
goddamned lie. I see them more often than you see them. You know, your trouble is that you are so damned selfish ." "You are selfish everyone knows that. You always want to act as the leader and dominate everybody. You "That's a
.
.
—
may
succeed with others, but you can't push
me
around. ..." "I don't think
"You
are just
"I don't think
"You
are just
"Damn
it,
"No,
won't
say.
.
.
I
let
.
.
." ."
.
.
.
.
." ."
.
.
me
talk.
you
let
.
." .
talk.
You have nothing
."
"You have nothing
to say.
You
are like a mule."
223
to
"Gentlemen, gentlemen, what happened to the
elec-
tions?"
"You
are the mule. It was
as a brother.
my
misfortune to have you
..."
"The elections, the elections. I give up." "Go to hell. I shouldn't even waste my time arguing ." with a punk like you. .
"Look, don't
call
.
me
neck.
.
I'll
break your
.
"Gentlemen, gentlemen, "If
punk,
a
."
it
please.
." .
.
weren't for these guests, I'd teach you a lesson
right now. ..."
"Gentlemen,
you
please.
whole thing.
started this
"No,
You know,
not his fault,
it's
it's
it's
all
your
fault,
." .
.
his brother's fault, he's
always this way. First he began quarreling with his cousin, then he picked
on
his brother. ..."
"That's right, he always wants to others.
He
is
"You're a cousin of
like a dictator."
liar,
his.
way on
foist his
my
husband didn't
start this. It's this
." .
.
"Please. Please. Please. Stop this fighting. eral people tried to intervene
and
conciliate,
.
.
."
Sev-
but soon
and uncles and cousins and sisters and wives and in-laws took sides and it was not long before the argument between brothers and cousins degenerated fathers
more general family quarrel. They shouted at one another, cursed and threatened, and rapidly the commotion grew noisy and wild. Several of the family elders who had been sitting in into a
224
an adjoining room intervened, and
after
much
shout-
pleading, and reprimanding managed to put an
ing,
Those involved in the fight were made to kiss and hug, and the few who resisted the conciliation efforts were pushed and pulled and made to kiss and make up. end
to the altercation.
"Let's go back to our poker game."
"Yes,
let's
go back to our game.
anyway? Anytime we
Why
we
did
stop, this sort of thing
stop
happens."
As the people slowly dispersed through the house, a him and said, "These people have no shame, even in the presence of
lady standing next to Aryana turned to
strangers they fight. Please forgive this distasteful scene. It is
shameful." She looked about at the people and
muttered, "They are always this way. fight.
You know how families
They
always
are."
"Yes, yes, of course. ..."
"In a country where brothers,
among themselves and how can we expect people agree
relatives, friends can't
cooperate in small matters, to
work together and
co-
operate in larger matters?"
Many of the guests sat at play, the rest all
the card tables
walked from one room
and began
to
to the other
on a window sill watching the people in the rooms and the children in the courtyard. He was suddenly seized by an overwhelming desire to be with Safoura. He walked watching and discussing the games. Aryana
casually out of the
room and
sat
quietly left the house.
He
hurried through the streets and in and out of the narrow, dingy alleys toward the Old City.
225
ir Safoura opened the door and
let
him
in.
"I was afraid
you wouldn't be home today. Are you busy?"
"What
am
if I
busy?
You
are always so considerate,
Daryoush Khan." "Well,
it's
Friday and
I
thought you might be with
your family." "I was with
my
family until about an hour ago. Did
you get your identity card?"
"They have promised But you know how they I'll
have
to give
fetch
dare believe
it."
my
dear agha,
let
me
and drink." They went into Aryana lay down on the wide she brought him honey cakes and homemade
you something
mattress,
me on Monday.
are. I just don't
"Well, don't be sad. Come,
the back
to
it
room and
jams and sharbats.
room with
its
to eat
as
He
looked about at the familiar
suspended lantern, ornamental cushions,
the old tapestries covering the walls, the ceiling, and
he muttered,
it's
good
to
be here,
it's
began
again. Safoura knelt beside him, caress
good
to
to
be here
rub and
him, but he half-arose, made her remain on her
knees and pulled up her dress.
.
.
.
227
When to
they stretched out on the mattress she began
rub him
gently.
"Do you want anything
to eat or
drink?"
He
shook his head.
"You know, you are the most
man
man, Daryoush. You
—how do they —the most paradoxical
I've ever
say
known."
Aryana turned "I think
are a strange
his
head and regarded her.
the right word.
it's
and these women
in the
I
mean, you
You
are so
humane,
at the
violent. I just don't understand.
know how modern you
How
ever met anyone
about the
who
And
is
not
all,
so
you
about prog-
don't think I've
I
much
and reminisce about
past,
this
are, always talking
loved so
this pos-
is
same time you are
and the future, but you know
ress
me
neighborhood with respect and
consideration, yet you like to hurt. sible?
treat
his
and
to sit
talk
childhood and
up at the ceiling and shook her head. "You confuse me. You really confuse me. Do you remember that man I told you about? Well, I everything." She looked
problem with him. He was violent and
never had
this
tyrannical
and old-fashioned and
his reactions. I
way
—
you,
clear
I just
that was that.
I
knew
understood him, because he was one
and without contradictions. But people don't understand. Just as
understand you, just
as I
I
like
begin to think
I
begin to think you are one
way, you do something the other way, and
I
am
left
completely confused."
He
did not reply, but remained immobile, gazing at
the tapestries, at impressions of remote gardens where
228
mind went
lovers dallied beneath cypress trees. His
around and around; he had long ago stopped trying to understand
this
paradox, this confusion, which entailed
more than simply understanding himself. For he was a product of many cultures and above all, of many eras, and therefore did not belong wholly to any one culture, any one era. He lived on the fringes of societies and ages and like a rootless, restless dervish wandered in these unsettled fringes, searching and searching for a world and an era to belong to. Long after she had fallen asleep, he remained awake thinking, gazing at the drawings on the tapestries
—
which, in the weak, flickering light of the lantern
seemed
to
come
strangely to
against a couple
Looking
at
hair and
brown
he
sat
up, leaned
and regarded Safoura.
of pillows
skin
which was the color of the Iranian
came
to
felt closest to his
though he had
woman
him that with a country own severed roots. For althe
felt this affinity, this closeness to
women
earth with some foreign
Jewish
He
her wide hips and heavy thighs, her dark
earth, the thought
woman
life.
in America)
it
(for instance,
was with a
native land that he felt closest to his past closest to his self. It
occurred to him
he had always unconsciously known
why he had not taken
a
woman
woman
that
of his
and therefore
now
that perhaps
this
and that was
but had waited until he
returned to his native land.
When
I rest
he thought, soil of this
it's
my as
head on the bosom of
though
country.
I
When
have rested
my
this Safoura,
head on the
her hands caress
my
head,
229
they are
my
mother's hands caressing me.
bodies are united, of
my native
life?
enjoy the music tions I enjoy?
earth and to
can give. I
linked to the
Does
it
woman
dear country
enigmas of
I feel
land.
Does
of
She gives
my
past
He sat up
should try to take
mine cannot
and the earth
this
sit
our
woman,
and
this
discuss the
really matter that she does not
it
I like,
soil
matter that
When
the books I read, the conversa-
me
that sense of closeness to the
which no
intellectual stimulation
when I go abroad with me an Iranian woman, maybe
thinking, perhaps
Taking her I will be taking a part of and whenever I feel homesick and crave to go back, I will go into her, I will open her and look at her and I will drink and drink and drink from her till all this sadness, all this loneliness, all this nostalgia and emptiness diminish and bring me a little comfort. And when one day, in some remote place, far away from here, death calls me, I will put my head on her body and feel that I have, for the last time, returned to my native land and I will rest in peace. He fell asleep, but woke up in the middle of the night and felt Safoura's hand roaming all over his body. "Daryoush, make love to me again." In the darkness, her large thighs opened and took him in. He remained there on her the whole night, and dreamt over and over again that the Old City had opened up and taken him even
my
this Safoura.
native land with me,
in.
Aryana stayed with her the next day and the day after and the two hardly left the back room. On Mon230
Aryana arose early and went to the Bureau of Civil Registration. Mr. Engineer Janan welcomed him
day,
warmly and invited him to sit down. "It's been a long time I haven't had the honor to see you, Mr. Aryana." ''You were the first person I saw here more than two ." months ago. Since then I have been running after "Yes, yes, of course. But why didn't you tell me you were a friend of Mr. Kourosh Firouzan? I wish you had told me you were his friend, I would have issued your identity card that very first day you came here, I would .
.
have issued
it
immediately."
Aryana stared at him but did not reply. "A few days ago I think it was last Thursday was
it
ship
I
— — Thursday— Kourosh Firouzan, whose
yes,
friend-
last
have had the honor of enjoying many
here to see
me
about some
affair of his,
look Engineer, at the Police Department
years,
came
and he
said,
I just
an old friend, Mr. Daryoush Aryana, who has
ran into lost his
and needs a new one. Be nice and help He is a very refined man, and he doesn't
identity card
him get it. know his way around these offices. I told him, I said, look Kourosh, I remember this agha, he came here to see me a long time ago, had I known he was your friend, I
would have been honored
mand and
he came here."
He
offered
Aryana
dered the attendant to bring of
Kourosh Firouzan. This
rosh
is
-"Yes,
a very, very fine
he
to
obey his com-
issue his identity papers that very first time
is
a fine
is
tea.
cigarettes
and
or-
"So you are a friend
a pleasant surprise.
Kou-
man. ..."
man. Mr. Janan,
last
week, Major 231
Andriman
instructed
me
come here today and
to
re-
my identity card from you. He said General Andriman would call you about it." Mr. Engineer Janan frowned as he said, "Who is General Andriman? Do you mean General Andriman ceive
the statesman?" "Yes, yes."
"This
is
very strange.
from anyone
to issue
I
haven't received instructions
your card. God
one from higher up has called cellency General
me
is
my
about
witness,
it.
no
His Ex-
If
Andriman had called this Bureau, known about it."
everyone would certainly have
"This about
is
indeed strange. But he promised to
call
you
my identity card."
"I swear to you, Mr. Aryana, that he hasn't called.
Ask anyone you want. This hide.
not something one can
is
He is a very, very important person."
"Didn't a Major Andriman
call
You can be
"Absolutely not.
here either?"
sure that
no one has
called here about your paper."
"But
don't understand,
I just
don't understand.
They promised to call." "Well, maybe they forgot. These
are very busy peo-
ple.
I
But anyway,
it
doesn't matter that they haven't
called."
"What do you mean?" "As
I
told you,
here and asked
me
our friend Kourosh Firouzan was to help you,
would. That same day after he
found
all
232
the information you
and
I
left, I
had
promised him
I
went downstairs, Mr. Bastan's
left at
and made out an identity card for you. I am very happy to tell you that it's all ready now." He opened a drawer and pulled out a paper which he gave to Aryana. ''Here is your identity paper, Mr. Aryana." office
Aryana arose and stared
in disbelief at his identity
he muttered. "I can't believe
card. "I can't believe it," it."
"Beg your pardon?" "I waited so long for this, I
it.
how
am
very grateful.
to
thank you. ..."
me
only did
am
can't believe I have
I
very grateful.
Mr. Aryana.
"Please, please,
having given
I
now
I
don't
know
must thank you
I
for
the honor to be of service to you. I
my duty as a friend."
Aryana thanked him again and went out of the room. Overjoyed and relieved, he walked downstairs, staring at his identity card.
told himself.
How
often have
appointed, dejected. believe
it,
I'm so happy
Now
can't believe
I
I
it
at last,
it
he dis-
at last. I just can't
never thought
I
it.
have
walked out of here
have
I
I
it
would
must be careful never again to lose this paper which says I am Iranian. It is good to be sometake so long.
thing.
It's
I
good
to
know
that
thing or some place. Even I'll
always keep
about
He
go and
this. I'll
that having
this. I'll
my
if
you are a part of someI never come back here,
go right
tell
now and
everybody.
identity card
I
tell
Safoura
never thought
would make me
so happy.
stood a long time in front of the building reading
At length, he walked slowly through the courtyard. As he was about to go and rereading
his identity paper.
233
into the street, he
saw Colonel Bourmand standing
at
The Colonel saw him and nodded. "Did you obtain the paper you rethe gate chatting with two men.
quested?"
Aryana waved his identity card and smiled. "Why didn't you come back to see me at the Police Department?"
"You made appointments with me but you never kept them." "Well, I'm very busy at the Police Department.
It's
not easy to see everybody." "It doesn't matter
you couldn't
see
now, but you should have told
me
me, rather than make promises and
not keep them."
The
Colonel frowned
you seem to see
to think
as
he stared
you were doing
favor. I
to
me
Aryana. "Agha, a favor
coming
me."
"I wasn't doing you a favor,
and
at
it
I
wasn't asking a
needed a paper from the Police Department,
seems to
help
and
me
me
obtain
and thank God,
I
it it.
was the duty of the
Anyway,
I
have
don't have to put
officials
my
there
paper now,
up with
all this
anymore." Still
frowning, the Colonel said,
anyway? Let
me
"What
is
this
paper
see it."
Aryana involuntarily held out his hand and the Colonel took the paper from him and glanced at it. "This is an identity card. It had nothing to do with us at the Police
Department."
"They gave me 234
the runaround here at the Bureau,
me
Department for a certificate of my Iranian nationality. At the Police Department they also gave me the runaround and in the end didn't give me the paper I needed. God knows how long I then sent
to the Police
ran after this identity card.
bad
as
as this.
abroad,
I
of days.
.
Why are these
people this way?
could have taken care of
If I
this in just a
were
couple
." .
"Enough saying. If
here,
have never seen anything
I
why
of this, agha.
you don't
You
don't
know what you
way
things are handled
like the
Go
don't you go away?
are
any damned place
to
We don't need people who criticize this country. We want people who are proud of their coun-
you want. try. If
you are not proud
"It's
my
of this country, go away. ..."
You
right to criticize.
are afraid of facing the problems.
"You
are not
.
.
."
from here, you are not one of
"Stop shouting, Colonel.
I
angrily. "I'll speak
you
."
us.
.
.
don't want to stand here
and argue with you. Give back to go now." "I will not give
you
are not realistic,
my identity card,
this paper," the
I
have
Colonel said
with the authorities about
this."
"Speak with anyone you want, but you have no right to
withhold
"Who
my identity card."
says I don't?
I'm an
officer of the Police
De-
You don't have the right to speak so irreverAny other officer would have had you arrested
partment. ently.
immediately.
Now
go away before
I
myself have you
arrested."
-The Colonel put Aryana's identity card
in
235
his
pocket,
and groaning indignantly walked toward
police jeep parked in the street.
Aryana began
a
to stop
him and demand his paper, but the other two men held him back, and one of them said, "Look agha, you better go away immediately. His Excellency the Colonel
is
may have you arrested, and you know how difficult it is to get out." The Colonel drove away in the jeep and Aryana
very angry and
stood on the sidewalk, transfixed.
He
time staring vacantly at the
traffic.
At
away
.
slowly, aimlessly.
The
.
.
stood
still
a long
length, he walked
next day Daryoush Aryana's body was found in
one of the narrow
were notified and
Old City. The police body was removed and the fol-
alleys of the
his
lowing report issued:
The
cause of this man's death
Iranian and
is
year 1964.
unknown.
He
looks
But the only document foreign and has only numbers
circumcised.
found in his pocket is on it. Some notes written a brief letter
is
in a foreign
language include
from abroad (without envelope) dated the
No
identity papers
were found on him, and
name and nationality are not known. This mans body was kept here three
his
relative or friend or foreign
days.
embassy came
But no to
claim
him.
Teheran Police 9 Azar 1343
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